"Your photoshoot will be there and your dressing room is that way," I inform the boys. We were on the set of the shoot and the boys had already met all the photographers. Some of the photos will be taken individually and the others together in different places, making it look as natural as possible.
"Cool. Let's go." Lottie says and they walk over to their dressing room with Rachel trailing behind them. She was so angry the moment I told her everything that Josh and I talked about in the dressing rooms and how confused I was when he sounded like he was trying to get back with me. Rachel gave me a warning look, she had warned me from the morning that I cannot look at him nor can I talk to him.
I was working with Jeff, Scarlett and Paul when Josh approached me.
"Why is Rachel glaring at me, since she came in?" He asked softly so no one could hear. I gave him a dumb look. Is he really asking me that? I sighed internally and shrugged.
"I don't know," I said and went back to arranging the files.
"After the shoot, would you like to go for a cup of coffee?" He asked again, leaning forward so I could hear his soft voice.
"I am not sure if I will be free but I will try," I reply unsurely. He hums in understanding and excuses himself. As soon as he leaves I sigh in relief.
As soon as the boys are ready, the shoot starts immediately and I walk around with them the entire time and Josh was the last thing on my mind as I stayed with them and had so much fun. I think even some of the photographers looked irritated by our playfulness. Either the boys wouldn't stand straight or when we are discussing the background, they would try their best to distract me or somehow delay the whole process. But the whole set was lively and active.
After a few hours of shooting, the boys were taking a break in their dressing room and I was going to join them when suddenly I was pulled back by Josh by the wrist.
He has got to stop doing that.
"What..?" I gasped softly in surprise at the sudden pull and I was suddenly in a room again.
"Josh, there is a way to talk to people. You just can't keep pulling me in." I say as soon as my eyes meet his hazel ones.
"I know, I am sorry but I couldn't properly talk to you with everyone around." He said and I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion.
"Why? We are just two people talking, nothing wrong in that." I said pushing his hands off me.
"Yeah but that would be being professional and I can't ever be a professional with you." He says and I sigh.
"Josh, what do you want from me?" I asked. He looked deep into my eyes.
"I want you back Kay. I want you to give me another chance and I can promise you, you will never regret it. Just another chance, that's what I need." He says and my breath hitched.
"I- um I-uh, don't think that's a good idea. Look we broke up and I have moved on and I don't think we both should go back in that road again." I say and he shakes his head taking my hands in his.
"I am really sorry Kay, I really am. We can give this another chance and I promise you, you will never regret it." He said and I took my hands out of his, stepping away from him.
"I have to go, Josh," I whispered and turned around to walk out of the room without saying another word. I had to go into the next room where the boys, Rach, Lou and Lots are. As soon as I opened the door, I bumped into a hard chest, making me stumble back a few steps at the sudden contact.
"What's happening love?" Louis asks raising his eyebrows, standing outside the dressing room with two cups of coffee in his hand. I looked over my shoulder at Josh and then turned to Louis.
"Uh, nothing. I was just looking for you guys and entered the wrong room." I said and Louis nodded unconvincingly. I shrugged it off and took the cup from his hand and left the two boys behind me as I walked into the next room.
"Where were you?" Rach asks the moment I came in.
"I was looking for you guys." I partially lied.
"Katherine." Rachel gave me a pointed look as she stepped closer to me. I sighed and opened my mouth to say something but the door opened presenting Louis and Josh behind. I mentally facepalm myself at this and was half scared about Rachel's reaction to being this close with Josh.
"What the fuck is he doing here? Does he have a death wish?" She asks softly, so only I can hear.
"This is Josh everybody, he is inviting all of us for a cup of coffee through Kathy," Louis announces and I stiffen.
Did he hear the whole conversation?
Rachel glares at me but I don't react instead give Josh a questioning look.
"Hi mate. Nice to meet you." Harry steps forward brushing past Rachel and extended his hand to greet him. Everybody starts getting along with each other well except Louis and Rachel who seemed to be the quiet ones in the room. I wasn't surprised at the fact that Josh could get along with anyone, that was the one thing that I was attracted to when I first met him.
"Do you know him well?" Louis whispers in my ear.
"An old friend," I answered.
"Sure." He says and turns back to the boys.
My suspicion about him overhearing the conversation between Josh and I increases.
"Katherine?" A knock on the door by Paul turns all our attention to him.
"The shoot is ready, come out boys." He said. Lou and Lots walk out of the room with the boys and as soon as Josh walks over to the door, Rachel pulls him back and shuts the door behind him.
"You really like pulling someone in a room right?" She asks giving him her evil smile.
"Rach.." I start but she cuts me off.
"I have wanted to meet you since the time you cheated on my best friend." She says and I sigh in exhaustion and try to cut this conversation but Rachel being Rachel, didn't listen to me.
"Look Rachel, I apologised to hear and I regret everything." Josh tries to clear out the matter but the distaste in his voice is clear.
Josh never really liked Rachel, since their first meeting when Rachel was in London for a few days due to work and I had insisted on both my best friend and my boyfriend of that time getting to know each other.
But the meeting didn't go as I planned or expected because both of them didn't share any common views and Rachel felt that he had an ego from start.
"Remember the day at the coffee shop, when I warned you. If you hurt my best friend I would ruin your life." She said and I looked at her with confusion, I don't remember her saying that to him ever.
"What are you going to do?" He challenges you and I step in between both of them.
"Okay, enough both of you," I said and turned to Josh immediately not giving either of them a chance to talk.
"Josh, I can't get back with you. I have moved on so please drop it. Rach, Past is past and whatever happened is over so let it go. Now, let's be professional and get out of this room before anyone questions us." I said firmly and they nod. Rachel gives him a last glare and takes my hand dragging me out of the green room.
The next few hours were spent in the photoshoot and we left the set exhausted after a long day.
"Let's have a girls day tomorrow?" Lottie asks and we agree on spending the day tomorrow shopping, going to a salon and end the day by attending their concert here in Madrid.
We finally reached the hotel we are staying in.
"I am knackered," Niall says as he yawns and stretches. Rachel scrunched up her nose at the vocabulary.
"So weird. Why can't you just say tired?" She asks shaking her head.
"That's because we like teasing you Americans?"Harry replies placing an arm around her shoulder.
"How do girls even like you boys, so annoying." She says as she tries to shrug Harry off, but he doesn't budge.
"Alright, we can continue this conversation tomorrow. I am off to bed."Liam says patting Harry on the shoulder starts walking away followed by the other except Louis who stays behind.
He holds my hand and waits for everyone to leave.
"Walk?" He asks and I nod excitedly. Louis has been pretty quiet since he came in the dressing room with Josh behind. I tried to talk to him but I thought doing it at a perfect time would be better.
"So, Josh is an old friend?" He asked as we started walking and I hummed in agreement.
"I have never had an old friend pull me in a room or even creepily look at me every time I am in the same room as them. " He said and gave me a pointed look.
I shrugged." Want to get some ice cream?" I asked, not so subtly changing the topic but he didn't let it go.
"Come on love, tell me."
I sighed, giving in and told him the entire story behind Josh and how is my ex and why we broke up and how he wants to get back with me. I have never really talked about how I have felt about Josh and the breakup with anyone this detailed, not even Rachel. I mean, of course, I have told her but I guess just never really opened up, maybe because of the physical distance between us but honestly, it felt good talking it out.
Sometimes, I feel like a hypocrite as a psychologist. I insist and guide my clients to open up and talk about their feelings and then I see myself who shuts herself off during some times, but in some way, my clients are also my motivation to talk about my feelings.
In this case, talking to Louis who has been keenly listening to me and just giving me the space to talk is making my body feel light. He is a good listener and so respecting.
"Such a fucking loser." He mutters when I stop talking. I laughed at his comment and shook my head.
"I am happy that you slapped him." He said, distaste clear in his voice.
"You sound just like Rach now. She told me the same thing when I told her." I said.
"Well good, she is a great friend." He says with a smile which I return.
"That she is." I agreed and smiled thinking about my best friend without whom I don't where I would be. Knowing perfectly that she must be cuddled in bed with her blanket and watching Netflix.
"So, still want that ice cream?" He asked raising his eyebrows. I nodded and we walked around the city being careful at the same time so that he is not recognised.
We got our ice creams cups from a small shop and were walking around the city with amazing street light and roads. We were asking each other random questions and openly judging each other on the answers.
"Wait, I got one. Would you rather be able to push things away from you or pull them towards you just by looking at them?" I asked.
"That's a proper random question." He commented giving me an amused look.
"I know, now answer the question," I told him.
"Alright, um I guess I would go with pushing away. Not really interested in getting everything I see come near me." He answered.
"Let's take stars for example, wouldn't you want to see them from near, or even the things you see far ahead, you wouldn't even have to walk that much to reach that place but with your choice, you would running towards it more as it is going farther away from you," I asked.
"That's a great point but let's see what if there is Sun that I see first thing in the morning, I don't want to burn with it coming closer to me, it going further away would be better. Or imagine I am in a room with four walls, they would just be getting closer to me, making me feel suffocated. Not really the best option is it?" He argued and I had to admit that was a good point. We both were quiet for a few minutes thinking about each other's points and suddenly Louis bursts into laughter about the weirdness of the question and how seriously we have taken it.
But that doesn't stop us there, we continue asking each other such weird question and laughing about each other's choices. And let me tell you something, Louis laughing is the most beautiful sight in the world, how he throws his head back laughing and eye glinting.
Especially tonight, How can someone look so cute yet so sexy at the same time?
Is this even humanly possible?
He was wearing a dark green hoodie, bringing out his eyes. He looked so cute with his hands in his pockets and a cute dimple appearing whenever he smiles or laughs but at the same time, he looks so sexy under the street lights and gorgeous eyes and a great jawline.
We were now asking each other simple questions like favourite ice cream flavour, most annoying habit, the best idea of date etc.
Louis thinks he is not the most romantic guy but the way he describes a date or even something romantic that he did for any of his ex-girlfriends but me, he is the most thoughtful guy I have ever meet in my life.
And he sure does wear his heart on his sleeve and I love how is he is so proud of it. Not many people are proud of that trait, they think its a weakness but in reality, it's a person's strength and I love how Louis has acknowledged that and has no intention to change that.
"Cold?" Louis's voice brings me back to reality and I turn around to face not realising how I walked ahead of him.
"Huh?" I asked.
"Feeling cold?" He repeated and now that he asks I realise I have been rubbing my hands together and have been getting goosebumps the entire time. I snicker and nod, just then he started to remove his green hoodie.
"What are you doing? Are you insane, you are wearing a thin T-shirt under it. Want to freeze to death?" I looked at him like he was crazy.
"Stop being a gentleman and keep the hoodie with yourself." I playfully rolled my eyes.
"Anyway, you are more sensitive to cold than I am." I smirked and he gave me a look that said 'really now?'.
"Alright, come here and give me a cuddle!!" He said and walked over to me, his arms wide-open. Being in his arms felt so comfortable, safe and warm that makes you never want to leave.
"Ugh, no. You and your cuddles." I say playfully, knowing completely well I would never say no to a 'cuddle' with Louis. Not listening to me, he pulled in his arms and that feeling I get every time I hug Louis comes back and there is some kind of weird feeling in my stomach. Being in his arms has always felt so comfortable, safe and warm that makes you never want to leave.
I could stay here for years and years and never get tired or bored with it. His arms wrapped around my whole body due to my small size and my arms around are torso and head rested on his chest listening to his heartbeat was like music to my ears. He would either bury his head in my neck or lay his cheek at the side of my head.
I giggled into his chest and pulled away a little to look at him, only to see the most adorable smile on his face. Wind blowing would constantly get a few strands of my hair fall on my face because of which he reaches up and moves it out of my face gently and tucks it behind my ear and caressing his thumb over my cheek and his eyes still on mine. I love how expressive his eyes are and they just show Louis, the real Louis which includes everything about him and his life.
I wanted to close the distance between us and kiss him, be close to him as much as possible. But I push that thought away from my mind and softly clear my thought as I pulled away from him.
"Let's go back, Mr.cuddle?" I asked playfully and ignoring the fact that I just thought about kissing Louis Tomlinson a few second ago. He takes a second to come back and processes my question, giving me a playful glare in response.
"Come on." He says, placing an arm around my shoulder as we start walking back to our hotel while we were back to talking about random things and him making me laugh every minute of the way. Making sure I go to bed with aching stomach and tears in my eyes from laughing so much. We had so much fun.
When I walked into my room, not surprised at the sight of Rachel lying in bed completely focussed on whatever she was watching in Netflix. I randomly placed my purse somewhere on the floor and jumped on the bed on my back and a goofy smile on my face staring up at the ceiling. I was thinking about today and realised how Louis never left my side today the whole day, we left the set together, we had coffee together, we even sat together every time. How he kept his arm around my back when I was with him and the boys during the shoot or would somehow be playing my fingers (which I found out is something he loves to do) during any discussion whenever we were standing together. Even though he didn't know anything about who Josh was, he made sure he was next to me throughout. He knew Josh was staring at me the entire time.
My thoughts then went to us ending the night on this floor before we could go to our respective rooms. A wide smile appeared on my face as I remembered him placing a soft kiss on my forehead and whispered good night.
"You are glowing and you are smiling creepily. Spill." Rachel's voice brought me out of my dreamland as I sat up half holding myself up with my elbows and dangling out of bed.
"Nothing, thinking about tomorrow." I lied, hoping for her to believe me but knowing how luck always stays on my side, she didn't.
"Uh-huh sure. You were out of Louis, weren't you? What happened?"She asked excitedly putting her laptop away and faced me.
"Yeah I was but nothing happened." I replied and she gave me a look that said,' I am not buying your bullshit' but when I still didn't say anything. She sighed dramatically and lied down.
"Fine don't tell me now, I will somehow figure it out." She said and switched the light off to her side and muttered good night.
I switched the lights off too and fell asleep with just one thought running in my head.
I was in deep shit and not because Rach will find out about this confusing feeling for Louis but because I am having these confusing feelings for him.