KARMEN (trixya)

Chapter 13 - Back to Her

2 Months Later

Working at Rosé's was a nearly therapeutic experience for Katya. The place looked like a bird cage, but decorated with all types of plants and flowers, without mentioning it smelled like the most delicious and delicate perfume she'd ever smelled before. It was nice to work somewhere where she wasn't being judged, for once. Rosé, the owner of the shop, was the sweetest human being Katya had ever met, and was becoming one of Katya's closest friends.
Gary was a little upset when she told him she was leaving, but he understood her reasons. They were still friends, after all.
Brooke had been updating Katya every time she had news on Trixie's case and Trixie herself. On that Friday afternoon, Trixie would be leaving rehab; at least would stop living there. She would still attend meetings and would be treated by doctors, but would be able to sleep at her own house. That very day was also the day of the trial for the case of the car accident caused by her managers. Brooke was ready to defend her, Violet was ready to testify and the detectives had more than enough evidence to send them to prison.
What Trixie didn't know, was that Katya was going to leave her shift earlier to pick her up and take her to court.
Katya drove happily from the flower shop to the rehab, thinking about the girl she loved. It would be the first time in over two months that she would be seeing  her, and her heart was racing with anticipation. She was nervous and happy at the same time.
Katya parked her car outside of the rehab, and right when she left her car, she saw a tall girl with very long blonde hair sitting on a bench outside the place. She held a little suitcase on her hands, her long fingers shaking. Her little yellow checked dress' skirt was flowing with the wind, revealing her long legs. Katya approached her slowly, admiring every detail of the distracted girl that hadn't noticed her presence yet. 

''Hi, stranger.'' Katya said, smiling at her.

Trixie sighed, surprised to see Katya. She stood up from the wooden bench and smiled widely at her.

''Hey!'' Trixie still looked like she was looking at a ghost. She couldn't believe her eyes. ''What are you doing here?''
''Aren't you happy to see me?'' Katya said, while walking towards Trixie.
''I am! I really am...I just asked because...Brooke said Michael was going to pick me up...''
''Well, she lied to you. Surprise!''
''Are you here to pick me up?''
''Yes I am, miss Trixie. How are you doing?''
''I'm better. I'm glad I get to leave this place this soon, most people stay here longer but...anyway, I'm much better now.''
''I'm happy for you.'' Katya smiled sincerely.

They stared at each other in silence for a while, both of them with expectation in their eyes.

''Can I hug you?'' Trixie finally said.
''Of course.'' Katya held her tighter than she'd ever held anyone. It was impossible to hold back the tears that were coming out of her eyes at that point. She had never missed someone that much before. There was no doubt, Trixie was the love of her life.
''I'm so happy you're here, Katya. You have no idea of how much I've missed you!''
''Oh, I've missed you so much.'' Katya parted them and sat down on the bench, guiding Trixie by the hand to do the same. ''Listen, the trial isn't until four hours from now. I really want to talk to you a little bit, is that okay?''
''Sure! I really wanna talk to you too.''

They stared at each other uncomfortably for a few seconds. It had been a while since they'd seen each other, after all. And they didn't exactly end things in good terms.

''I'm sorry. About everything.'' Trixie began saying. ''I imagine how hard all of that must've been for you. It would've been selfish of me to ask you to stick around, especially after the things I said on TV. I'm really sorry.''
''Baby, you were a victim of the situation just as well. But it was hard, I'm not gonna lie. To hear you say those things, I...I never blamed you though. And I'm not angry at you. In fact...I never stopped loving you. It was never about you, it was the whole situation. And I want you to forgive me for leaving you. I felt terrible after I found out about your...relapse. If I were there for you...''
''Don't. Don't apologize. This is their fault. Okay?'' Trixie placed her hand on top of Katya's on the bench. ''After the trial I'm gonna talk to the press. I'm gonna come clear about everything. I'm gonna come out, finally, And I'm gonna tell them about...us, if you don't mind, of course.''
''I don't mind at all.'' Katya smiled, and then paused for a while. "Trix, um...''
''I want to get back together with you." Trixie interrupted Katya. "know everything is weird right now, but I really wanna try again. I just...I love you so much and this feeling hasn't faded at all...''

Katya took a few deep breaths and stared at Trixie's hand on top of hers on the bench before saying something.

''It is weird...but haven't we always been a weird thing?''
''We are a weird thing.'' Trixie giggled.
''I love you, weirdo.''
''So...does that mean you wanna be my girlfriend again?''
''Of course I do!'' Katya leaned over slowly and tenderly kissed Trixie.

It was like finally drinking water after running a marathon. The taste of her lips recharged Katya's body with happiness and love, feelings that she'd been missing for the last couple of months. At some point during the kiss, Katya felt Trixie's warm tears touching her cheeks.

''Baby, are you crying?''
''I'm sorry, I'm just happy. You see...when I was having psychotic breakdowns because of the abstinence, I kept calling for you. Sometimes I wouldn't remember, but they always asked me who was that 'Katya' that I kept calling for. At some point I...I really thought I'd never see you again. And that was killing me.''
''Oh, baby...'' Katya pulled Trixie in for a hug, Trixie's head resting on the crook of her neck. ''I'm here now. I'm never leaving you again.''

They stayed for a few minutes in silence, enjoying each other's companies and caressing one another. They felt comfortable being in silence around each other, just feeling.

''Babe?'' Trixie said.
''Hmm?''
''How much time did you say we have?''
''Four hours, why?''
''You see...'' Trixie stared into Katya's beautiful blue eyes. ''When I said I missed you I meant your smile, your smell, your face, your love, your body, and especially your touch.'' Trixie ran her thumb on Katya's bottom lip, delicately.
''Do you wanna go somewhere where you can see all of that again?'' Katya said, almost whispering.
''Take me to your place.'' Trixie whispered in Katya's ear.
''Your wish is my command.'' Katya whispered back.

xxx

At Katya's apartment, they went in like it was their honeymoon. Katya held Trixie tightly yet delicately against the wall, kissing her lips and caressing every shred of her hair.

''I need to...take...a...shower...first...'' Trixie said between kisses.
''We can start there, if you want to...'' Katya suggested, moving her kisses to Trixie's neck.
''That sounds good, oh...'' Trixie moaned.

Katya stepped back a little and took off her burgundy sweater, then took off the t-shirt that was underneath it. Meanwhile, Trixie stood still, looking at Katya with a happy yet worried glimpse.

''What is it? Everything okay?'' Katya asked, tenderly caressing Trixie's cheek.
''I'm just nervous.''
''Why is that?''
''You know...it's been a while...''
''Well, if it makes you feel any better, it's been a while for me too.''
''So you haven't been with anyone since me?''
''I haven't...I didn't want to.''
''Okay...good...''
''Listen to me.'' Katya held both of Trixie's hands and looked her in the eyes. ''I know it's a little weird and awkward now. We can take it slow, I don't mind it. I'm already happy just to be with you.''
''I want you to make love to me.'' Trixie said, softly.
''Okay.'' Katya smiled, still looking into the little brown eyes in front of her. ''Do you want to wait for me in the shower?''
''I'll be waiting'' Trixie said while nodding and walking towards the bathroom.

Katya took the rest of her clothes off and stared at herself naked in front of the big mirror she had in her bedroom. She had been working out on her free time to release a little bit of the stress she had been going through, and it was already paying off. She looked like she was sculpted by the gods, and couldn't wait for Trixie to see her new shape. She tied her hair up in a messy bun and walked into the bathroom. The steam was making the glass door of the shower foggy, so the only thing she could see Trixie's beautiful silhouette. She opened the glass door and walked in, already sweating from the steam.

''Hi, my love...'' Katya said, hugging Trixie from behind and placing gentle kisses on her freckled shoulder and her neck.
''Hi baby...'' Trixie closed her eyes and smiled, accepting Katya's kisses.
Katya put Trixie's wet hair on her other shoulder, leaving room for her to kiss her back. Trixie held her head down, allowing Katya to explore every inch of her back, shoulders and neck with kisses. Katya turned Trixie around to face her and stared are her for a little while.

''You're so beautiful...''

Trixie smiled and pulled Katya closer by the waist.

''I love you, Katya.''

They smiled on each other's lips before kissing with a slow and passionate pace. The feeling of their wet bodies touching was already arousing both of them. Katya was slightly shorter than Trixie, but she was already used to kissing her on her tiptoes, which also meant that their breasts where touching as well. Trixie held both of Katya's breasts on her hands, gently squeezing them and pinching her nipples softly, making her moan. Katya explored every bit of Trixie's ass with her hands, giving it caresses and gentle squeezes.
Trixie stopped kissing Katya's lips to give some attention to her neck, eventually moving down to her breasts to then kneel before her. Trixie held Katya by her lower back and kissed her inner thighs for a while before licking her most sensitive area shallowly a few times.

''Baby...I need you to do it now...'' Katya said with agony on her voice.

Trixie went in with her tongue, hitting all the right places with it. She knew just how to drive Katya crazy. Katya tried her best not to strongly grab Trixie's hair, for she was feeling immense waves of pleasure running through her body at that moment; it was impossible, though, to hold back the moderately loud moan she released when she orgasmed. Her legs weakened and she keeled in front of Trixie, completely spent.

''Baby...I think I squirted on your mouth...'' Katya said, lying her head on Trixie's chest in front of her and hugging her.
''I'll take that as a compliment.'' Trixie kissed the top of Katya's head.
''God, sex with you ages like wine. You're amazing.'' Katya lifted her head up from Trixie's chest and kissed her, tasting the remains of her own fluid. ''Do you wanna stay here or do you wanna go to the bedroom?''
''The bedroom is more comfortable, I guess.''

Trixie stood up and helped Katya, who was still a little weak in the legs, up. They turned off the shower and didn't even bother to get dry before making their way into the bedroom.

''Have you been working out?'' Trixie asked when she finally took a good look of Katya's body.
''I have! Do you like it?'' She turned around, showing Trixie her ass and smiling over her shoulder.
''You are the most beautiful, hot, amazing, stunning, gorgeous woman I've ever seen in my life.'' Trixie placed kisses on Katya's lips between words.

Katya laid Trixie gently on the bed, lying next to her right after. She ran the tips of her fingers through Trixie's wet arm, her cheeks, breasts, stomach; all the way to her waist. Katya made Trixie lie on her back and sat on top of her hips, kissing her. While she was standing on her left elbow beside Trixie's head, her left hand slid through the girl's wet body, massaging and caressing all the right places. She laid half of her body on top of Trixie; her hand traveled south on her body and started to touch her slowly. Trixie turned her head to face Katya and gave her a long, passionate, wet kiss. When Trixie started to moan on Katya's mouth, the girl on top knew to increase a little bit her hand's speed.

''I want you inside me...'' Trixie moaned, her lips rubbing on Katya's.

Katya gave her one last kiss before leaving her side to lie on her stomach before Trixie's pussy. The area was red, swollen and soaked, ready for her. Katya went in with tree fingers, and her tongue kept doing the job on the outside. Trixie's eyes were closed and her smile was wider than ever. She couldn't help but saying Katya's name over and over, the only word she could remember then. Katya had done this to her before, but the meaning of making love was clearer than ever on her head, and she was enjoying every bit of it. Trixie asked her to not stop even after she orgasmed, and Katya followed through, making her come twice, thrice, and then, finally, four times.

''My mouth is almost numb, but to see you so full of pleasure, so happy...totally worth it.'' Katya lay tired, next to Trixie.
''I feel like I could sleep for days...'' Trixie's eyes were still shut and she remained smiling.

Trixie finally opened her eyes and lay on her side, facing Katya. Trixie kissed Katya's cheeks, nose and lips tenderly.

''Thank you.'' Trixie said, while running her fingers through Katya's hair.
''For what, my love?''
''For existing in this lifetime. For crossing paths with me, and making me fall in love with you. This is the happiest I've ever been.''
''I say the same to you. I love you so much.'' Katya wrapped her body around Trixie's on the bed on a loving hug.
''I lov...baby?''
''Hmm?''
''What time is it?''
''Holy shit!'' Katya stood up from the bed quickly and checked the time on her phone. ''He have an hour and a half, hurry up! We gotta go now!''
''Oh my God, we totally lost track of time.'' Trixie said, picking up clothes from her suitcase.

Katya put on black jeans and a white turtle neck long sleeved shirt. She brushed her hair furiously and put on the first pair of black boots she could find, whereas Trixie was wearing a pastel pink midi circle skirt with a white organza shirt and her signature white pumps. Her hair was beginning to dry naturally, so she just brushed it, put on some makeup and they were ready to go.

xxx

''Where were you two? It's almost time for the trial!'' Brooke said angrily when Trixie and Katya entered the court.
''I'm so sorry, we just, hum...we...'' Trixie looked at Katya looking for help on making up an excuse for being late.
''We just, you know, we...stopped by...we were eating...''
''It's okay, I know how much you've missed each other.'' Brooke smiled. ''But let's go, the trial's about to start.

The trial took shorter than they thought it would. With all of the evidence, Violet's testimony and Brooke's impeccable defense, it was nearly impossible for the managers Felix and Fred to be declared anything else but guilty, which was the judge's verdict. When the trial officially ended, Katya rushed to hug Trixie, who was crying with relief while the police finally took her former managers away.

''You're free, Trix! You're free!'' Katya said, holding Trixie tightly.
''I am! We are.''
''Trixie!'' Brooke said, approaching them with a smile.
''Brooke, thank you so much!'' Trixie hugged the lawyer. ''You literally saved my life. I'll be forever in debt with you.''
''Sweetie, I just did my job! And I'm so happy that you're finally free from those monsters. The things they confessed in the interrogation when we caught them...You are so brave. So strong. And I'm glad that you trusted me to help you get your life back.''
''Thank you. From the bottom of my heart.''
''Thank her.'' Brooke pointed at Katya, who was talking to Vanessa just a few feet away from them. ''She's the one who came to me to ask to defend you.''
''She's my angel, Brooke. This is going to sound weird but, I'm so glad I hit her with my car in December.''
''Wait, that's how you met? God, you two are weird.'' She laughed.
''Actually we met when I bought vodka from the convenience store she works.''
''The same vodka you were on when you hit her?''
''Precisely...'' Trixie couldn't help but laughing at the way she and Katya met. It was ironic how much they've come to love each other after that.
''Come on, you have to go outside. The press is waiting.''
''I have to do something first. Wait for me there.''

Trixie walked towards Katya and was just about to say something when they got interrupted by Violet.

''Hi. This is really awkward and embarrassing for me, but...I have to apologize. For everything I did. I only got away with going to prison because there was evidence that they were threatening me if I told the police. I'm really sorry for all the damage I caused. I really wish nothing but happy things for you two. That's all.'' She was just about to walk away when Trixie called her.
''Violet...I don't know you very well. I don't even think I know you at all...But...It's okay. You just did what I wasn't brave enough to do. I know it came from a place of anger and jealousy, but still...It's okay. I forgive you. No hard feelings.''
''Thank you, Trixie. I appreciate it.'' Violet had her head down, her eyes staring at Katya with expectation.
''Good luck out there. Don't fuck it up again.'' Katya said while taking Trixie by the hand and waking away. It wasn't exactly an 'I forgive you' but in a way, it was. It was just in Katya's language.

Just before they walked outside of the court, Trixie held on tightly to Katya's hand and took a deep breath.

''Are you ready?'' Katya said, looking at her.
''I am.''

They walked out and there was a big crowd of press reporters with microphones and recorders asking multiple questions at the same time. Brooke made a sign with her hand, telling them to be silent.

''Hi. My name is Trixie Mattel, I am 22 years old. I am many things; an actress, a singer, a model, a person, above it all. And finally, I am free to share with the world another thing that I couldn't be prouder to be. I am, and I've always been a lesbian.'' The crowd started to buzz before the news. ''And most importantly; I've been forced to lie on national television about my sexuality and also...about my girlfriend, Katya.'' Trixie looked at Katya, who was standing a little bit behind her and took her hand, making her stand by her side. ''This is the woman I love. The woman who has been there for me ever since we met. She does not have any problems with alcohol...but I do. I am an alcoholic and drug addict in recovery and this woman is one of the few people who have helped me throughout all of that.''
''Is it true that you're a former sex worker, Katya?'' a reporter asked.

Trixie was just about to angrily respond, when Katya stepped up and said:

''Yes, I am. And there is dignity in that, despite what people have been telling me on the internet and to my face. I am proud of the work I've done, and I'm proud of the friendships I've made while I was there. And I deserve respect just as much as anyone else.''
''We've been through hell because of those two men who just walked out of here, handcuffed. All we ask right now is for everyone to respect our privacy, our relationship and our friends. One last thing; I am going on a hiatus on my career; for indeterminate time. I need to take care of my health, right now this is my number one priority. Thank you all for understanding.'' Trixie turned to face Katya and said in a low voice: ''Let's go home, my love?''
''Let's go home.''