Nakatulala lang ako matapos malaman ang balita, I still can't accept that my boyfriend is gone . . . The way he chatted me last 3 a.m. feels like he was the most happiest man in the world.
But why did his disease took his life? Bakit hindi namin makuhang maging masaya? He told me that he will take care of me after I recover.
"Architect, pwede naman ako ang gumawa no'n sa 'yo. Hindi mo naman ako kailangang iwan. I can do everything for you . . . even it means risking ny career," I whispered while looking at his face on my phone.
I can give up my M.D. just to be his personal doctor.
While looking at his picture in my phone countless of questions lingers inside my head. Can I trace this features again? Can I hug this body again? Let me feel your embrace when I leave this place . . . I miss every bit of you, Architect.
Malapit na naming matapos ang collab story namin. But still I am the one who'll finish it. Tatapusin ko ang kwentong sabay natin na sinulat na dalawa ng mag-isa.
Why they can't give me the happiness I am wanting? It's always like this, after a short span of bliss, I am back again into an empty darkness . . . A loneliness that keep on embracing me.
These tears i shed will never go away from the pain that made me fall to my knees.
I really wanted to curse but everytime I remember him, his words and his diary. I refuse to do.
I think I am destined to be alone for a lifetime. I always asked myself why I can't get the happiness I am wanting for a long time? There are many why's in my mind. A why's where I can't find any answers.
How do I able to survive here if I got discharge but the man I love so much is no longer in this world?
The man I promise to tell how much I like him every day was not here. He's now in the coffin, and I am in so much pain longing for him.
Forgive me if I cry, I know crying doesn't change it. But there is nothing else to do . . . it is the only way to feed my soul. It gives me comfort, and the tears fill back the hole in my heart.
Why God did not warned me that my life will filled with caligo without you . . .
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Will You Survive?
By DeeYanny
Plagiarism is a crime
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