Chapter 21
"Come here," niyakap ko siya pero natawa ako sa reaksyon niya kasi umiwas siya nang yayakapin ko na pero pilit ko pa din siyang niyakap.
Hindi naman siya nagsalita pero ramdam ko ang yakap niyang mahigpit.
"You never have done that." He whimpered.
Kumalas naman ako kaagad sa yakap at pinakita ko ang phone ko tsaka kumunot ang noo niya. "You sure about that? Did I?" Mapang-asar kong sabi sa kanya.
"Wait, did you...?" Kinuha niya naman ang phone niya sa bulsa tsaka tinignan ito. Tahimik ko lang din siyang pinagmasdan at bigla siyang napangiti nang makita niya ang message ko doon.
"Did I?" Ulit kong tanong sa kanya.
Tumingin siya sa akin at niyakap ako ulit but this time hindi na siya galit at nakangiti na. "You didn't text Lewy instead you text me." He whimpered again.
That's right. I changed his name on my phone to Lewy and texted him that 'I miss you' tsaka ko pinakita sa mga pinsan ko. Damn. They thought I really texted Lewy but I did not, I don't wanna bother him anymore and I'm done with him. Kailangan ko pang kalimutan ang masakit na ginawa ko sa kanya.
"Please don't be mad at me." I whimpered too. I'm so thankful kami lang ang tao dito sa hallway sa second floor.
"Not anymore," he then said and kiss me in the forehead after hugging me tight. "I wish I can be with you all alone." Sumimangot naman ang mukha niya.
"Finn," I cupped his face, "Someday it's just you and me. You and me against the world." I say comforting him.
Tumango naman siya at napapikit pero dumilat din nang makarinig kami ng kaluskos at pagbukas-sara ng pinto sa baba. Paakyat na siguro ang mga pinsan ko at matutulog na. Mabilis kaming naghiwalay ni Finn at umaktong walang nangyari nang mabilis at naghahabulan pang umakyat ang mga pinsan ko.
"Oh! There you are, siblings!" Bungad agad ni Jessie sa amin. Halatang lasing na.
"Hi." I awkwardly say. I need to act normal. Finn smirked at me when I look at him.
"You two, I thought you went to sleep." Says Cloe. Nakita ko naman si Wendy na nagulat din sa presensya naming dalawa ni Finn dito sa hallway.
"We're going to kaso dumating naman kayo. So we decided to share room kasi hindi naman yata kayo kasya sa iisang room." Tuloy-tuloy na sabi ni Finn na kinagulat ng lahat.
We didn't talk about it. Siya lang ang may sabi nito. Damn. How can he be so calm and act like this?
Tumango si Wendy nang dahan-dahan. "Okay..." She said at tumingin sa akin. Ngumiti na lang ako sa kanya.
"So what's the plan since you two will share room?"
Biglang lumakas ang tibok ng dibdib ko sa makahulugang tanong ni Sam sa amin. Jenrick just nod at him while Jessie didn't have anything to say 'cause she's so sober.
"Uhmm..." Magsasalita pa lang sana ako but Finn cut me off.
Sana naman maganda ang sasabihin niya para sa ikabubuti naming dalawa.
"Since I'll leave my room, you and Jenrick can take mine, Sam. While Wendy and Hailey on the 4th room, Cloe and Jessie on the 2nd. Me and my sister on the 1st. We only have four rooms so we'll share it by two." Finn explained.
"So Sam and Jenrick will be on 3rd room? Your room?" Cloe asks.
"Yeah." Sagot niya.
Nakahinga ako nang maluwag nang sumang-ayon lahat sa plano ni Finn na tigdadalawa kada room. Awkward pa din sa akin ang nangyayari. Nakatabi ko na dati si Finn nang hindi pa ako umaamin but now, it's different. Now that we knew that we love each other. I don't want it to happen between us here kasi baka mabuking kami.
"Why did you plan this?" Tanong ko agad nang makapasok na siya sa kwarto ko dala-dala ang ilan niyang gamit.
Nilagay niya naman ang mga ito sa closet ko at tumabi sa akin. We're both sitting at the bed. Mabuti na lang at nakapagshower na ako.
"I just want you to sleep beside me." He answered.
Inirapan ko siya at nahiga na tsaka tumalikod mula sa kanya. Naramdaman ko ding nahiga siya.
"Come on, Kara. We have to be alone."
"So you planned this? What are you trying to prove Finn? Why are you so tackless? Do you think they're not aware what will happen between us here? Or what's already happening? What if they found out..."
"Sshhh..." He cut me off again. He put his hand in my mouth and hug me from behind. I can feel his hard muscles against my skin. I can feel his warmth. "Please, don't overthink. They won't figure it out. Not even Sam. You don't have to overthink, baby. Please." He said so calm.
Kumalma na din ako at hindi na ako pumiglas sa yakap niya.
"I'm sorry. I'm just being careful." I whispered.
"I know." He kissed my shoulder that gives shiver to my spine. "Just act normal when they're around, me as your brother and you as my sister." His husky voice surounds the room.
I held his hand on my waist. "Please don't fuck me here."
Bigla naman siyang natawa sa sinabi ko tsaka hinalikan ako sa pisngi.
"Oh, baby. You're making me laugh. Of course I won't. You're very funny and frank at the same time." He laughs.
"I'm serious Finn." Natigil naman siya sa kakatawa at mas humigpit ang yakap niya mula sa likod ko.
"I won't. Not tonight."
"So soon?" I ask.
"If you let me? Eventually? I don't know. It's your decision to make so don't make me hard this time."
"Finn!" Suway ko ulit.
"I know!" Natawa na naman siya sa akin. "I'm not gonna do it. I respect you." Dugtong niya.
"Let's sleep." Yaya ko na tsaka ako pumikit.
"Yeah, but before that, tell me about Lauren."
Naidilat ko naman ang mata ko nang seryoso ang tono ng boses niya.
"He's just nobody. He's the past."
"He's a model and your ex. Not just ex but your celebrity ex-boyfriend. Nagtagal kayo." I heard sadness and jealous in his voice.
"He's just an ex. Forget it." I insist.
"Do you still into him?" Walang sabi-sabing tanong niya at mabilis naman akong umiling at hinarap siya.
I kissed his forehead and cupped his gorgeous face. "Not anymore. Ikaw lang." Bulong ko.
Napangiti naman siya na parang nanalo sa lotto tsaka ako hinalikan sa pisngi.
"Naging kami because you left me in LA. I got bored so I got him. I really thought that I will forget you by loving him but I was wrong, I didn't forget you. I came here after we broke up and leave my job only to see you. How are you doing, if... if you have girlfriends or nah, if you're loving someone else but I'm thankful you didn't have anyone. But when I found out you're going out and dating girls at the bar, I became jealous. It's because you kissed them and dance with them in public. Damn Finn, you're womanizer that's why pinigilan kitang magpunta sa bar." I confessed. It all came out from my mouth without me realizing it.
Napatigil naman siya sa mga nasabi ko pagkatapos ay napangiti. He hugged me again tight and kissed my forehead.
"Damn it, baby. I love you so bad. I won't do that again. You're here. It's just you and me." He says while hugging me.
"Mahal din kita, Finn." Finally I said those words to him and it made me so happy about it. Not just happy, genuinely happy.
Unti-unti niyang inilapit ang mga labi niya sa labi ko. I close my eyes when I feel his breathe against my nose and that's when I feel his lips against mine. We kiss passionately. The sound of the room is the sound of our kissing.
Nahawakan ko na ang batok niya kasi nalulunod na ako sa halik. Naramdaman ko ding umiba na ang posisyon naming dalawa at nakapatong na siya sa akin. All I could do is to agree with him.
Nakakalunod ang sensasyon. I feel so warm and hot at the same time. I feel his hand roaming around my body. We're skin to skin, so close, I feel my in between gets wild and that's when I lift my waist to meet his bulge thing down there. Nagulat naman siya sa ginawa ko pati na din ako kaya napatigil siya sa kakahalik sa akin.
"I... I'm so sorry, Kara. Fuck! I'm so sorry." He said at umalis na sa ibabaw ko tsaka tumayo. "I... I need to go to the bathroom, baby. You go to sleep."
Kahit pa nagtataka ako sa inaakto niya ay tumango na lang ako. Mabilis naman siyang pumasok sa bathroom at nawala sa paningin ko.
Damn it Kara, that was close.
Naisapo ko ang kamay ko sa mukha ko tsaka inuntog ang ulo ko sa unan.
Shit! Mabuti na lang napigilan niya. It's not good doing it here. Panigurado akong kapag nalaman nila ang tungkol sa aming dalawa ni Finn ay pag-iisipan kami ng masama at ayoko namang gawin 'yon dito. I won't let them knew about us, not even today, but we will soon. Sana lang matanggap nila kami.
Nang makalabas na si Finn sa bathroom ay nagkunwari na lang akong natutulog para hindi masyadong awkward kami sa isa't-isa.
Naramdaman ko ang pagtabi niya sa akin at pagkumot niya din sa akin. Hinalikan niya ako sa noo pagkatapos niya akong lagyan ng kumot tsaka naramdaman ko ang pag-alis niya sa tabi ko. Maya-maya lang ay nagbukas-sara ang pinto ng kwarto ko hanggang sa hindi na siya bumalik.
Saan naman kaya nagpunta ang lalaking 'yon?
Hindi na lang ako bumangon at tuluyan nang natulog.
Kinaumagahan ay maiingay ang mga pinsan kong nag-aasaran sa dining nang magising ako at bumaba para kumain. Hindi ko na talaga nakita si Finn na bumalik sa kwarto kagabi.
"Morning gorgeous. You're already late for work." Bati sa akin ni Wendy habang paupo ako sa dining chair.
Nandoon silang lahat. I found him preparing something pero hindi ko ito napansin kasi biglang bumungad sa harapan ko si Jenrick at parang namangha sa hitsura ko.
"Angels are angels. Damn Kar! You really are an angel. You just woke up like that?"
Nagtaka naman ako sa sinabi niya at napatingin sa salamin na nasa likod ko lang.
"Bakit? Ano bang hitsura ko?" I ask.
"Ang ganda mo kasi kahit bagong gising, 'yan ang gustong sabihin ni Jenrick." Si Jessie habang humihikab pa ito.
"Yeah, not like you. Mukhang kulangot 'pag bagong gising!" Sang-ayon ni Jenrick.
"Anong sabi mo?!" Mabilis na lumapit ito sa kanya at kinurot siya. "Sinong kulangot ha?!"
At nag-asaran ang dalawa habang naghahabulan. Natawa na lang kami at umiling.
Nabigla na lang ako nang nilapag ni Finn ang isang baso ng fresh milk tsaka ng sandwich na sa pagkakaalam ko ay siya ang gumawa.
"Have yourself some breakfast before we go to Lohan." He offered me the food.
Natahimik ang lahat sa table. Nakaupo na din silang lahat at pinagmamasdan kaming dalawa ni Finn.
"We're late. I'm not eating." I say.
I don't know. I need to act like this kasi iniwan niya akong mag-isa sa kwarto kagabi.
"Come on. You'll starve and you'll fight me again."
"Take it, Kara. Sayang naman." Ani Wendy na katabi ko.
"Yeah. First time kong makita si kuya Finn na handaan ka ng almusal and you won't take it? Come on." Hailey smirks. Siniko naman siya ni Wendy sa sinabi niya.
Napatingin naman ako sa seryoso pa ding mukha ni Finn habang hawak ang plato ng sandwiches.
"Sam, convince Kara too. It'll help." Ani Cloe.
Napangiti lang si Sam sa kanya at napatingin sa amin na parang pinag-aaralan ang bawat galaw naming dalawa ni Finn.
"Don't need anymore. She'll it eat." Sam speaks as if he knew that I'll eat it.
"Okay." I say convinced.
"Good. I'll wait until you get dressed and we'll go to work." Finn said.
Tumango ako at kinuha ko na ang sandwich at nagsimula nang kumain. Ngayon ko lang pansin na nakabihis na pala si Finn ng business suit niya. Late na nga ang gising ko for work. Siguradong maiinis na naman si Tyrill sa amin ni Finn.
Matapos kong maligo at makapagbihis ay dumiretso na ako sa kotse ni Finn na kanina pa ako hinihintay. He's still quiet about what happened last night nang nasa byahe na kami papunta sa Lohan. Nakikita ko lang na umiigting ang panga niya at tumititig sa akin pero maya-maya ay aalisin na din ang tingin niya at babalik ang tingin sa daan.
Nang traffic na ay napapikit siya at sumandal ang ulo sa car seat. Hinawakan ko ang kamay niya na nasa manibela para pakalmahin siya and by that, I got his attention.
"Where did you sleep last night?" I started the convo.
"Living room. Sa couch." Tipid niyang sabi at umigting ang panga niya.
"Why? Why there? I thought you want me beside you." Tanong ko ulit.
"You don't understand, Kara."
"Did you sneak?" I confront.
"No, no, no. Tss. Kara, you don't understand."
"Understand what?"
"I need to sleep at the couch 'cause if we sleep together last night, baka hindi ko na mapigilan ang sarili ko."
"What do you mean?" Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay.
Napakagat siya sa mapupula niyang labi bago magsalita.
"The thing is I need to control myself. I had a boner last night by just kissing you. You're so hot confessing your feelings last night. I kissed you endlessly and if I didn't stop from what we're doing, I might make love to you. I'm only a man Kara, and I feel so bad about thinking on how to make love with you or even fuck you so hard. Damn it."
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