Unraveling your Heart

Simula

The clouds are pastel already, there are shades of yellow, pink, orange— like being layered. The sunset is beautiful, everyone is but am I? Am I worth to watch? Am I worth the time? It looks more happy to watch it with him, will that day still arrive or not? That makes me wonder most of the time.

While entering the restaurant I saw my friends waiting for me, I sneakly approach them and I heard them talking "San na ba yun si Amelia? naging pediatric nurse na ang tagal ng dumating" I heard Senthy, my friend.

"Hoy! pake mo ba pag na tagalan ako? wala pa nga si Fleara oh" sabi ko sabay bigay ng batok sakanya. " h-ha nanjan ka na pala?" she nervously said.

"Anong akala mo sakin? anino?" sabi ko sabay upo sa tabi niya.

We are having a dinner right now kasi naka pasok si Senthy bilang investor sa eagle airlines kaya naisipan namin mag celebrate. She have everything already, is it?

"Oy! Senthy, kamusta na kayo nung ka fling mo?" tukso ko sakanya. "Hoy gago ka ba? wala kaya" she answered, clearly setting a shy face

"Hello Philippines! And hello world! It's your committed person, Fleara Love." she jokingly introduced herself to us.

"Sure ka? commited? ulol," pangaaway ko sakanya

"Amelia babes!" Tahol ni Kevin ng kakarating nya lang at agad nya akong niyakap. Kevin, my boy friend

"Kevinatics babes! hoy mith you!" sabi ko at niyakap siya at nag besohan pa kami. Kahit ganto kami ay komportable kami sa isa't isa.

"eh ako ba Amelia babes?" I looked at the person and it was Javion. Damn, how annoying this person was and still is..

"Hoy shuta ikaw na ba yan Javion? wow! naka hacienda lang tas gumwapo na, pero pangit parin" Ady said while rolling her eyes

"Kung sinagot mo lang ako nun, tayo na sana ngayon,hindi natin alam may anak na pala tayo ngayon" Javion replied with a smirk

"yucks! mabuti nga at hindi mo sinagot yan, Ady" si Senthy na humagalpak na ng tawa.

"Hoy naalala niyo pa ba si Alice? Yung nagka gusto kay Kevin noon? ayon na buntis na. May pamilya na, sana lahat" Pagsisimula na chika ni Fleara sa'amin

"sino ama ng bata? si Kevin ba?" Biro ko "shux maging ninang na ba ako dito?"

"Kahit naman maging ninang ka, tataguan mo 'yan tuwing pasko" si Kevin

Tumawa ako "True, charot!"

The dinner moved swiftly at puno chika lang ang mga ito. The samgyup was yummy. Eating samgyup with them always hits different, It taste yummier.

After ng dinner ay mag karaoke kami, catch up catch up lang daw muna. Agad naman akong pumayag dahil nag leave kami for 1 week sa trabaho. Is that how we miss each other? We guys rarely see each other.

"Tuloy na yung Balicasag natin ha" sabi ni Senthy na halatang lasing na

Senthy's alcohol tolerance is low, sa 3 shot lang nito agad na itong namumula at kahit ano ano na ang sinasabi

"shuta oo nga tuloy na nga yun naka pag impake ka na ba? ha senthy?" tanong ni Kiara, our other friend

Hindi naka punta sina Kiara at Carlo kanina kasi daw may priorities kuno sila. Though it's okay kasi adulting na din naman.

Nang tinawagan ni Ady si Kiara at Carlo na mag inom agad silang pumunta dito sa karaoke. Pag inom talaga pupunta talaga tung mga to

"Tangina niya! wala siyang hiya! sana mabulunan 'yon pag kain niya" sabi ni senthy at nilagok 'yung isang shot

Fleara went to Senthy and gently pat her back, whispering good words, kahit di ko rining ay alam ko na while on the other hand, Kevin was there slowly getting the hard liquor or Senthy's hand.

Aminin man natin o hindi, hindi parin siya naka move on sa Ex niya. Senthy is not that type to curse at someone.

"Senthy nyo, di pa naka move on" tawa ko "yucks! hindi pa naka move on, amp!" But, Did I move on?

"Kung maka salita naman tong si Liane  parang naka move on na sa Ex niya'ng  Architect na ngayon," tukso ni Carlo saakin at binato niya si Fleara ng unan, Nandamay pa.

Ady, Javion, Carlo at ako ay kumakanta ng mga kahit anong klase ng kanta na may halong sayaw habang si Kiara ay tahimik lang sa gilid, pinagmamasdan kaming lahat kaya pinuntahan ko siya.

Kia's like thinking deeply, I can sense it from her eyes. Lagok lang ito ng lagok  tila ba'ng may problema ito.

"Kung pwede lang kalimutan yung past nu?" Simula nito sa akin.

She was harrassed by her father when her mother died due to diabetes and due to her abusive father. It pained her a lot, Even I, I felt her aches.

"Inngit nga ako sayo eh, you still managed to stand up despite of the things that happened" sabi ko sakanya, My eyes started to pool.

Kitang kita ko na sakanya ang mga mata niyang halos na maiiyak kaya agad ko siyang niyakap and carress her back.

I know her too well. Di ko kaya'ng mawala ito sa tabi ko. She's like a rock that is hard to handle pero nawawasak din ito.

"Basta nandito lang ako palagi para sayo ha, pag may kailangan ka tawagin mo lang ako" sabi ko sakanya na halos maiyak na rin ako

"Eh pano ikaw?" sabi niya sakin

"ha? anong ako? tingnan mo yung pumasok sa pinto" nang sinabi niya iyon, agad akong napatingin sa pinto at tumahimik nalang sa kinauupuan ko

The air went heavy and cold for a moment.  It made me tremble. After years of pretending to be okay, I suddenly feel okay? His white office long sleeves ay naka tupi hanggang siko paired with black slacks.

Even if it's dark here in the Karaoke room, With just a disco light and other colorful lights, I can feel that his eyes are.. Damn! I miss him so much.

It was Azriel with a woman na mga 7 months buntis ata. I'm jealous of how he holds the woman. Kinuha niya pa talaga yung coat nya at sinuot niya ito sa buntis na kasama niya. Ba't pa to sila lumalabas? safe kaya? mapapahamak lang ang baby eh..

I bittered myself in order to stop thinking of that man!

SINO BA 'YAN? BA'T PA 'YAN PUMUNTA DITO?!

he's so annoying!

Sunod sunod ko inunom ang alak na nasa harapan ko at yumuko, hinilot ang ulo

I guess he's already happy, I guess ako lang siguro ang hindi nakalimot sa aming dalawa, bu then, why should I let this man affect me? I'll treat him the way he did to me! 

"Miss, can you pass me the pillow beside you" Sumalita si Azriel. Sinabi niya na tila bang wala kaming pinagsamahan.

Hindi ko ito pinansin at nakatulala lang pero siniko ako ni Kiara

"Pillow daw," she whispered at me.

Agad akong napatingin sa square pillow na katabi ko binigay ko ito sakanya

I guess he never really love me. I guess it was all an act. When will I be happy? when my love is having a family.