Cross of Paths (Mafia Series#1) ON GOING

Chapter 24: Let go

(Ivy's Point of View)

I never knew that I would really suffer like this because of love. That feeling is a real sh*t. I shouldn't have been back here kung ganito lang ang kahihinatnan ko. I want to forgive him but when I saw them parang tumigil ang mundo ko.

I think I need to go back again. I hate staying here, kasi palagi ko siyang naaalala kada pumupunta ako rito. I don't want to waste my time just to hear him explain eh kitang kita ko nga sila ng babae niya. Well, I understand, kailangan ko na lang lumayo upang hindi ko sila magulo.

Nagpasalamat ako kay Gray at Kia bago nagpaalam kaninang umaga. Mom and Dad also let me go back again to Paris, I want to change. I want to be a strong woman.

Nag empake na ako ng mga gamit ko upang bukas ay handa na sa flight. Minadali ko na dahil sawa na akong manatili rito.

I will let them live happily but, never expect me to forgive them.

Hindi ko idadamay ang bata para lang sa pagmamahal na ito. Ang magandang paraan ay umalis na lamang at magpaka layo-layo upang makalimot.

Hindi na ako yung dating malakas, hindi na ako yung kayang indahin lahat ng sakit, at mas lalong hindi na ako yung babaeng hindi dinadala ang mga emosyon. I'm not the strong Ivy anymore.

So I have decided to go back, to fix myself. Pagbalik ko, hindi na ako yung dating Ivy, mas malakas na kumpara sa dati.

I immediately went to the sink when I felt my stomach turned upside down. Nagsuka ako at pagkatapos ay pinunasan ko ang gilid ng labi ko. What the hell? May sakit ba ako? Nahihilo ako at nagsusuka! Should I go to the doctor?

I dialed Harmony's number and she answered it immediately. "Hello?" I greeted.

"Ivy? How are you? Anong nangyari?" She asked. Oh I remember, she still doesn't know that I go back in the Philippines, I think I shouldn't bother her.

"Nothing, I just want to ask how are you." Ani ko at kinagat ang ibabang labi, Ivy the liar!

"Oh! I'm fine, how about you? Did you enjoy living in Paris?" Tanong nito.

"Oo naman, maganda rito. Siya nga pala salamat sa pagsagot ng tawag ha, I need to go now, I'll call you again if I have time..." I said and forced a smile. I shouldn't bother her.

Si Gray at Kia lang naman ang nakakaalam na bumalik na ako so nasa kanilang dalawa lang ang choice, but I remembered Kia is busy right now because of her arrange marriage too. I wonder if she's okay, I hope that she won't experience what I have gone through.

So I don't have a choice but to dial Gray's number. Mabuti at mabilis niya ring nasagot ang tawag ko.

"Gray..."

Narinig ko ang matigas niyang boses. "Why? Is there something wrong, Ivy?" Tanong niya at bakas sa boses nito ang pag-aalala.

"Pwede bang samahan mo ako magpa-check up?" I asked. I need a companion because everything is imposible to me. What if Kenzo is out there and waiting to catch me?

"Okay, I'll be there in a few minutes, send me your location." He said and ended the line. I also send my location to him by message, si Gray na lang ang mapapagkatiwalaan ko sa ngayon so siya muna ang mapagsasabihan ko.

I want to call my friends but they all knew I'm still in France except Kia. She help me that night, I hope I didn't bothered her.

Ilang minuto nga at mabilis na nakarating si Gray, he talked to me kung may nangyari daw ba o may masakit. I told him my condition and he said may isang posibleng rason kung bakit ako nagkakaganito.