“Hmm...”
Mas iniyakap ko ang mga braso at mga hita ko kay Zakarius. I sniffed his neck and nuzzled my face there. I don't want to get up anymore, I just want to hug him like this.
“Angel,” he whispered. He held my waist, trying to push me gently because I'm hugging him too much.
My eyes widened when I realized something. Agad akong napabangon at lumayo sa kanya. I took my comforter and covered myself with it.
“D-don't get me wrong, you sleepwalker! Niyakap lang kita nang gano'n dahil bigla ka na lang natayo at naglalakad!” agad na sabi ko at dinuro-duro pa siya.
I bit my lower lip, I suddenly want to punch myself right now. Masyado akong na-carried away sa pagyakap sa kanya. Pero totoo namang niyakap ko lang siya nang gano'n dahil bigla na lang siyang natayo at naglalakad. Kaya wala na akong nagawa kundi yakapin siya nang mahigpit, pati legs ko ay pinulupot ko sa baywang niya para lang hindi siya makatayo.
Zakarius didn't say anything, he just blinked twice, maybe he's not aware that he's a sleepwalker. Damn, he's cute but it will be dangerous for him. Paano kung nakalabas siya ng bahay at nasagasaan?
“By the way, what the fuck are you doing here in my house?! Diba I told you na stay away from me? Ano ba ang hindi mo ma-gets do'n?” singhal ko sa kanya.
Zakarius sighed and stroked his hair using his hand. Napaismid na lang ako at umiwas ng tingin sa kanya. I'm still mad at him and I won't forgive him.
“I'm sorry, I was just too drunk last night,” he murmured. I looked at him, namumula nang kaunti ang mukha niya. Dahil siguro sa sobrang kalasingan niya kagabi.
“If you're okay now, then leave. Paglabas ko ng banyo, dapat wala ka na rito,” I said firmly and stood up. Agad akong nagtungo sa banyo at iniwan siya sa kuwarto.
Agad kong tiningnan ang sarili ko sa malaking salamin dito sa banyo. I looked at my face and gently touched my cheeks. My goodness, buti na lang wala akong muta or panis na laway. Nakahinga ako nang maluwag.
I shook my head and gently slapped my face. What the hell am I thinking? I should be mad at him, bakit parang excited pa ako na nandito siya?
No, get a grip of yourself, Angel. I shouldn't fall in his trap again. I'm sure he's just manipulating me, trying to poison my mind. Huh, he won't succeed. I'm Angel Mendoza, I won't get involved with the likes of him anymore. Damn him for confusing me like this.
I spent a lot of time in the bathroom, I made sure I smell good and look pretty as always. I don't know if he's still here kapag lumabas na ako ng banyo, pero maganda na ang sigurado.
Sinuot ko ang robe ko at agad na lumabas ng banyo. Bumagsak ang mga balikat ko nang makitang wala na si Zakarius sa silid ko. I don't know why I'm disappointed, e ako naman ang nagpaalis sa kanya. Nababaliw na rin yata talaga ako.
I just shrugged off and wore something nice. I wore a off-shoulder blouse and paired it with a palazzo pants. Cassian said I can take a rest for today but I still want to wear nice clothes. Kahit mag-isa lang ako gusto ko palagi pa ring maganda ang suot ko. I don't know why, siguro maarte lang talaga ako.
“Damn that man, he really left. Ni hindi man lang nagpaalam,” I murmured while applying minimal make up on my face.
Lumabas ako ng kuwarto pagkatapos kong mag-ayos at dumiretso sa kusina ngunit natigilan ako sa nadatnan ko.
“What the hell are you still doing here, Zakarius?!”
I put my hands on my waist and glared at him. Zakarius turned his gaze at me shortly, pero agad niya ring ibinalik ang atensyon sa niluluto.
I calmed my heart from getting too excited knowing that he's still here, cooking something while wearing my pink apron. I bit my lower lip to stop myself from smiling. Damn this man.
I noticed that he's already wearing a different clothes. He's wearing a plain white t-shirt and a sweatpants. Where did he even get that? Wala naman akong ganiyang damit.
“Zakarius, I'm talking to you!”
Lumapit ako sa kanya at nakapamaywang na tiningnan siya nang masama. Nanatili naman siyang tahimik at nilagay sa plato ang niluluto niyang pancake.
Nakain siya ng pancake?
“Do you want pancake?” he asked and pointed the pancake on the plate. His blue eyes seem so innocent right now. Fuck, I'm so weak when it comes to his cute side. I just rolled my eyes at him and stomped my feet.
“I'm serious, Zak. I told you to leave, why are you still here?!” I asked and crossed my arms over my chest.
Itinuro niya ang couch sa living room, napataas ang kilay ko at tiningnan ang tinuturo niya. Napaawang ang labi ko nang makitang may malaking bag do'n.
“What's with that bag? Iyan ba ang mga gamit ko?” nakataas-kilay na tanong ko.
“No, that's my clothes... I'll stay here from now on,” he said and sat on the chair.
My lips parted, I instantly covered my mouth with my hand and looked at him with disbelief. Is this a prank or what?
“I'm fucking serious, Zakarius!” I exclaimed and slammed the table with my hands. He seems unbothered, nagawa niya pang kumain ng pancake kahit halos nagwawala na ako rito.
“I'm fucking serious too,” he said and stared at me. Fuck, he's so handsome.
“No way! You can't stay here, I won't allow it, I will never allow it!”
“Let's just think that I'm your victim and you kidnapped me,” tila wala lang na sabi niya saka muling kumain ng pancake.
Damn, he's so cute while eating that pancake. I wanna pinch his cheeks.
“You're my victim?! Sinong biktima ang kusang napunta sa kidnapper niya?!” I asked exaggeratedly.
“Ako,” tipid na sagot niya saka muling kumain.
I slumped on the chair and massaged my temple. Sumasakit ang ulo ko sa kanya, pero normal bang mainis sa kanya habang nakakaramdam ng mga paru-paro sa tiyan ko?
This is all his fault, nababaliw na ako ng dahil sa kanya.
“Do you have a pool here? By the way, you don't have meats in your refrigerator, why don't you start storing meats for me? And I don't like the design of your house, too girly. Why don't you consider changing the color scheme? Gray is much better. And the most important thing, do you have extra room? I don't want to sleep on the couch. I'm too big for your girly couch so I need a room to sleep. Your room is quite big as well as the bed, we can sleep there together if you don't mind.”
My forehead furrowed because of what he just said. I bit my lower lip to stop myself from smiling. Damn, why did I find it so cute? Iyon na yata ang pinakamahabang sinabi niya. Zakarius is a man of few words that's why I suddenly want to laugh my ass off.
“Ginagaya mo ba ako?” tanong ko, I still did my best to sound maldita and lifted an eyebrow.
Zakarius crossed his arms above his chest and looked intently at me, I almost melted because of the intensity of his blue eyes.
“I'll stay here, Ms. Kidnapper,” he said and the corner of his lips turned up.
Damn, why is he so hot?
“Ms. Kidnapper? When did I kidnap you? Wala akong maalala,” nakataas-kilay na sabi ko na lang.
“Last night, you kidnapped me using you arms and legs. I was sleeping peacefully but you imprisoned me with your tight hug. So you kidnapped me, end of conversation,” he said and continued eating his pancake.
Where the fuck did he even get that? I don't have a pancake mix or something here.
Napabuntong hininga na lang ako at binuksan ang ref. Napasinghap ako nang makitang maraming meat at fish doon. Tiningnan ko nang masama si Zakarius. Hindi naman niya ako binalingan ng tingin at tumuloy lang sa pagkain.
I sighed when I saw a box of cake in my ref, may ice cream din, cupcakes and chocolates. The heck, halos napuno ang ref ko ng dahil sa kanya.
Kumuha na lang ako ng fruits at hiniwa ang mga 'yon saka nilagay sa blender. Pagkatapos kumuha ako ng one slice ng bread at inilagay iyon sa toaster. Nang matapos na 'ko, umupo na lang ako sa tapat niya.
“Zakarius, take your foods out of my refrigerator and I won't let you stay here in my house, I only have one room here and I will never let you sleep beside me. No way!” I exclaimed and took a bite of my bread.
Hindi siya sumagot. Napairap na lang ako at naiinis na kumagat ulit sa tinapay. Hindi magiging maganda kapag dito siya tumuloy because he's a meat lover. He also like sweets, mananaba ako kapag nandito siya.
Zakarius drank his water and looked directly in my eyes. I just chewed my lower lip and avoided his gaze. Why does he have to look so sinfully handsome? And why the hell am I always complimenting him in my mind?
“Are you still mad at me?”
My eyebrow shot up with his question. I looked at him and took a deep breath. I crossed my arms over my chest, nakipaglabanan ako ng titig sa kanya.
“Why would I be mad at you? Hmm?” I asked and drank my fruit shake.
Hindi siya nakasagot. Nanatili siyang nakatitig sa 'kin. I know I'm always pretty but I suddenly felt conscious, why is he staring at me like that as if he's examining my face and rating it.
“I'm sorry, I was too insensitive. I shouldn't have said that after what happened,” he apologized while still looking directly at me.
Natahimik ako sa sinabi niya. I can feel my cheeks heating up but I remained calm as possible as I can. Akala ko hindi na siya hihingi ng tawad, hindi naman kasi halata sa hitsura niya na marunong siya humingi ng tawad.
“Whatever,” sabi ko na lang at tumayo. Kinuha ko ang baso na pinag-inuman ko at nilagay 'yon sa sink.
I was about to leave the kitchen but he immediately grabbed my wrist. I looked at him as my forehead furrowed. He pulled me closer to him and hugged me.
My heart almost comes out of my ribcage, my whole body shivered and my pulse raced. My heart thudded in my chest, it's uncontrollable. It's beating so fast I almost faint. I can smell his manly perfume and his natural scent. Damn, my whole body literally weakened.
Isinandal niya ang baba sa balikat ko at mas inilapit ang baywang ko sa katawan niya. Natulala na lang ako, hindi ako makahinga nang ayos. What the hell am I still doing? Why am I not pushing him away?
“Let me stay here, please. I won't touch you without your consent,” he whispered on my ear and nuzzled his face on my neck. I just bit my lower lip and took a deep breath.
“B-but you're touching me right now without my consent,” I murmured, stuttering.
“This one is an exception,” he mumbled and hugged me tighter.
Damn, my heart and body isn't even complaining.
“L-let me go,” I whispered and tried to push him but he's too strong, or maybe because I'm just too weak for him.
Wala na akong nagawa at hinayaan na lang siya na yakapin ako, habang ang puso ko ay nagwawala na, pati na rin ang mga paru-paro sa tiyan ko.
No, I don't like him. Yes, I don't like him... Damn, I'm so confused.
* * *
“Where the hell is he?” I murmured while wiping my wet hair.
Natulog ako maghapon, minsan lang ako pagpahingahin ni Cassian ng isang buong araw kaya sinamantala ko na.
Lumabas ako ng kuwarto ko. Hindi ko nakita si Zak maghapon, kasi malamang tulog ako. Saan na kaya nagpunta ang lalaking 'yon?
I was taken aback when I saw him sitting on the couch while watching some movie. I chewed my lower lip when I saw him eating strawberry ice cream. Damn this man, palagi na lang niya akong sino-sorpresa sa mga bagay na ginagawa niya.
Lumapit ako sa kanya at tinaasan siya ng kilay. Tumingin naman siya sa 'kin ngunit agad ding ibinaling ang tingin sa pinapanood.
Damn, he's watching my family-theme melodrama movie last year.
“You're a good actress,” he murmured while eating his ice cream. I just rolled my eyes at him, why did it sound so sarcastic?
“Of course, I'm not just good, I'm the best actress and model,” I said and pointed the shelf of my trophies in the corner of my house and smirked at him.
He turned his gaze at my trophies. He just shrugged and just continued watching.
“I don't like romance, most of your awards are from romance movies and dramas. By the way, don't you have other movies here? Puro mukha mo ang nakikita ko sa files,” he murmured and continued eating his ice cream. My mouth agaped. My goodness, how dare he?
“For your information, hindi romance lahat ang movies at drama ko. Right now, you're watching one of the highest grossing film last year. It's about family, struggles of family, there's no romance in there. Ang yabang mo porke't most controversial movie of the year ang Political Parties,” nakataas-kilay na sabi ko at kumuha ng unan sa couch saka ibinato sa kanya.
“Ah, that was the best movie I directed. I really enjoyed that, I almost died thrice after directing that movie.”
Muntik na nga siyang mamatay, natuwa pa siya?!
“Kailan mo balak umalis?” I asked, raising my eyebrow.
“I'll stay here or you'll stay at my house... Your choice,” he said, emotionless, as usual. Bakit lahat naman yata ay pabor sa kanya?
“Damn you!” naiinis na sabi ko at muli siyang binato ng unan.
Iniwan ko na lang siya ro'n at nagtungo sa kusina saka kumuha ng saging. Hanggang ngayon naiinis pa rin ako sa daming laman ng ref ko. Sa totoo lang, nito ko lang nalaman na mahilig kumain si Zakarius.
Bumalik ako sa living room at umupo rin sa couch, medyo malayo rin ang pagitan namin ni Zak. Masyado siyang tutok na tutok sa pinapanood niya. Why isn't he crying? Wala yatang hindi naiyak nang mapanood ang movie ko na 'yan.
I peeled my banana and stared at it. My forehead creased when I realized something. I looked at Zakarius and then looked at my banana again.
“Zak.”
Napatingin siya sa 'kin nang tawagin ko siya. Ngumisi ako sa kanya saka ipinakita sa kanya ang saging.
“Look at this banana, it's so long, so huge, so fat...” I whispered seductively and bit my lower lip.
I gently licked the banana's top while staring at him. I saw how his Adam's apple moved and how his jaw clenched, I smirked in triumph. I'll tease the hell out of him, tingnan natin kung tumagal ka pa rito.
“What a smooth... tasty banana,” I whispered and licked the banana from its bottom to its top while staring at his blue eyes.
Hindi maalis ang tingin niya sa 'kin. Gusto kong mapangisi nang mapansing humigpit ang paghawak niya sa kutsara na tila ba nanggigigil siya.
“I love big bananas, Zak. They are so good, good for my health... and good for my body,” I murmured and gently bit the top of the banana.
His blue eyes focused on my tongue, I can see blazing desire in his eyes, it excites me more, I want to tease him more.
I swirled my tongue at the top of the banana while looking intently at him. Nawala na ang focus niya sa TV at ice cream. Napangisi na lang ako nang ilapag niya ang ice cream sa mini table at akmang lalapit sa 'kin nang pigilan ko siya gamit ang paa ko.
“Na-uh, stay there. I want to enjoy my banana, just watch me... You promised me you won't touch me without my consent, right?” I asked in my most seductive voice and licked my lower lip.
I put the banana inside my mouth, his eyes widened. Kinagat ko ang saging saka agad na nginuya iyon. Ngumiti ako nang matamis sa kanya saka muling kumagat sa saging.
“Wow, this banana is so good. You want some?” tanong ko saka inilapit sa kanya ang saging na kalahati na lang.
Zakarius didn't say anything. He's just staring at me, this is a weird thing to say but his blue eyes darkened with unknown emotion. It feels like he wants to devour me, to own me... Or am I just exaggerating?
“Aahhh!” Napatili ako nang hilahin niya ang paa ko papalapit sa kanya. He took my banana from me and put it on the table. I bit my lower lip when he suddenly positioned himself on top of me.
“You want something better than banana?” he asked in a deep husky voice, probably the sexiest voice I've ever heard.
I sexily bit my lower lip and touched his chest, I swirled my finger on his hard chest, teasing him.
“Is there something better than banana?” I asked seductively and stared in his blue eyes.
My mind is telling me to stop this because it will definitely lead us to something we will both regret. I don't know why my body isn't following my mind.
He crushed his lips on mine. I groaned and instantly hugged his nape, I can taste the strawberry ice cream from his mouth, but oddly, I find it hot and sexy... His strawberry flavored kiss makes me crazy.
“Z-Zak.” I gently pushed his chest and looked at him seriously. I gulped and bit my lower lip.
“Fuck, I'm sorry,” bulong niya at akmang aalis sa ibabaw ko nang hawakan ko nang mahigpit ang t-shirt niya.
“S-sasabihin mo ba sa 'kin na kalimutan ko na lang ang lahat pagkatapos nito?” tanong ko saka napaiwas ng tingin sa kanya.
Zakarius sighed and gently caressed my cheek. I was stunned when he softly kissed my cheek with much tenderness and care. Marahan niyang hinawakan ang baba ko at pinaharap ako sa kanya. Napapikit na lang ako nang dampian niya nang magaan na halik ang labi ko.
“I won't tell you to forget it... I want you to remember everything we'll do, I want you to remember every single detail... How I touch you, how I kiss you, how I pleasure you, and how my c-ck is better than that fucking banana.”