Sunsets and city lights with you

Thirty two

Agnes' POV

"I like you, Pat." and there it was. Words that I've been holding back ever since. Feelings I never thought I am capable of catching. My head is spiraling right now since this is all new to me. I honestly don't know what to do pero parang sasabog na ako kapag hindi ko pa sinabi. Aside from that, I remember I asked a sign from the universe nung first time naming mag perform together ni Pat. I guess a part of me is just scared about what comes after and the other is at peace knowing how worth it it is to fall for someone like her.

It's been a while since I confessed my feelings and still no response from Pat. She's just staring at me and I can't read her expression. Siguro na weirduhan sya, hindi ko pa nga alam kung open ba sya sa mga gantong type of relationship eh, or baka mag decide sya na lumayo na lang kasi things will probably be awkward after this. Hay eto na nga ba kinakatakutan ko eh. Many things are running through my mind right now. Feeling ko mali na umamin ako or siguro maaga pa? Or siguro dapa-

"I like you too"

There are moments in your life where you question everything about it. How true it is, How accurate your understanding about it, or sometimes, moments na hindi mo sure kung totoo or nananaginip ka lang or words that you never imagined you'll hear because it's too good to be true. It's actually one of my flaws, sa sobrang napapalibutan ng walang kasiguraduhan yung mundo, there are things for me that I find hard to believe.

This is one of those moments.

"W-wait.. ha?" I stuttered.

"For what it's worth, Agnes..." she started talking. "I didn't even see myself liking someone again. After what Dave did, my whole world came crashing down around me. Everything I knew about love, disappeared. Parang back to square one lahat. But then I found you..." She smiled at me. "You gave comfort to my life, Agnes. Comfort I didn't even know I will find here, or ever at all."

"Alam mo bang ilang linggo na nag aaway yung heart and brain ko kung aamin ba ako? This is the first time that I actually like someone tapos nag ka-gusto pa ako sa dapat kaibigan lang" I laughed. "I was so scared na kapag nalaman mo, masisira friendship natin"

"You know I could never do that. Talikuran ka man ng mundo Agnes, andito lang ako." Pat said. "Chaka hello??? Sino ba namang hindi mag kakagusto sayo"

"Thanks ako lang to" asar ko
"Yabang mo" sabay irap sakin

"Pat?"
"Mhhm?"
"If you don't mind me asking, what happened between you and Dave?"
"Ah yun.."
"You don't have to if you're not yet comfortable"
"No, it's fine" she assured me. "Childhood friends kami ni Dave kasama sila Toni and Andrew. Business partners kasi parents namin simula bata pa kami. Everyday kami nagkakasama ng mga yon hanggang high school. Ayun okay naman kami nung una, legal din kami both sa parents namin. I actually thought I'm one of those few people who are lucky enough to find the love of their life sa first jowa. Lagi nila sinasabi na perfect couple kami, kasi nga from best friends to lovers tapos close pa families namin. Chaka Dave was actually a good guy back then. Things started to chance nung 2nd year high school kami."

"Change? In what way?" I asked.
"He changed. Little by little, nawala ako sa mundong binubuo nya para sa sarili nya." I can still see the sadness in her eyes as she tells the story. "Naging star player sya ng school namin. Naging famous sya tapos super busy sa mga basketball practice and games. I tried naman to be supportive because that's my duty as his girlfriend eh, to support him at all times especially at things that he loves doing. I didn't know na yun pala magiging reason for our relationship to fall apart. Don't get me wrong, okay lang naman sakin na nag lalaro sya, hindi naman ako yung tipo ng girlfriend na pinapapili yung jowa kung ako or his passion, pero may line kasi talaga eh. It's too much. Parang nakalimutan na nyang may girlfriend sya. He even forgot our dates and even my birthday."
"Ang gago naman nyan. So after that nakipag break ka na?"
"Tanga na kung tanga pero nope"
"Ha? Bakit? He don't deserve someone like you"
"I stayed. Hanggat sa may makakapitan pa, hanggat sa may reason pa, hindi ako umalis."
"Kahit ginagago ka na?"
"I use to believe back then na he'll comeback to his old self. Hirap din kasi ako bumitaw since first love ko sya. I really thought I'm going to spend the rest of my life with him. Buti na lang hindi" napatingin ako kay Pat. "Dave cheated on me."
"Wait...what?!" I was furious. Ang kapal ng mukha nya
"Yep. He had a one night stand. Ka-batch namin yung girl. She came clean to me and said na akala nya break na kami ni Dave kasi yun yung sinabi nya. I confronted him about it and he said it was true. Tapos ang dami na nyang sinabi na hindi ko na masyado matandaan sa sobrang sama ng loob ko. I broke up with him instantly and sabi ko wag na sya mag papakita sakin ever."

"Ano sabi ng parents mo? Nagalit din siguro sila" Pat laughed sarcastically. "That's another interesting story." I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion. "Sinabi lang nila na part daw ng relationship yun and sana pinatawad ko na lang lalo na bata pa naman daw kami. Hindi ko alam kung saan nila napulot yung idea na yun pero there's no way I'll believe that bullshit. Up until now umaasa pa rin sila na mag babalikan kami. They don't even know how big of a mess I was after our break up. Feeling kasi nila nag d-drama lang ako. Sa sobrang busy nila sa work they don't even have the decency to be there for me nung lugmok ako sa buhay tapos kung ano ano pa sasabihin. Pero sino ba naman ako para mag reklamo diba? Anak lang naman ako" Tears are starting to form in her eyes. "I have a complicated life, Agnes. Everything about me is chaos."

"Okay sabihin na natin na you're complicated, but great things don't come easy, Pat. I'd choose your chaos over any easy person I could ever get" she looked at me in admiration.

"Aside from that, complicated life? That makes the two of us."