What He Feels

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Chapter 10:

“Anong balita kay Angela girl?” Tanong ni Toni sa akin the night before the engagement party nina Kevin and Helena. We are eating sa may Little Panda, malapit sa St. Martin.

Akala ko may magagawa si Kevin tungkol doon. It turns out that they threatened him para lang pumayag siya. His parents knew his weakest point. Si Angela. Si Angela lang naman lagi.

Apparently, Angela’s mom knew about it kaya niya siya agad pinabalik sa California. Tita Alex is really kind. Pero I guess when it’s about Angela’s feelings, she could be very sensitive. Si Angela lang kasi ang nag-iisang babaeng anak niya.

I talked to Angela last night. She was crying on FaceTime. She said she really felt betrayed kaya never pa niyang sinagot ang tawag at texts ni Kevin.

Kevin, on the other hand, is dying. Nasa kabilang dako ng mundo ang mahal niya at galit ito sa kanya. What else do we even expect him to feel? At isa pa, wala nang atrasan iyong engagement party nila. Bukas na, e.

“To be honest, hindi ko alam kung kanino ako maaawa.” Ani Mika habang kumakain ng sisig. “True, kasalanan ni Kev pero kasi nakakaawa lang. Hindi naman ginusto ni Kev na maiengage kay Helena.”

I nodded. She has a point. Masyado lang sigurong caught in the moment si Kevin kaya wala na siyang nagawa about it.

“Pero, Miks, ‘di na tayo bata. I expected Kev to fight for his love for Ela.” Sabat ni Anika. “I mean, it’s not like he’s not earning much para sa future nila ni Ela. I bet, may ipon na siya para sa kanilang dalawa.”

That’s also true. If Kevin loves Angela, he would not let this engagement happen.

“I just wish everything goes well tomorrow.” Toni beamed. “I mean, kahit na ayoko sa ginawa ni Kevin, I wish that the event would go smoothly.”

I shook my head. “I wish he’d stand up for what he really feels.” I spoke. “Kung ayaw niyang makasal kay Helena, he better not show up tomorrow.”

The girls looked at me.

“Since when have you been the rebel girl type?” Mika asked me. “I thought you were always goody-goody!” She teased me.

I frowned at her.

“Iyan ba ang epekto ng pagiging girlfriend ni Clyde Kristoffer Santos?” Ani Anika habang tinutusuk-tusok ako sa tagiliran. Walang hiya! Harrassed na harassed na ‘yung tagiliran ko sa totoo lang!

“Uy, hindi a!” I denied. Hindi pa naman kami talaga ni CK, e. Siguro M.U. ganun pero hindi pa kami. “Hindi naman kami ni CK, e!”

They gave me suspicious looks. “Bakit hindi pa?” Toni asked. “I thought you were so in love with him kaya mo siya binigyan ng special second chance?”

“Toni, everyone deserves a second chance.” I told her.

She shrugged. “Probably not kung iniwan niya ako before.” She replied. “Because there are a lot of possibilities na kaya pa rin niya akong iwanan ngayon.”

Mika nodded. “Bakit ba kasi hindi na lang si Migs?” She laughed. “Bagay na bagay kayo kasi aso’t pusa kayo, e.”

I threw her a nacho. “Migs ka diyan!” Umirap ako sa kanya.

They all laughed at me. Iyong totoo? Anong nakakatawa? Dapat nga ako ‘yung tumatawa kasi walang sense ‘yung sinabi ni Mika.

Tumigil sa pagtawa si Anika. “Pero, kidding aside. Sina Rach at Migs na ba?” She asked. “I saw them kahapon sa CSI San Fernando. I think they watched a movie.” She shrugged.