*ZEN's POV*
Oo!
Nagulat na lang ako sa sinagot ko. Alright! Alright!! I lied that I was starting to fall for Jamir and I thought I could but... I'm fooling myself. I knew it was 'till him deep inside my heart from the very start. And that him is... Zen Andrews.
Anong sinabi mo?
Sabi ko oo! Oo, kung dati pa man sinabihan mo ko na mahal mo ko, sasagot ako na mahal kita ng walang alinlangan. Oo, nasaktan ako nung iwan mo ko magisa sa States at wala na akong kaibigan. Oo, ang sakit sakit nung nalaman ko na girlfriend mo pala si Diane. Oo... Umiiyak sya nun kaya napatigil sya at huminga ng malalim. Mahal kita.
Without second hestitaion, tumakbo ako sa kanya at niyakap siya ng mahigpit. Di naman ako nadismaya dahil yumakap rin naman siya. Yun bang yakap na feeling namin wala ng bukas. Feeling namin for a very long time, ngayon lang uli kami nagkasama.
*CHORUS OF UNBELIEVEBLE PLAYS HERE*
It's so unbelievable and i don't want to let it go, something so beautiful flowing down like a waterfall I feel like you've always been, forever a part of me and it's so unbelievable to finally be in love somewhere i'd never thought i'd be.
Don't let me go! Ever.
Pagkasabi niya nun, binaba ko siya at nagloose yung hug naming dalawa at nagkatinginan kami, eye to eye. Pinunasan ko yung tear stains niya at masakit isipin na ako ang reason bakit nasaktan siya. Kung di lang ako duwag.
Nilagay niya uli yung arms niya sa leeg ko at niyakap uli niya ako. Compared kanina, mas masarap yung yakap na to dahil siya yung gumawa ng way.
I won't lose you no matter what.
*MUSIC STOPS HERE*
After nung madramang pagaamin at iyakan namin, we both decided to sit down and talk. Ginawa naman namin.
So, when did it really started?
The day I realized your absence. It made me sad and since then I stopped eating Vanilla ice cream.
Nakatingin kaming dalawa sa malayo nun nung sinabi niya nun. Wait, what's with vanilla ice cream by the way? Vanilla ice cream, the comfort food of our souls.
Wait, what? You stopped? But you love it like hell remember. Ilang years na?
8 years na. Yeah, I loved it like hell and now I forgot how it tastes because of you.
I can't believe you!
Okay, you think it's just a little thing that I'm giving up eating vanilla ice cream? Hell no! It was a crucial sacrifice. First off, I lived my life with Vanilla Ice cream as comfort food and who I shared it with? Your favorite Prince Charming, Zen. But one day he left me all alone and sad. Since then I decided I shall and never eat my comfort food not unless with him. At first, yeah, was very hard but I loved him and that hurts more than giving up ice cream.
After that ice cream talk, it was 30 whole minutes of silence. Hindi ko alam kung na offend ko siya or what but as she said na she stopped eating our comfort food, somehow I was relieved. Relieved because I had the security that she'll give up the things she loved for me.
Nakatingin parin kaming dalawa sa malayo nun, inaabsorb yung thoughts. Inaabsorb kung totoo nga ba ito lahat at hindi isang panaginip lamang. It was already 5pm so the sun started to set. It was a perfect scenery for the both of us especially for our battered hearts that will soon be cured... I hope.
As the color of the big orange fire ball mixed with the blue and purpulish sky, I felt warm. Next thing I knew we were both holding each others hand. I felt good and a little less gloomy for beside me was my life.
Saktong pagset ng sun binitawan ni Jara ang kamay ko at nagulat ako nung bigla na lang siyang humarap sa akin at ang seryoso ng mukha niya.
Can you promise me that you'll never ever leave me nor-
I swear. I will not ever leave you again Jara. I will not risk another 8 years just to wait and be with you. I won't. I swear.
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*JARA's POV*
It's already Friday and a week after the resort escapade. After nung scenery sa beach with Zen na pagdesisyonan namin na itago na muna sa iba yung nangyari towards us and it's all because we don't want to hurt anybody especially Jamir and Diane. Call us selfish pero I think it was the best thing for now. We can pull it off anyway afterwards perhaps.
Papunta kami ni Mitch sa Art and Foreign Department. Actually magkatabi lang sila kaya naman kaming dalawa ang nagsama.
Onga pala, tapos na yung plans namin for the Holiday project at pumayag na yung kausap ng Mom ko about the band and yes! It will be Callalily. Both me and Zen can't wait for the 31st of December already. Yes, December 31 gaganapin ang Holiday Dance dahil yan talaga ang official date since forever. Merong fireworks display to add a bit of classy touch at ang bahala na ron ay ang Hand Works Member(it's an art club!).
Oh, here's my stop Jara. See you later okay? Chloe said she has to run some errands so she can't be with us later. Tuloy tayo dba?
Oo naman. I won't afford to lose another date with you Mitch. We have to patch things up.
Tama ka dyan! So text me after your class since mas una ako matatapos.
Nagnod naman ako at nagbeso siya sa akin. Dahil kasi nung afternoon meetings namin ni Zen for the Holiday Project wala na kaming time ni Mitch at Chloe gumala like the usual but since wala ng meetings in the afternoon, I can go out with them again.
Pagakyat ko sa 3rd floor which nandun ang Art room ko, 305. Marami-rami ang tao dahil kakalabas lang ng students ng Photography class. Medyo siksikan pero I get out alive naman. Pagkapasok ko ng Art class, naka settle na lahat so umupo narin ako sa chair ko which is close to the window.
Binuksan ko ang binder ko to read some notes para di ako mapahiya. Though I studied last night I think it's still good to double check. Pero nung pagopen ko sabinder ko nakakita ako ng picture ng sunset tapos pagtingin ko sa likod nung pic may note.
Tomorrow at St. Paul Church. 3pm.
-Zen
