Without You

prologue

A/N:

So this is my way of coping with zayn leaving, writing out what could be and how it would really be :(

I was thinking of writing this ever since the day he left but I just couldn't at that moment, I was too broken. But now I think I can, I mean it's my way of accepting and letting go

Hope you like this story guys, also find yourselves letting go with me

Also note, this is NOT a love story. This is a story of One Direction and a fan who cannot let go. I think we could all relate though! :(

- BritishBums x

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- Sam -

I could literally feel my heart break in two. And I just knew it couldn't be put back, ever again.

I gasped, reading the Facebook post on my phone, and as soon as I finished reading it, I wasn't stupid.

This was all fresh from management. Before I knew it, a tear left my eyes, and then followed more.

"Oh my god.'' I sobbed, falling to my knees. "No..No no no." I whispered. I had just gotten home from school, and honestly the day never went okay in the first place.

Before anything, I went to check twitter and what the hell was going on. This had to be some sick joke.. Zayn did not leave, he couldn't. And he wouldn't. I was left confused and sad about the situation.

Ever since the past few days, the fandom has been going through a ton of heavy and mixed feelings about Zayn and the boys in general.

Even I could tell something was going on ever since the beginning, and Zayn supposedly going on a break.. It just didn't seem right to me. Everyone was being so optimistic, saying he would come back and it wasn't a question.. There I was, all the bad things, getting to my head.

I fumble with my phone, trying to blink my tears away but my eyesight was still blurry.

"Sam." My best friend immediately said over the phone, she knew why I called. I could hear her crying too, as I just continued to pour my feelings out.

"No, Anna.. This can't just.. H-He can't." I sobbed into my hands, my heart dropping completely. "After five years."

And that was that... That was One Direction.