I walked into the convenience store with a hat and a mask. I didnt want to looks suspicious but what can i do?
I then start to buy my stuff like a normal citizen. But i dont know why people around me keep on looking at me weirdly. Like bro im not here to steal amd i dont look THAT suspicious.
Then i ringed my things up at the cashier.
*sound of news coming out*
I looked up at the tv behind it. It was the news.
"Former Enhypen Jay is now a father of two children! His beautiful baby daughter was born yesterday."
I looked down. That news is everywhere now...
Suddenly the cashier lady looked up to me.
"Hey, do i know you? Why do you look so familiar-"
I just paid quickly and grab my things and went out of the store without letting her finish. I cant let her notice that i was the same person who talked to her years ago.
I came back home. Yup, the same dead feeling home.
Everything had changed. Both my old men died and all of my siblings turned into successful people. My brother gets to work at a famous company in Paris and now hes rich and famous. My eldest sis even had kids who are marrying next year. My other sister went to her good old life with the love of her life.
Whereas theres me, who still fails in everything.
I never do things right.
I start developing my parents habits.
Im known as that 'one mean scary neighbour'
I keep scolding kids.
I came back drunk every night.
I failed in life.
I never pursued my doings of being 'good' ever since mom died.
I became rebellious.
Every day boiling myself up with anger.
I distanced nyself with everyone i ever known.
But theres one thing that havent changed.
Up until now, theres only one reason i live for.
The one i feel happy on seeing every day.
So i got up and roll my sleeves.
Sat down on a desk.
Took out a pen.
And a paper.
Im not making any regrets this time.
Jay's POV
"Baby, you need to rest. You just gave birth yesterday. Let me cook you some dinner." I said to my wife worriedly.
"Okay, okay. I'll just stay here with our baby daughter." She smiles and sits back down.
I went to the kitchen to cook up some food when my butler came to me.
"Sir! Theres a letter addressed to you!"
Hmm? A letter?
I took it from the butler and look at it.
Who sends letters these days?
It couldnt be my parents from Seattle, they couldve just called my on the phone.
Or is it Jake all the way from Australia? Its been years since we last met.
But he couldve just text me though.
I look at the cover of the letter. It was nicely decorated and somehow had a fresh scent of roses.
I read the front.
'To Park Jongseong.'
I opened it and start to read it.
'Dear Jongseong,
Or should i call jay?
I have never been able to talk to you ever since i became a fan of you. I would like to say- you grew up so much. Im proud of you.
I would remember those days where i would watch i-land and my gloomy and deppressing days would be happy just because i see your face. At that time, i knew that liking you was the best choice. Even though people around me would criticize you, i would always stand up for you.
I remember the times when you first debuted. I saw how you were good at everything and i always dreamed to meet you in person. I would watch your fancams for hours and hours without getting tired or even bored.
I remember the days of you winning Rookie of The Year awards. How proud am i to call myself your fan. I remember the times of your first win. I was trembling when i was watching the broadcast as i was nervous to see if you had gotten number 1 or not. Even though back then i was too poor to support you and buy any of your albums.
I remember the times where i found out about your first dating scandal. How you were in love with a girl- and it is not me. Because i never had enough money to go to your concerts and meet you in person.
I remember the times when i was watching some news and it had confirmed you were dating her. Im happy for you but it just broke my hearts to see they guy i have a crush on since forever now belongs to someone else.
I remember the times you announced that you were getting a disband. My heart shattered into a million pieces when i heard the news. I was supporting you guys all my life, but i will always continue on supporting you anyway.
I remember the times they announced that you proposed to your girlfriend after strong ten years together with her- you even proposed on her birthday. I just wished i get to feel loved and appreciated like that. And how she might be the luckiest girl in the world to get proposed by Park Jongseong.
I remember the times where the news got out that you had a son. I was happy for you, but still disappointed because it wasnt me. If only i was interested in children, i wouldve handled an adoption well.
I would remember the times if i just want to get out from this deppressing world, i would drift off to sleep, and imagine if i was with you the whole time. I would imagine im friends with all of you, that im rich, im famous, everyone loves me, and how amazing my life turned out to be if i was your girlfriend. I would imagine how amazing and perfect it is to spend my life with you.
But reality is, im not. Im lonely, poor, an unloved child, ugly, weird, dramatic, single and broken. A failure. A mean person. A psychopath. A creep. But thats okay, because ive been supporting you ever since i saw you for the first time on tv.
Ive been supporting you for 17 years and more to come. I lived on because of you. Youre my source of happiness, my everything. The light of my life. I never realised that im really nothing without you. You mean the world to me. Even though you dont know who i am, i will always love you from the bottom of my heart. Always, and forever.
Sincerely,
Chae Heeyoung.'
THE END💔
A/N
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Ended 21st January,
Jjongssaeng signing off :/