stains [ashton irwin]

29 December

Dear Ashton,

Its been five days since I lost you, and there's two days until I have to find myself.

New year's is coming, and you're the only thing on my mind. It's supposed to be a time of renewal. Of empty resolutions and too many drinks. My parents are telling me to focus on myself. Move to a new city, get a new job, reestablish myself so I can learn to function without you. I guess I was too attached.

Maybe I leaned on you too much. Maybe that's the reason you decided to leave at night, because you knew I slept like a baby and didn't have to deal with my clingy behavior. Or maybe you're too much of a coward to do it to my face. At least you took the ring with you.

I miss the feeling of your lips against mine,

Elena.