Tw: mentions of su!c!d3, spoilers.
𝕀𝕝𝕝𝕦𝕞𝕚👁🗨
-If he was told about your death from someone who witnessed it, he would barely be able to hold back killing them.
-he knows they aren't the cause, but he's falling apart at the thought of not being there for you in your final moments.
-after the person drops down dead or leaves, he's going berserk.
-he will find who killed you and not even Satan would be so cruel.
-after he's gotten rid of them, he's not sure he wants to go on anymore, your gone, and you were what separated him from the part that could only hurt people
-he'll probably take his life at this point, that or he's going to take job after job to feel like he can accomplish something anymore
-on his last spec of consciousness before it all went black forever, he remembered the butler he hired to fulfill allukas demands. She was trying to save her lover, he knew this was pay back.
-he always thought emotion got in the way, so he pinned all his emotion on you, and you died taking those feelings with you.
-he was never truly emotionless, it was just a mask he put on that never came off for anyone but you. But now that mask is broken and there's nothing behind it.
-if you guys had a meruem and komugi moment (spoilers sry) , he would come to terms quickly seeing as he gets to spend his last seconds with you, squeezing your hand and smiling weakly.
"It won't hurt, I promise" (I'm sobbing)
ℍ𝕚𝕤𝕠𝕜𝕒👁🗨
-huh? What did you say? Is that supposed to be a joke? Well it's not very funny.
-he'd kill the person for even saying "death" And your name in the same sentence
-he's in denial, like he's still at home waiting for you hours later (my same response to death)
-he seems fine and dandy on the outside, but he's losing his mind more and more the darker it getting and you still aren't back yet
- they had to be joking right? You aren't dead, they must have seen the wrong person die, right? Right? RIGHT? 𝙍𝙄𝙂𝙃𝙏????
- I keep calling you why won't you answer- 𝙒𝙃𝙔 𝙒𝙊𝙉'𝙏 𝙔𝙊𝙐 𝘼𝙉𝙎𝙒𝙀𝙍???????
- at this point he's dead panning at the wall, he keeps calling and he doesn't even realize he's doing it anymore.
-it's 3 in the morning and he finally hears a knock, the weight of the world falls off his shoulders, but it was dropped down again 10 times heavier when he saw who it was
-not you, but another person who had come informing him of your death
-at this point his brain sounds like this
-he kills them before they can finish their sentence
-he looks like a wreck, and he is one
-he wouldn't take his life like his friend illumi did when their partner died. Is this how he felt? Because he never knew how much someone could suffer from emotion alone.
-again, if you died together he would slick your hair back or cup your face and smile.
- "see ya later, alligator"
-nah I'm fucking with you
- "thank you... "
ℂ𝕙𝕣𝕠𝕝𝕝𝕠 😒
- it was a troupe member who informed him
-he sat there stunned, almost like he had frozen time
-"I.... Need to take a minute "
-with that he took his leave
-the world seemed to quite down in an instant, but at the same, it was insanely loud
-he tossed his book to the side and looked at his feet 👣
-this isn't what it felt like when Uvogin died. When he died he was in grief, but this, this was unbearable.
-the surrounding area seemed so cold but his heart and face were on fire
-he rarely cried but now it wouldn't stop, his face seemed magically wet.
- "I.....I....need to go to bed"
-he tried to sleep but his eyes were stapled open thinking about you, you really were dead..... His troupe members would never lie to him... Especially when it had to deal with you.
- you thought he was cruel before?
-the population of York new City dropped like illumis balls
-he went back to meteor city after the killing spree
-not even the troupe saw him much after that, he stays in his home, living out the rest of his days in absolute sorrow
-he would steal anything and every thing that reminded him of you, and no one could touch them
-your possessions that ment so much to you were his now, And they were more valuable than any treasure this world had to offer
-his life is now a blank canvas too damaged to be painted on again.
-If you died together, he would hold you in his arms and close him eyes, telling you to do the same. His grip became tighter as he drifted off into the title wave of darkness.
-"even in death, I will be with you, my love.. "
-dramatic ass idiot
𝕆𝕞𝕠𝕜𝕒𝕘𝕖👁🗨
-he saw your death with his own.... Stolen eyes
-he usually kept you by his hip so you couldn't be hurt
-but you had gotten to close this day
-retz didn't have the eyes at that moment, but she could feel her brothers bloodlust explode as she heard him yell out as you fell to the floor.
-all that followed was silence...
-that's when his last string of sanity snapped
-a month later you were back at his side, but you were nothing more than a mindless puppet, he knew this and he barely could look at the creaking imitation of you
-all he had now was your body and voice, but it wasn't the same, it was cold and unfeeling
-but living without seeing your face would not be a life not worth living so he bared it
-he had almost completely forgotten at retz to her relief , she could now leave and do as she pleased, leaving her mourning brother behind in the dust.
- for a death together, he would kiss you wordlessly, and hold you as the inevitable happened.