ఌ Serenity
11 am • Home • Saturday
1/13/2022
past few days werent anything special i had dijour move in with me and that little video of us may or may not have went viral
we been getting real close and i think i wanna date him i mean people already think we do...
i found that i like to fight and it helps me not go into any withdrawals and get to taking pills and cutting myself
i have been good with telling dijour how i feel and he now knows to acknowledge when im not acting right
we really been chilling and i set up my other bedroom and bathroom finally
our last week of school is next week so i have to get ready for graduation and walking the stage its gonna be hard for me though
seeing that my dad isnt out of jail and my mom is no where to be found plus my grandmother is gone also
she was the one always on my team always there for me no matter what
she was my bestfriend my everything my world..
i try so hard to be better for her and to do great for her because i know she is looking down on me
i dont want her to think bad of me because im truly lost without her she kept me sane
i could never imagine life without her i was so hurt i could barely breathe at the thought of her not being here
i tried to clear my mind as i layed in the bed on my back as tears flowed down my face i stared at the ceiling as i cried harder but silently
dijour was currently in the shower and he said we were gonna go shopping he walked out the bathroom and I immediately caught his attention
"serenity you good.. cmere" he said as i didnt move he walked over to me and seen me crying he picked me up and held me against his chest as i cried harder
"calm down ttm" he said in a calm voice rubbing my back
"i-i miss her" i sobbed sniffling into his chest holding putting my arms around his neck "who ma" he said
"my gr-grandma" i said as i tried to catch my breathe but ended up coughing "you gotta calm down ok" he said soothingly into my ear
"we not gone leave rn lets just lay down" he said as he layed back and i stayed on top of him he rubbed my back as i calmed down as he told me it was gonna be ok
after a few more minutes of me calmed down he finally spoke again "you ok now? you still wanna go?" he questioned
"yea and let me change again" i said as i slowly stood up going to my closet and pulling out my jogging set from fashion nova and slipped on some timbs and bubble coat
ff to after the mall
i walked into my room dropping everything and stripping down to just my bra and panties i quickly slipped on one of his shirts and laid in the bed thinking
'what if i just die nobody would care... nobody really give a fuck bout me nobody really genuine wimme they just use me for things im tired of being used like this these people telling me lies when they just want to ask me for things i been doing good for a while now no withdrawals no fights nothing and im frustrated mentally, physically and sexually... dijour really the only one down for me i think...'
i was snapped out of my thoughts by dijour tapping me lightly "ren u good" he said calling me and old nickname he made up when we were little
without saying anything i got up and jumped onto the front of him wrapping my arms around his neck and planting my head into his chest taking in the scent of his cologne "please dont leave me" i said but it came out mumbled yet he still understood
"i wont" he said holding me up i let go just enough to plant a few kisses onto his jaw "ight ren chill" he said lowly followed by a chuckle
"i think im ready" i said as i got down and stood face to face with him on the bed his eyes widened "ren we not even together though" he said "well lets be together" i said in all honesty
i looked at him lustfully "lets do this right lemme take you out later" he said swiftly "ok" i pouted sitting down not really stressing
CHAPTER OVER
This was short i really didnt know what to do
vote plz
the next chapter is gonna be the same day but in dijour pov
bye 🤍