*NO SPOILERS*
*POV EMILY AND JJ*
*PRETTY LONG (2800 WORDS)*
*JJ IS WITH WILL AND HENRY WAS JUST BORN*
POV JJ
"Morning guys!" I said as I walked into the conference room and sat down, "How's everyone doing?". My morning was amazing. I got to sleep in a little because it was Will's turn to take of Henry. I made coffee myself for once and it actually turned out pretty good. Cooked some eggs. Made some toast. As I got ready I could hear Will struggling to keep the baby happy. I tried to ignore it and went back to washing the suds out of my hair. The steam of the hot shower filled the room. I took my time getting dressed and all. I wanted the day to be just as good as my morning.
"Fantastic," Ried said, sitting down at the round table, "I read this article on the recent studies of psychopath's brains and it was fascinating. Most of it I already knew but some of the information was enlightening!" He was always so enthusiastic. It was adorable.
"2 glasses too many," Rossi said, raising his eyebrows.
"Long night?" Morgan teased.
"Ya, a long night of texts from drunken exes," he responded reluctantly.
Emily came in, "We all know you have plenty of those," she giggled her cute giggle and sat down next to me. Her hand brushed mine a little as she pulled in her chair.
"Ha ha," Rossi faked a laugh, "You should know I treated every one of those women right. I have no idea why they feel the need to call and text me not stop. I don't think any amount of liquor can drown out that dinging," he rubbed his head.
Aaron strutted through the doors and everyone looked up. His face was serious, as always. He walked up to the big screen and pointed the remote at it. A photo came up and his a facial expression switched dramatically,
"Happy birthday JJ!!" he said, smiling widely. I blushed and looked around the room,
"Thank you so much, guys! This is so sweet!" I got up to hug everyone. My team was truly the best. To be completely honest I think even my boyfriend had forgotten. When I got to Emily she embraced me. Her hands kind of wandered down to my hips as she kissed my cheek. She was the sweetest. My best friend. Ever since she joined the team we clicked and I knew we would be close.
"Happy birthday!" She said as she let go of my waist. For a second I wished she hadn't let go. Why would that thought even cross my mind?
"Careful, Prentiss is getting handsy," Morgan said in his usual tone. Emily just glared at him, but I looked down trying to hide the red creeping up on my face. I then continued to travel around the room.
"This is great, but don't we have a case?" I asked, seating myself back down.
"Yes, we do. And it's a doozy," Garica walked up to stand next to Hotch and present today's events, "Here in Virginia, men have been going missing. They were normal, basic, middle-aged men. No one really cared because they had just walked out on their wives. They were all planning to skip town," she said, pointing at the family photos as they popped up one by one on the screen. 1, 2, 3, 4.
"So, what's to say they haven't just skipped town?" Derek said, fiddling with a pen in his hand.
"Lately, bodies have been showing up. All have been ID'd as the men in these photos," Garcia continued.
Emily chimed in, "This unsub could be anyone. A woman whose husband just left her, a child whose father walked out, or even a man who sees himself in these victims," her voice was so confident and strong. I just wanted to kiss- no. What? I wanted to... what? No. I mean, ya. I did. I did want to kiss her. Why?
Hotch nodded to Garcia and took over since it was time for the crime scene photos, "Each body was found in a dumpster a few blocks away from their home. No sign of being restrained or any form of captivity yet. Just severe blunt force trauma to the head," he switched to the screen to show the bloody messes. All of their heads had an identical hole in the center of the forehead.
"They are all the same size and shape. About the size of an everyday hammer you could find at any hardware store," he glanced back at the team, "So far, we have checked with every store in the state and every one of them carries at least 3 kinds that fit the description of this weapon," he continued but I let my thoughts drown out his voice. I always knew that Emily was pretty... and smart... and strong... and always did the cutest things... Shit! But did I really have feelings for her? We had always been so close I just thought we were really good friends but maybe it was more than that. Will. I had Will and Henry. I had a perfect life. I looked up at Emily as she was biting her nails.
POV Emily
Damn it. I was biting my nails again. I needed to stop doing that. I was just so nervous. I tried to keep my cool but this was about JJ. I tried getting her attention earlier but I didn't think she noticed. I brushed her hand a little while scooching in my chair and then let my hands lay on her hips for a while when I wished her a happy birthday. Those were my attempts. My attempts at putting myself out there. JJ was just so cute and sweet. She brought everyone chocolates for Valentine's day and always had a smile on her face. Her face. Her face was so gorgeous. Not to mention her body. I'm getting off-topic. I wanted to try to flirt a little, just to see if she would react. Yes! I know she had Will and Henry and her perfect life, but she never seemed as happy when she talked about them. Will had gotten them both rings of Henry's birth stone. She showed them to us and I just tried to be polite even though I was jealous, but she didn't seem all that excited. She was kind of clammy actually.
"Now, I need everyone to be focused today," Hotch's voice boomed through my head. I broke out of the trance and looked up. He was staring right at me. He was actually staring at both me and JJ. I guess she had been dozing off as well. I looked at Aaron and confirmed that we understood.
----------- Time Skip to 2 days later -----------
I stumbled over Sergio as I walked through the doorway of my apartment. He curled around my leg as I set my bags down and headed to the kitchen, "What's up dude?" I said picking him up, "You hungry? It's about time to make some dinner, huh?" I nodded and went to put together his cat food.
I tried to think about the case and what the coroner had said about holes in the victim's heads, but my mind kept drifting back to JJ's smile. I replayed our interaction over and over trying to see if she had any reaction to my plays. I remembered her blushing in the beginning. Then again when Morgan joked that I was getting handsy with her. She seemed embarrassed. Like she knew but she didn't mind. I needed to let this go.
I warmed up a microwave burrito and made myself a drink. I started to look through our text messages. Maybe there was something there that might convince me to not give up. I was really obsessing over this, but as I scrolled something caught my eye.
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JJ ; )
JJ ; )
< Ya, I don't know. He's nice but I'm not sure if he's the one. I tell you everything and you know that. I don't know if I love him, but I'm pregnant with his kid. It's not like I can leave now.
You
< You just have to go with your gut. I will always be here for you if you need anything.
< Just because you are pregnant doesn't mean you have to stay with him. You can be with anyone you want JJ. Make sure it's someone you love.
JJ ; )
< Thanks Em. You are truly the best friend I could ever ask for. Love you
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She said, "love you". Did that mean something? No. I needed to stop overthinking these things. She stayed with Will. I told myself this, but kept scrolling up to older messages.
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JJ ; )
JJ ; )
< EMILY PRENTISS!!!
You
< JENNIFER JAREAU!!!
JJ ; )
< I just slept with Will...
You
< Give me all the details
JJ ; )
< He was not great. Didn't really know what he was doing. It was kind of sad.
You
< You know, they say after one of those nights you just need to find a woman lol
JJ ; )
< lol are you offering...
< I'm just kidding. God, it was horrible though!
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This was something I had blocked out because I freaked a little when I read it. She joked about sleeping with me. I went to check the time the messages were sent as one does when they are obsessing over a co-worker and their relationship. Their non-existent relationship. She had sent them 10 minutes apart. Like she was waiting for me to answer to say whether it was a joke or not. Nope! I wasn't going to do this. At this point, I was a little tipsy and just needed to get some sleep.
I quickly got ready to go to sleep and hopped in bed. I shut my eyes trying to nod off as fast as possible. It wasn't hard. What I didn't think was going to happen was the dream I had:
"Morning babe," a voice said as soft lips kissed my shoulder. I rolled over to return the favor. The lips belonged to JJ. It seemed so normal.
"Morning," I said. I led my fingers through her blonde locks and kissed her. Her hand reached around my neck. Why did this feel so perfect, so natural? I rolled her under me so I was on top as we kissed. We released for a quick moment. She giggled and played with my hair. She pecked my lips quickly and jumped out of bed. No clothes. I wasn't wearing any either, but that made sense for some reason.
I watched as she strolled around the room getting ready. Her perfectly toned abs, her long hair, her eyes looked back at me, "Whatcha starin at?" she asked playfully.
"Just my beautiful girlfriend," I replied. My girlfriend? She was my girlfriend.
She smiled as she clasped her bra, "Aren't you going to get ready?"
"Ya, I will. I just need a moment to admire you," my stomach fluttered. She was MY girlfriend. I woke up with HER in my bed. We lived TOGETHER.
I stood up from the bed slowly, still in awe. She threw me a shirt as she buttoned hers. I pulled it on and walked over to her, kissing her neck.
"Help me?" she asked
"Of course," I said as I zipped up her pencil skirt. It fit her so perfectly. She ran off to the bathroom and I picked out some bottoms to wear. I followed her into the bathroom as I zipped up my own skirt.
She kissed me on the cheek which left a dark pink stain. Again, so natural and normal.
We stumbled to the kitchen together, not able to keep our hands off of each other. She lifted me onto the island and strolled around to make us some breakfast.
"Eggs?"
----------- Time skip to the next morning -----------
POV JJ
"Hey JJ, you good?" Emily came up behind me as she entered the BAU.
"What? Ya, I'm fine. Why do you ask?"
"Your leg is shaking like crazy. You seem anxious," she said, her eyebrows furrowing. She seemed like she really cared. She always did, "You can talk to me about anything. You know that right?"
"I know," I said and smiled.
Except I couldn't talk to her about this. I had the weirdest dream last night. It was so perfect, I wished it would come true. I woke up in bed but not next to Will. I rolled over to kiss Emily good morning. Her lips felt so natural interlocked with mine. We got ready for work together and made breakfast and she was my girlfriend. It was like this had always been our life. I think I did have feelings for her, but I didn't know if I should act on them. Sure, I wanted to, but I couldn't. Her body against mine, her lips on my neck, her arms around my waist, her fingers in my hair. I wanted her all over me again. I really did want to be with her. Fuck it! I was going to make my move.
POV Emily
After last night's dream, I decided that I had to make a real move. If there was any possibility that our life could turn out like that I had to take the chance. I walked into the BAU and noticed that JJ was shaky so I made sure she was okay. I knew she wasn't but I wanted her to come to me when she was ready. I let her be and took a seat at my desk.
I felt a tap on my shoulder so I turned around. JJ tipped over me, placing her hands on the arms of my chair, "Oh. Hey," I said, surprised at our closeness.
"Hey. I noticed that you weren't really paying attention to Hotch's presentation yesterday," her eyes glazed over me, "What were you thinking about?"
"You really want to know?" I asked. I was ready to be completely honest with her.
"Ya. Just like you said. You can tell me anything," she said. Her hand reached to put a piece of hair behind my ear. Was she flirting? If she was I wasn't going to stop it. This was just what I was looking for. I had been waiting to see if she how she felt,
"You," I replied, simple and blunt.
Her head dropped and she hide her smile, "Really?"
"Ya," I said, giggling a little. I lifted her chin, "You're pretty much all I think about,"
Just then the rest of the team walked by . JJ stood up straight as if they hadn't already seen our conversation.
"We got updates," Morgan said, passing us. We followed him to the conference room, but not before I winked at JJ, making her smile again. She didn't seem at all uncomfortable when I told her I was thinking about her. I think she felt the same way actually.
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POV JJ
I tried, and I think it worked. I played my cards and she played hers. She said that she thought about me all the time. It made me feel valid for having a thing for her. Like this could actually work out. I decided that the last encounter went well so I should go one step further.
I leaned over the railing looking over the BAU and waited for her to come in. Right when I saw the doors open my heart started to pound. This was a good idea, it was the right idea. I saw her look at me so I bit my lip slightly. Spence walked by on his way from meeting with Garcia, "Hey!" he said, "Garcia wants to talk to you later when you have time."
"Cool, thanks for letting me know," I said, waving.
I started to walk to Gracia's office, but as I turned the corner I saw Emily glance at me. Except her eyes weren't looking at mine. They laid lower. Usually, I would be disgusted, but it was her. I wanted her to look at me. I strolled over and pushed her up against a wall where no one could see us.
"JJ, hey. About yesterday-" she started but I cut her off, "Shhh," I said, placing a finger over her mouth, "Please,"
"Ok," she said, her tongue browsing over her bottom lip.
"I've been thinking about you too, I even had a dream about you the other night," I let the truth come out. There was no going back now, "I try to think about anything else, but you flood my mind, and all I want to do is-"
Right then, she kissed me. Her lips were just as soft as they were in my dream, just as perfect. Her hands reached around my waist and to my lower back.
"In my dream we were happy," she said, taking a breath, "Everything was how it should be," she kissed me again, "Like this."