Nung pagsakay ko ng cab eh di ko maintindihan yung nafefeel ko. Parang masaya na kinakabahan at naiiyak. Ang gulo dba? It's like what you feel when your having those dreadful exams(I'm using exams kasi alam ko marami mageexams ngayon!) na kahit alam mong nagstudy ka, kinakabahan ka parin. Irony. Tssss.
Nung nakarating narin ako sa St. Paul church eh mas lumakas yung heart beat ko. Nagbayad na ako sa cab driver at nandito ako nakatayo sa harap ng church. Pagtingin ko sa clock 'twas already 3:25pm. 25 minutes already passed. Nandyan pa kaya siya?
Nagstart na ako maglakad papunta sa loob ng church. Wait! If your asking what is with St. Paul, here's the sitch. Dati when we we're still living in New Jersey, parati kinukwento ni Mom at ng mom ni Zen ang St. Paul sa amin. It's one of the most biggest church and ito yung isa sa mga pinaka maganda. Marami na ring mga sikat na couples na nagpakasal dito sa church na ito. I wonder if I can be married here as well.
Pagpasok ko sa simbahan eh parang pang wedding yung theme. Naka all white knee length skirt pa naman ako at baby violet shirt. Nakita ko sa bulletin board nung church na may wedding pala bukas kaya ganun yung set up.
Naglakad naman ako dun sa aisle na feel na feel ang pagka bride pero syempre, 'twas all in my head. Nung nasa gitna na ako ng aisle eh may nakita akong note. Pagpulot ko may nakalagay dun.
"Having fun my bride?"
Pagtingin ko dun sa letter eh napalingon agad ako sa likod ko and saw Zen who is nandun sa may dulo ng aisle. How didn't I noticed him? Ang weird talaga. I watched him walk closer to me. Siguro nung mga few steps away na lang siya eh tumigil siya tapos nagka tinginan kami.
Your late. Napatingin ako nun sa baba. Ewan pero bigla akong nahiya at nafeel ko na namumula ako. Does he really need to mention it? Nakita ko na palapit pa siya sa akin at bigla ko na lang na feel na hinawakan niya ang pisngi ko with both hands. Nevertheless, my love for you wasn’t decreased.
Mas na feel ko na nagblublush ako that time. Ewan ko ba pero when boys back at New Jerset compliment me by saying I’m beautiful, they adore me or whatever it is, di ganito yung nafefeel ko. Back there was just like an “oh okay” phrase but this? It’s more of an “I’m melting” phrase.
Bakit mo nga ba ako pinapunta?
Tinangal niya yung paglagay niya ng kamay niya sa pisngi ko at tumalikod sa akin. What did I do? Tiningnan ko lang siya habang naglalakad at next thing I knew he faced me again then he said.
It’s my birthday.
Nagulat ako sa narinig ko. It's his what? Anong date ba ngayon? Omg! It's December 24th. I didn't noticed cause time passed so fast. Shoot! Wala man lang akong gift or birthday card kahit nga greeting from me wala rin. I'm such a bad person!
Jara. Nagulat ako nun nung nakita ko siya na few steps away nalang uli sa akin and he was stretching arms towards me. Can you join me for a moment of fun?
Hindi ko man alam kung anong balak niya gawin, sumama parin ako. I trust him and I know he won't lead me to danger. It's not only my trust that I handed him but also my heart that keeps beating his name.
Nung paglabas namin sa likod ng church eh nakakita ako ng lake. Sobrang ganda ng lake at hindi ako maka paniwala na nageexist ito sa likod ng church. Tama nga sila mom na maganda talaga ang St. Paul church. Sa gitna naman ng lake eh may parang flatform na may cover sa taas at may table for two. Couldn't he? Of course, sino pa nga ba dba?
Shall we?
Sumakay naman kami nun sa isang bangka na still was covered with blue laces and petals ng white rose. It's his birthday pero bakit feel ko parang sa akin niya ito inaalay? Syempre para di masira yung moment, may naghatid sa amin dun. Pagkarating namin sa flatform eh umalis na agad yung naghatid sa amin. What do you call him? Basta si Manong Bangkero. Teehee!
Pagtingin namin dun sa clock it was already quarter to 4. Ganun kami ka tagal sa loob ng simbahan at bangka? Whatever. Hindi ako masyadong gumalaw dahil from where I was standing the view and the scenery is breath taking.
How did you found this place? I mean you didn't annoyed your mom right?
Tumawa naman siya ng konti at nagsmile sa akin. The smile was formal pero ang cute parin. ^_^ Lalo na yung mala brown almond eye niya eh nawawala habang nagsmismile siya. From another place gumalaw ako pero nandun parin si Zen, may kinakalikot. Tapos bigla na lang tumugtog ang isang song. Yun pala yun. Kinuha naman niya yung purse ko at nilagay sa table.
Can I have this dance Ms. Dee?
Naggesture siya na yung kamay ba inioffer niya. Of course, tinaggap ko and we started dancing.
*Thank You For Your Love plays here*
My life was a constant uphill climb, never got it right. Each one I love went through a change of heart. You came and my world turned upside down, you sung a different tune. Can't let go it keeps playing on my mind.
You haven't answered my question yet. How did you foun-
Once, I remembered promising myself that I'll only bring one important girl here. Sabi ko, tatama siya sa 16th birthday ko. At least by that time mas mature na ako at alam ko na ang true from false, old and new and especially... Love from infatuation.
Now there's a reason to wake up each day. A reason to shake my blues away. Now I am whole, a lucky soul. Wanna thank you for your love. Thank you. Thank you for your love.
Now it's already my 16th birthday and your here with me. So, I guess you get it right?
Confused , my heart was in a daze and learned to live with pain.I loved in haste then watched it go to waste. You came and brought music to my soul, inspired me to the very core. You touched me where no one has been before.
Alam ko feeling mo masyadong mabilis lahat at siguro tingin mo hindi to totoo pero Jara, you know I love you right? I said it to you once and I won't bother saying it a million times again. I love you with all my heart and that's a fact.
Now there's a reason to wake up each day and I thank the Lord for sending you my way. Now I am whole, a lucky soul. Wanna thank you for your love. Thank you, thank you for your love. I saw the world in shades of black and gray turning blue with every passing day. Just when I thought that maybe all was lost, my life took on a new turn and it's all because, it's because.
Jara, can I court you?
Those words sank up late. Napatigil kami sa pagsasayaw pero tuloy parin ang music. Tuloy parin ang ikot ng mundo namin kahit ang kakaisang bagay na naririnig namin ay ang mga pintig ng puso namin.
No looking back, no more pain, no more dark clouds, no more rain. Thank you. Thank you for your love.
Pagstop nung music eh nagbitiw na kami sa dance positions namin. I know it's dorky na di ako sumagot pero hey! I'm a girl for crying out loud. Everyone knows na girls double check their feeling if they hafta follow it or leave it. But as the song said, no looking and I hope no more pain anymore.....
Pumunta si Zen dun sa table where may food at wine. Ewan ko kung nainis siya dahil wala akong nasagot or nahihiya siya dahil he have to ask me a question na di ko nasagot ng mabuti.
Zen...
Humarap siya sa akin at still, nag eye to eye kaming dalawa. Now, I won't take this as a regret in the future and I hope he won't too. This is one of my biggest decisions in life and I'm doing it for our happiness.
Would you still love me in the morning?
Nagsmile naman ako at pumunta sa kanya and I tiptoed(dahil mas matangkad si Zen ng ilang inches kesa kay Jara) and placed my arms on his shoulder. Yes, I hugged him. Hugged him as tight as I can and he hugged me back. Feeling his arms on my waist is a big relief. A relief that he feels the same way as I do.
Habang magkayakap kami bigla na lang ako napangiti. Kahit di niya nakikita alam kong alam niya na naka ngiti ako na parang bata na binigyan ng candy. Ikaw ba naman bulungan ng sweet na words di ka mapapangiti. Yes, he whispired me words. Words that I won't forget.....
Forever and ever Jara.
