In the dark is where I show my emotions
Hid away from everyone
No one can see me break down
I know it doesn't make sense to most
It shouldn't be this way
And I should show how I really feel
But here in my room there's no judgement
Just me and my thoughts running rampant all alone
If I share what's in my head and no one understood
Where would I be?
It would still just be all me but I'm trying to bring out another me
She'll be better, she'll be kind and she'll be tough enough to take what others throw
But for now it's just me and that's okay
My mother says I'm not alone and I know that
My friends tell me they're here for me and I know that too
So why is it that when it really matters I can't bring myself to speak up
It's like my mouth is glued shut and my limbs weigh more than I can bear
But here in my room there's no judgement
Just me and my thoughts running rampant all alone
If I share what's in my head and no one understood
Where would I be?
It would still just be all me but I'm trying to bring out another me
She'll be better, she'll be kind and she'll be tough enough to take what others throw
But for now it's just me and that's okay
Sometimes I just want to turn back time
To when I was a child with a vibrant smile at every turn
Not a care in the world and happy as can be
Someday I'll get to be that girl again but older
I'll be a new me who can be the best I can be
But here in my room there's no judgement
Just me and my thoughts running rampant all alone
If I share what's in my head and no one understood
Where would I be?
It would still just be all me but I'm trying to bring out another me
She'll be better, she'll be kind and she'll be tough enough to take what others throw
But for now it's just me and that's okay
Right now I'll stay in my room in silence
In the dark of the night I'll cry
I'll play music and read books as a distraction
From the pain inside my head all the time
And someday I'll be the girl I wish to be
I'll get out of my head and I'll be happy again
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I wrote this a month ago but I'm just now getting to put all of my songs on here so sorry but it's going to be a lot of spam.
Some of you already know but I was diagnosed with depression the day before yesterday and I was prescribed with medication so at some point maybe my songs will get a bit happier. The only time they're getting happy right now is when I make up a story and even then it's just trash lol
I love you all so much. For those of you like me who cry in the dark or simply can't cry and have to stare at the wall feeling numb, I love you so much. You're worth everything. You belong here. I'm here if you ever need or want to talk.
*kisses*
~Lizzie
