This is happening
It's shouldn't be
It's wrong
It's forbidden
But we can't fight it anymore
We can't deny our helpless feelings for the other
We're caving
We're falling
We're... undressing the other
The moment I catch my breath Buckys lips are on mine, moving hungrily. He removes his hands from my head, gliding down to the top of my shirt. He fumbles with the first couple of buttons and I quickly grow impatient with the process
"Just rip it already." I hiss between rough kisses as I start to unbuckle his belt. Bucky grabs the top unbuttoned fabric and ripped it open as if it were nothing. Buttons snapped off, falling to the floor by our feet
Bucky pushes the torn fabric off my shoulders, letting it glide down my arms to the floor. I finally got his belt undone and grabbed onto the hem of his shirt, just wanting to feel his skin on mine and start to lift his shirt up. I get to his pecs before he suddenly grabs my hands, stopping me in my tracks and pulls away from the heated kiss
"Wait," he breathes out. I lean back, drawing my brows together in confusion. He looks hesitant, shame eminent in his features which only furthers my concern
"Wh-whats wrong?" I ask out of breath, looking all over his face for an answer. He stares at me, not moving
"It's uhm.." he trails off, looking down at his half metal arm. He was wearing a long sleeve shirt and still had the watch on and activated. Never really had a chance to remove it I suppose
He's scared to show me what's underneath. Come to think of it, I've never seen Bucky without a shirt before. I don't think anyone really has. I quickly piece together that he's insecure about it. He's worried I'll judge him or find whatever's there horrifying. I want to tell him that I won't and continue what we were doing but the rational and respectable side of me killed that thought real quick. I remove my hands from Buckys shirt, letting it fall back to it's original position and cup his cheek, drawing his focus back to me
"Hey, it's okay," I meet his eyes. Though they were still filled to the brim with lustrous hunger, they held a softness at my words. "You don't have to show me." I lean my forehead against his, closing my eyes and exhaling slowly trying to calm my screaming nerves. He knew my words to be true. I don't want to force him to do anything he's not comfortable with
After a long moment, he pulls away from me entirely. My body already missing the heat from him. He steps around me and walks to the other end of the room without saying a word. I don't get a good look at his face but I feel my cheeks rise with heat. He must not want to go through with it after all
Embarrassment floods my boiling system as I drop my arms to my sides. I slowly turn around to look at Bucky and open my mouth to apologize for making him uncomfortable but stop myself short as I watch Bucky go to the balcony window and aggressively closes the curtains. I catch a quick glance at his reflection in the glass before it's covered by the thick drapes. Bucky had the smallest grin on his face before turning around to me again
Bucky struts around the table, deactivating the watch and practically tearing it off, tossing it onto the hardwood table. Still advancing on me, he had a dominant, hungry look eminent on his face that made a breath hitch in my throat and my knees feel weak. Never faltering in his steps and in one fluid motion he reaches his right arm behind his head, grabbing the collar of his shirt and pulls it up and over his head
Sweet lord have mercy
His hair, now tussled from the removal of his shirt, hung partially in his face. He peels the sleeves off his arms and throws the article of clothing to the floor. Bucky dips his head once he reaches me and crashes his lips to mine once more in a frenzied passion, placing his hands on my hips roughly pulling my body to his
His skin was so smooth and warm against mine, the sensation alone caused a pool to form between my legs. I moan quietly into Buckys mouth, tangling one hand in his hair while the other wrapped loosely around his neck. He lifts me just barely off the ground and walks us back to the bed
He sets me down on the foot of the bed, pulling away for a well needed breath a moment later. I push myself back further onto the soft blankets with hooded lids
I take this chance to take in the god like view that is James Buchanan Barnes. He looked like a work of art. A true masterpiece. The gods above really took their sweet time making him. His toned, defined muscles. His veins protruding from his arm with adrenaline. His sharp, tensed jawline. Those icy steel eyes that anyone could get lost in easily. His power stance. Those thighs. I slowly trail my eyes to his metal arm. Faint white and red scars trailed around from where the metal meets flesh, the lines reminding me of lightning bolts. I can understand why he's self conscious about it but I don't ever want him to feel like he's flawed in my eyes
Because he's not
I bite the inside of my lip as my eyes trailed down his torso with a hooded sultry look in my eyes. He watches me as he pulls his undone belt from the loops in his jeans at an agonizingly slow pace. Yet it made me that much more turned on. Bucky slowly unbuttons his pants and pushes them down before kicking them off, and I get a peak at his impressive still growing erection
"James.." I almost whine, squeezing my thighs together
"God I love when you say my name like that babydoll," he breathes out in a low tone
He licks his lips with a smirk as he grabs my ankles and pulls me back towards the edge of the bed where he was stood. Bucky hooks his fingers in the waistline of my leggings and pulls them down in one fell swoop. Leaving me in just a bra and thong. I scoot myself back onto the bed a little more so I wasn't hanging half off the edge. Bucky follows me, crawling onto the bed and between my legs. He trails wet open mouth kisses from my navel up my body, stopping briefly to nip at my breasts. A tingly sensation pulsates through my skin everywhere his lips touch. Bucky lets out a pleasurable groan as he presses his clothed erection against my swelling folds and latches his lip to mine once more. I moan into his mouth at the friction of our bodies which allowed him to slip his tongue into my mouth and explore every corner
He even tastes like heaven! What the hell!
With his lips still devouring mine, I reach down and start to shimmy out of my thong. He shifts his body just enough for me to kick off the small fabric, quickly returning to being pressed against me once I was done
I pull away from the crazed kiss, out of breath. Bucky takes this opportunity and presses his still clothed raging erect cock against my throbbing lips, probably soaking the fabric. I bite my lip to conceal a moan as he rubs himself up and down my folds
He continues this motion, applying pressure to my clit and driving me that much closer to my orgasm. I can't contain the breathy, almost whiney, moans that come out of me, almost embarrassed with how needy I'm being. Just as I'm about to reach for Buckys briefs to remove them, he pulls away, standing from the bed and a whimper crawls it's way up and out my throat at the departure
Bucky chuckles at me as he wraps his fingers around the waistband of his briefs, never breaking eye contact with me. I want to look down at whats about to destroy me but he's challenging me not to. He slides the black fabric down his thighs and I see something spring out of them as he does so before stepping out of the briefs
Oh
Oh it's REAL big
Bucky crawls back up between my legs, trailing more wet open mouthed kisses up my inner thigh which causes me to gasp. I wanted him so badly to continue where he was going, and as if he could read my mind, he sloppily kisses my mons, making sure his tongue brushed my sensitive bundle of nerves. Waves of ecstasy crashed over me at the contact. He dipped his head a little lower, flattening his tongue and licking up my already soaked length and flicks his tongue over my clit
"Fu- James- mmmm.." I could hardly form a coherent sentence. I feel Bucky smirk against me, licking and giving my clit one last little suck before he continues kissing up my abdomen and biting at my padded bra where my nipple was. He nips at the base of my neck knowing it was my sensitive spot earning himself another pleasurable gasp from me. I grab his head and pull him up to my face, pressing his lips to mine in a lustrous craze
I feel the bed dip slightly next to my shoulder as he supported himself above me. Buckys other hand reached behind me to unclip my bra and I arch my back for him to easily access the clasps. The band gives way around my ribs and the straps fall off my shoulders. Bucky grabs the now loose material in his metal hand and rips it off me, tossing it to the floor with the rest of our clothing
He presses his body to mine and I moan into him at the sensation of his hot skin on mine, relishing in the feel of him. Then he dips his hand between my legs causing me to gasp at the cool metal against my boiling hot sensitive lips. He runs his fingers up and down my length sending waves of orgasmic pleasure up my body again before replacing them with his cock
A breath hitches in my throat, causing me to pull away from his intense lips. He looks at me, slightly perplexed by my retraction but his features soften as he sees the nervous look in my eyes
"What's wrong?" He huffs out of breath and places both hands on either side of my shoulders
Embarrassment washes over me again and I can't look him in the eyes
"I uhm.. I've never.." I fumble for words, still trying to catch my breath while under his gaze. I take a deep breath. "I'm a virgin Bucky." I take a daring glance at him. Surprise slowly fills his features
Sure I've watched porn before and masturbated, not penetrative masturbation, but I've never actually gotten around to doing it. Not like I had many suitors lining up either
Bucky furrows his brows in concern, soaking up my words, "we don't have t-" he starts but I place a finger over his lips. I love that he's so caring about me, always asking permission first
"You really think I'd let it get this far if I didn't want to?" I breathe out a faint chuckle. "Just... start gentle." His lips curl into a smile and I remove my hand only to comb it through his soft locks, cradling his head
Bucky brings his lips to my jawline, leaving feather like kisses down my neck. He brings a hand to my jaw and tilts my head so he had better access to my throat. As Buckys mouth moved down to my chest, his hand rested around my neck, almost in a choking manner but he never applied pressure. Just having him positioned like that drove my body even more wild
Why is the idea of being choked by Bucky turning me on?
I snake my other hand down between our bodies and grab his impressive throbbing cock, earning a breathy profanity from him. I pump him a few times, pre-cum giving me the smallest bit of lubrication
My body couldn't handle the suspense anymore. I need him and I need him now. Bucky clearly had the same idea as he starts to kiss back up my collarbone
I position his tip at my entrance and remove my hand. He pulls away just enough to meet my eyes and I give him a small nod letting him know it's okay. I'm ready for this. There's no other man I'd want to do this with. No other man I lov-
Hoooooooolllllyyy fuck fuck fuck
My thoughts are cut short as Bucky pushes himself into me slowly, stretching my walls around him. My entire body tenses, a loud gasp launching out of me. Buckys face contorts to one of pure bliss and ecstasy at the new sensation, my walls clenching around his cock. I clutch his upper arm as he places a hand on my hip to keep me from squirming away
It doesn't hurt as much as I've been told it does. Don't get me wrong, there is some pain, but it's a manageable pain. Mild discomfort at best
Bucky slides the rest of himself in me, letting out small pleasurable groans until he's fully buried in me. I take a couple of deep breaths, adjusting to his size before bucking my hips impatiently. I wanted movement, friction, anything from him
He cups my cheek, grabbing my attention and bringing his lips to mine in a sweet manner before starting to thrust. I moan into his mouth as he continues his slow motions. The mild pain easing, turning to pure pleasure
After a minute of slow, sensual movements, he started to thrust faster, grunting and moaning every so often. I wrap my arms around his torso, digging my nails into his back. He glides the hand on my hip up to my breast, caressing it and running his thumb over my nipple causing it to harden
"Shit- feel.. so good-" he huffs between hungry kisses, unable to form a complete sentence. I smile against him
"You too," I moan as he rocks his hips, applying a brief moment of pressure against my clit with every thrust
He picks up the pace some more, slowly becoming tougher with me now that we're both adjusted and comfortable
"Fucking hell James" I moan again once he pulls away from my lips
Bucky sits up straight, hooking his arms under my knees and pulling my hips towards him. He continues thrusting, breathing out moans of his own as he moved faster plowing into me, somehow hitting deeper. We lock eyes as more moans flow out of me. I clutch the sheets next to me, my knuckles turning white. Bucky removes one of his arms from under my knee and starts rubbing my clit with his thumb. Pleasure washes over me like a tidal wave at his touch and a knot starts to form in my lower abdomen, indicating I was close to climax
But I didn't want to yet. With Buckys high endurance, I'd feel bad for finishing so soon
Bucky drops my other knee and leans over me again, propping himself up on his elbow but still rubbing my bundle of swollen nerves and thrusting deep into me. I let go of the bundled sheet and drag my nails down his back and cradle his head. The amount of raw pleasure coursing through every cell in my body was almost too much for me to handle, but I couldn't get enough of it. He starts kissing my neck, nipping every so often as I continue to moan out profanities and attempts at his name
"I love you Amelia.." he breathes out in a moan against my skin, getting rougher with his thrusts
Im sorry, WHAT??
"Bucky... I-" I'm cut short as the knot in my low abdomen tightens, no longer able to hold it back
"I'm- gonna cum. Holyshitholyshitholyshit Bucky I-" He starts to rub my clit faster and slowing his hips. Every muscle in my body tenses as I reach my high
I arch my back as a long, loud moan ripples out of me and I try to wiggle away from Bucky while I convulse around him. My walls tightening around his pulsating cock. He slows his thrusts, now harder for him to continue since my walls were now even more constricting than before. Bucky tenses and untenses his abdomen a few times, his face changing to one of relaxation as I get the feeling of being stuffed with his thick hot cum when he stops plowing into me
We stare at each other, catching our breaths and coming down from our highs. Bucky gives me a lingering kiss before pulling away from me, peeling our bodies apart and I wince as he does, his size definitely taking a toll on me. I feel a warm liquid pool out of me as soon as he pulls his retreating erection out. Bucky gets a cheesy grin on his face as he looks at me from head to toe, sliding his briefs back on and heading to the bathroom for a towel to clean me. The warm wet fabric soothed my aching lips as Bucky gingerly wiped away our combined juices from me before balling up the small towel and tossing it to the floor and laying next to me. The bed dips under his weight
I turn onto my side and curl into him while he snakes a hand between me and the bed to wrap around my waist and hold me to him. I start tracing small delicate swirls over the scars on his shoulder with my fingertips. Part of me wishes I could kiss away the pain and torment they must've caused him. Bucky grabs my hand gently, stopping my motions and bringing my hand to his lips, placing a sweet kiss on my knuckles
"How was it?" He asks suddenly, searching my face for an answer. I sheepishly smile and feel heat rise to my face
"Better than I could ever imagine," my response causes him to smile triumphantly. Bucky kisses my forehead before relaxing back once more
I lay my head on his shoulder, watching his chest rise and fall slowly and inhale a shaky breath. "I love you too," I whisper just loud enough for him to hear. Bucky beams at my words once more, his eyes lighting up like fireworks as a huge smile spreads across his face. I couldn't help but to smile back, mimicking him
There's no way around denying it anymore. I realize I've completely and utterly fallen head over heels for him over the past weeks. Every little aspect of him, I'm infatuated with. Now things can never go back to the way they were, and I think I'm okay with that in all honesty. And I'm gonna fight like hell for him
For us
Because I'm completely and hopelessly in love with James Buchanan Barnes.
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I'm not sure if I like how this chapter turned out. What do you all think?
Sorry it kind of ends abruptly but I figured it was a good stopping point. Hope y'all liked it :)