5:15 am, Sunday.
i woke up in annoyance as my alarm starts going on, i took my phone and checked the time, it's already 5:15 am, omg, i immediately got up, i know that I have a lot of time but I'm also worried for the bus, i went to my open closet and just chose some shorts and a sweater, I went to the bathtub and took a bath, then, i dressed up, i took my phone that was charging and my bluetooth headphones, i went downstairs and packed my food, i didn't wanted to eat today, i wore my Nike Air Max and stepped out of my house.
it feels so new without Jungkook with me, i also feel so lonely, i don't actually know if I could go through all this shit without him, i sadly went to the bus station alone, and rode in the bus, i sat on the back of the bus and just took my headsets out, i chose
"you don't want me anymore'' by Snow and Teqkoi
it fits my mood, i stared at the dark blue sky that's filled with stars, with a white mixture on the side of the sky, tears started to fall on my eyes,
he wasted my love for him.
I can't sleep, nobody's gonna wake me up, ugh, i just watched the window as the bus starts going.
30 minutes later.
I'm now in the campus, i went upstairs to my classroom, i went to my seat and dropped my bag harshly, Rose and Quinn were shocked from my action, they ran to me, i just sat down looking stupid as fuck,
" oh Y/n dear, what happened to you?" rose asks
" Jungkook left me" i replied, and just stared straight, it looks like i'm gonna cry asf
"o-oh" Rose replied, tears started to fall on my eyes, he's been there for me all my life, and I can't take this....
Rose hugged me from the side with Quinn, "aww, just don't think about that guy, you need someone who's never gonna leave you" she replied, rubbing my shoulder,
after that, they just comforted me, this is why there's something called friends before lovers.
minutes later, Professor Kim enters the class and greeted us a good morning, we greeted him back, his eyes went to me, i didn't care and just stared straight, he lands his laptop on the desk, then, he starts to type something, i guess it's on the grades and the behaving attitude. ugh
then, he asks us to answer another worksheet, i frowned, he placed my unwritten test paper on my desk, i didn't mind him and just stared straight, keeping a blanked face.
Professor Kim: miss Y/n, is there something bothering you?
i woke up in reality, i looked at him in a sad expression.
me: oh, no Professor Kim, everything seems to be good-
Professor Kim: are you sure?
me: yes Professor Kim
Professor Kim: okay, please meet me later after the end of class, you have another test paper to do
i nodded, he smiled at me, just to make me smile, of course I smiled back, i don't have any choice but to do so, i sighed, it's so fucking hard to keep a smiling face even though I feel so broken and numb inside.
then, I began to answer the test paper by filling them out with my name, section, and the class I'm in, then, i proceeded to answer whatever problems there are.
the questions seemed to be easy, and the equations weren't really that hard to know and explore to, I really want to be good in Math, these years, I started to fail a lot in Math, Math wasn't really as easy as I thought it would be, ugh,
but at least, I'm doing better and greater on my favorite subject.
it's like a line of " even though Math is too hard to understand, i always force myself to understand it, no matterhow hard it is"
then, i felt like Professor Kim went to my desk again and checked on me, he checked on my answers, his face turned into a smile "doing better, Y/n" he replied, i thanked him.
he looks cute when he smiles, especially when his teeth are showing.
10:30am, Sunday
Rose, Quinn and i went to the xanteen for lunch, we bought our food and we started to eat, my mood was still the same, just a sad, lonely girl.
is it only me or I still feel lonely, even though I have friends around me, but that doesn't mean they're not doing their best to make me feel that they're there for me, but it's just like they can't relate to you, and you have to suffer like this on your own.
i sighed, i stared straight at the canteen door, feeling so fucking depressed and shit, gosh, i don't deserve this.
Rose: heyyy gurl, why are you so serious today? is it about Jungkook?
me: what if I told you, Yes, as an answer, what would you react?
i said, looking straight on her eyes.
Rose: him?! Y/n dear, you should forget him already! he left you without saying a note nor a message that he's leaving you, he's such an asshole for that, and you don't deserve a dickhead like him
Quinn: i know right, he just wasted your love for someshit, and decided to leave you, hanging. you never deserved this.
me: t-thank you, Rose, and Quinn. i don't know what to do without the both of you.
Rose and Quinn: that's what friends are for *they both high five then to me*
they kept me entertained by making me laugh and also, talked about some shit that's happening in school and all around the world.
time check, it's 11:10 am,
Rose: girls, we gotta go back to the classroom or our next teacher will yell at us
Quinn: oh that fat professor that's been screaming at us since the first day of school? dang her saliva once landed on my hand while she was lecturing all of us, it was so fucking disgusting
we started to laugh, and gosh i started to snort, it's so fun to be with friends at your lowest, because they make you happy.
we went upstairs together and our next teacher still havn't arrived yet, so we decided to chitchat, no one's beside me, since Jungkook's not anymore with me, so Rose secretly went beside me with Quinn and we talked a lot.
2:30 pm, Sunday
after 3 more major subjects, it's now the end of class, I still have to meet Professor Kim for my make up classes, i have to pass his subject pronto.
as our adviser comes in our room, we bid goodbye, he bids goodbye too, but I stayed seated in my chair, waiting for all of our classmates to go home. Professor starts to walk to my desk, holding his laptop with him, he placed it on Jungkook's desk and prepares his laptop, while he gives me my worksheet, he's now sitting right beside me, just a little gap between us.
Professor Kim: but before you answer that, Y/n, may i know why you were acting so sad a while ago?
me: i-it's because...
i started to broke down into tears, i looked down on the floor, i see mg tears falling on the ground, i wiped my tears with my fingers, trying to hide my emotions, but I can't.
Professor Kim: oh, why are you crying?
he says as he holds my right hand, preventing me from wiping my tears, he takes a handkerchief from his pocket and started to wipe them off smoothly, I'm not gonna lie but his handkerchief smelled good.
Professor Kim: don't worry, everything's gonna be alright, it's definitely okay if you don't want to tell me about it, but if you want to expose what you're feeling right now, you can always talk to me.
he says as he smiles, his smile was so priceless, and cute too
me: it's just my bestfriend, Professor, he left me, he went to Los Angeles without even telling me, he left me lonely, and heartbroken.
his eyes looked deeply onto mine, he started to get a bit curious.
Professor Kim: heartbroken? what do you mean by that?
me: he was my absolute bestfriend for 12 years and I'm not gonna lie, he's been also my ultimate crush too, he liked me back, then we got together for a month, but then, he just disappeared like a bubble.
Professor Kim: o-oh, don't worry, you should focus more on your studies and to achieve your goals in life, you should not let a man take over you, and make you depressed too, think about the better things that you can do without him, like answering this test paper that i told you to do *points at the test paper on my desk*
me: o-oh, this one Professor? *points* yes Professor, I'll answer it.
he smiles, i showed a small smile and he chuckled as he continues to do some work in his laptop while i answer the worksheet he gave me.
he's actually nice and an understanding person