You sit up the next day and wipe your face andnyou go into the bathroom and wash your face and you see sincere on the couch watching TV
You: hey papas you okay
He ignores you giving you a mean face and your heart drops
You: here. How about we go get ice cream for you forgive me baby
Sincere: okay. I I im I'm soy mama.
You: its okay. You didn't mean it
You get him dressed and you put on some sweatpants a hoodieand walk to the ice cream place and you see ruby and jasmine
You: hi.
Ruby: hey whats up
You: nothing just lost my everything
Jasmine: girl what?
You: me and geesy had a huge fight so now we said bye I guess. I dont know what it mean but we said it.
Ruby: oh val noooo. Im so sorry v.
You: its fine. Ill figure it out.
Ruby: you'll get it.
Jasmine: for sure
You: bye guys
Ruby: bye val. Bye sincere
Sincere: bye wuby bye jas.
You get him his ice cream and walk back home
Sincere: can dada call me
You: he's not gonna
Sincere: no no tamo now?
You: no.
Sincere: daddy don't love me no more?
You: I dont know. I think he loves you a lot papa
Sincere: no doesn daddy always call me mama.
You: not anymore.
You lay down in your bed crying and your phone goes off with notifications on Instagram and you see people taggingnyou in stuff of you sincere and geesy and you throw your phone screaming.
You: WHY THE FUCK
You lay there silently crying and you just start to feel numb after a while and you end up cutting your arms as a punishment for sinceres pain
You: you fucking dumbass. How you okay with hurting him like that. You fucking stupid.
You put the razor blade in your drawer and put a hpodie on and you go back to sleep,
November 1st 2021
You wake up and wipe your face and you sit there cutting for a while out of routine and you put your hpodie on andngo fo the bathroom and sincere hugs you
Sincere: is almost my birday mama.
You: I know. Youre having a party here
Sincere: cool mama.
He kisses your thigh since he's short and he sits on the couch with his pacifier in his mouth and he lays down
You: Mateo can you please
Mateo: yea.
He takes sincere to your room and you lay on the couch crying again and you sit up hearing the door and you open it seeing Cesar
Cesar: hey.
You: hi
Cesar: whats up.
He smiles flopping onto the couch
