(11.24.20)
The words are white hot
Burning
Tearing through my flesh
It eats at my stomach
This deep feeling
Like an endless pit
Oh, to be able to speak
To shout
To scream
But I am unable
Defiance is not tolerated
Things would only get worse
So I hold my tongue
Bite back my unspoken words
The loathsome feeling returns
Rushing through my veins
Beating in a dark mirror to my heart
Shredding my lungs
The words rise
Only in my head
This mental war waged on myself
I cannot speak.