I've been very busy because of the projects, deadlines, and requirements na kailangan.
Malapit na den kase ang graduation namin. Yes, graduation as a senior high school.
Im too young to graduate as a Senior High Student but wala akong magagawa. Maaga ako nag-aral, naaccelerate pa.
Busy den ako to look after Gen. She's broken kase. Gawd, sabi na hindi healthy si Ryle sakanya eh.
Paano ba naman binreak yung heart ng bestfriend ko.
One day I saw Gen na lang sa Hotel na umiiyak. I didn't talk about it muna kase ayoko naman na mapressure sya.
Alam ko na sasabihin den nya sa amin yon eventually. Enough na yung maparamdam namin na were here for her always in times like this.
And now pupunta kami sakanya, yes lahat kami, with Arlo, Lucca, and Shiloh.
Hindi na den muna kami nakakapagkita ni Mauve, busy kami pareho sa field namin.
Break muna sa paglandi, my friend needs me.
"Clay, nandito na sundo mo!" Kuya shouted.
Kilala na den naman nila sina Arlo, and I must say na sa lahat ng lalaki sakanila lang si Dad may tiwala, and I don't even know why. Dinaan ata sa dahas ng mga to eh.
"Wow, gumanda ka ah. Ano sikreto?" Pang bungad ni Shiloh kaya kaagad kong nakaltukan.
Gawd!
"Hoy, wag mong kalimutan na nasa pamamahay kita," Sabi ko sabay irap.
Nauna na ako maglakad palabas at hindi ko na sila inantay pa. Malamang sa malamang makikipagusap na naman sila kina kuya.
Ako yung kaibigan oh, mga walangya.
Nauna na ako sa car but few minutes lang, dumating na den sila.
"Hey, you glowin' brat, how'd you do that?" Arlo asked.
What the fuck? Wala ba akong glow up para sabihan nila ako nyan. Dude, that's insulting.
"Hey, watch your words," Sabi ko at nagcross arms pa.
And napasecond thought ako, if between me and Gen, sino ang mas brat? I think its me, pero mas matigas ulo ni Gen, pero mas pabebe ako.
"Sino ang binata na nagpabihag sa puso ng aming dalaga?" Ani Lucca.
Sabi na dapat humiwalay na lang ako ng kotse eh, hindi nila papatahimikin kaluluwa ko.
After a while, nakapunta na den kami sa bahay nina Gen.
Everyday kaming pumupunta sa bahay nila, para may makasama at makausap sya.
She's too broken, and hindi ko alam if paano ko yon mapapagaan.
Alam na den namin yung reason, nagbreakdown sya noong cinomfort namin sya.
I know its hard. Its really hard, kase naranasan ko na den, kaso short period of time lang, pero sineryoso ko.
"What are you thinking?" Shiloh asked.
"I am thinking that why did I even go with you, guys,"
Pumasok na kami sa bahay nina Gen and yeah, super laki as usual. Hindi pa den ako masanay.
Malaki yung bahay namin, same with these dorks, pero mas malaki kina Gentry. Although, tatlo lang naman sila, gawd.
"Hi guys!" Gentry shouted.
Sa lagay nyang yan, parang nakamove on na sya. Pero alam ko hinde. She is hiding her feelings.
Pinapasok nya kami then nagulat kami ng may nakaset up na don na mga alcohols.
16 pa lang ako pero immune na ako sa alak, jusko. Alam ko naman na mas may veteran pa sakin na 12 or 13 years old pa lang magaling na.
"We will plaaaay!" Masayang sabi ni Gen.
"Abnormal," Ani Shiloh at umiiling iling pa.
"Katulad ko pinaglaruan lang, charot,"
Kulang na ata sa tulog tong taong 'to, kung ano ano ng sinasabi.
"So ayon na nga we will play truth or dare, so yeah, you guys can ask me anything and vice versa," Aniya ng nakangiti pa.
"But before we start, we need to drink 5 shots, then whenever na ayaw nyo sagutin or gawin iinom kayo ng isa, so gets?"
"Allowed ba bata dito?" Tanong ko kay sakanila.
"Bata bata, malaki ka na," Pang aalaska na naman ni Shiloh.
Sinamaan ko lang sya ng tingin, gago to ah.
After that we drink 5 shots each then we started the game.
Unang tumapat yung bottle kay Shiloh.
"Truth," He said.
"Have you ever felt pain?" Tanong ni Gen kay Shiloh, eyes to eyes.
"Yes, just how you felt it," Aniya.
What?
Hindi na nagprocess pa yung answer ni Shiloh kase nagspin na.
Then kay Arlo naman natapat. He refused so uminom sya.
Then after him, sakin tumapat yung bottle.
"Im going to choose dare," Matapang na sabi ko.
"Umamin ka sa taong gusto mo ngayon," Ani Gen at nagsmirk pa.
Gago to naisahan ako.
I picked up my phone and hinanap yung pangalan ni Mauve. I called him.
Ilang ring lang sinagot na nya agad.
But hindi pa man ako nakakapagsalita, I heard a voice, a familiar one.
"Hi? Who's this?"
Nanlamig agad yung katawan ko. It can't be.
Binaba ko yung tawag. What's that?
Bakit narinig ko boses mg pinsan ko?
"What happened?" Curious na tanong nila.
"Iba sumagot. It was Cali," Sabi ko at umupo na.
Ano yon? Hindi ako nainform na close den pala sila.
Tinuloy nila yung laro pero alam ko curious sila sa akin ngayon.
Inalis ko muna sa mind ko yung nangyari at magfocus muna ako sa laro.
Then, the bottle stopped right infront of Lucca.
"I am going to ask!" Ani Gen na may pagtaas pa ng kamay.
Gagi bangag na sya, I think kanina pa sya umiinom kaya ganyan.
"Have you ever fall in love?" Tanong ni Gen kay Lucca.
Everyone stopped at tiningnan lang si Lucca. Tahimik lang si Lucca, siguro nagiisip to.
"Yes," He said.
Nabigla kami kase Lucca is not really that type na naiinlove, lagi kase syang focus sa sports or study, or minsan sa amin, kaya parang wala syang time sa ganyan. At wala syang romatic hormones sa katawan.
"Explain briefly," Ani Gen.
"Akala ko ba one question lan-"
"If you can't answer drink this bottle, lahat ha, wag ka magtitira," Pagbabanta ni Gen kaya napakamot na lang si Lucca sa batok nya.
"Fine. Yes, I fell inlove. Still falling inlove. I don't know when, but one thing's for sure, we can't be together, not that we dont have a chance, but she have the guy that will makes her happy, more than I could be," Ani Lucca, his eyes was telling me that he is in pain.
"Whoever that girl is, I am sure she is stupid for not choosing you," I said trying to comfort him.
He just shrugged, "Are you?" Aniya.
Hindi ko na nasagot yung tanong nya kase biglang nagsuka si Gen. Nako, eto na naman.
Hindi ko alam if pinapunta kami dito ni Gen para magsaya o para maging yaya nya, jusko.
Iba talaga nagagawa pag broken.
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Weeks passed, and yeah. Graduation na naman as a Senior Highschool Student.
As usual, Valedictorian ako. Nakakasawa na makatanggap ng 25 medals every year, its too heavy, nakakangalay.
But to my parents, grabe, parang gusto pa nila na magparada ako sa buong Pilipinas eh.
"Look at you! My baby's really grown up!" Ani Mommy habang inaayos ang hair ko.
Nakasuot ako ng dress na fitted together with my toga, nakaheels den ako.
"I am not baby anymore, Mom," I said na nakapout pa yung lips.
"Ang arte neto! Hoy, Princess, baby ka pa ha. 16 ka pa lang kaya tigilan mo kami," Sigaw ni Kuya Klaus.
Nagpicture muna kami before going to La Salle. Two cars gagamitin namin. Yung isa kay Kuya Klaus together with Ate, then sa car nina dad naman is kami nina mom.
When our car steps inside the campus, madami nang nagtinginan. Of course, tanyag pangalan ng family namin. My dad na business minded and best engineer of the town, and my mom na best archi naman. Perfect couple, sanaol.
Madaming camera den na tumutok sa amin. At yung bida bida kong mga kapatid, ayon todo paangas sa camera at sa mga tao na nakakasalubong namin.
Alumni na kase sila dito. They graduated here in La Salle, except kuya karius na sa UST nagaral.
Madaming announcements and cermonies. Nagbigay na den ako ng speech ko para sa lahat. At inawardan na den kami.
I saw my family, seeing how they are really proud for what I am.
If I wouldn't be in this place? Will they be proud of me pa den ba?
Im scared that one day, everything will change. So, as long as I can choose they wanted for me to do, and not choosing my happiness, I will do it.
Its just hard that they're too high, so that I needed to lose everything just to reach it.
For them, doing your best is not enough, you should do you bestest.
If I am going to reborn again, I don't want to be an Andrade, that's all.
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ps. sorry if medyo natagalan and panget ng ud huhu:(( dadalasan ko na ang paguud don't worry guys hehe, mahal ko kayo