Eclipse's POV
It's been 2 months since that man, Fire, came and stole all our prisoners and Klaus has been locked in his 'meditation room' fixing our security ever since.
I'd never seen him so mad before, he insisted that I never trust those people, lectured me on it, told me all about how they murdered entire planets or something?
They didn't seem THAT evil, but then again they were friends with Jacob, so how good could they be? Fucking lil dick Jacob escaped because of these people.
They really confused me and I've been doubting a lot since. What they're saying makes sense, and part of me wants to believe them, wants to be this amazing, loved goddess.
The other part of me knows Jacob would never come for me in a good way. He was acting like we were best friends or, and this next part makes me want to scream and throw up all at once, more than that.
I swear I kept seeing him staring at my lips when I was talking to them and I was so close to storming into his cell and biting him or something so that he'd stop staring at my mouth. But not in a sexy way, in a cannibal crazy way.
Of course I wouldn't do that, I'm not a cannibal, but if someone were to push me to that extreme it would be Jacob. I don't know what fucked up upper powers thought it was a good idea to make us mates, but they really fucked that one up.
I've been getting a lot of Eclipse flashbacks lately and almost all of them are Ares related. There were a few with Aqua, Zeus and even one really really horrible one with Jacob.
We were somewhere on earth I think, jet skiing and then we went on top of this little cottage and star gazed together. And then we - we - kissed.
I threw up as soon as I woke up. Haven't eaten since. Nothing but lattes which I couldn't stop drinking, especially when I was stressed or overthinking. There was something so calming and safe about them which was definitely the exact opposite purpose of caffeine.
The way some of the flashbacks lined up with my life on earth definitely had me freaking out, especially the one with Jacob. We were talking about being mates on earth and something like the stars messing with something? It was all very confusing without context.
My problem is that unless Jacob just happened to have a second chance mate named Eclipse who just happened to be the person that gave me my life back, it was becoming harder and harder to deny what the prisoners had said.
While Klaus has been working, I've been going through the castle and even the dungeons and training grounds, looking for anything to spark my flashbacks or anything to incriminate Klaus. I haven't found a single thing.
The flashbacks come back at the most random times with the most random objects. It seemed like there was nothing to do but wait and hope that the truth would reveal itself to me.
I huffed, kicking a rock on the ground. I was bored and I was frustrated. Even the calming forest wasn't helping. I went to kicked another rock and it went shooting into a nearby tree, embedding itself into the bark like a bullet would.
That's when a flashback decided to show up. Lights flashed before my eyes and I fell to the ground.
When my vision returned I was standing in a similar looking forest. I was frustrated and was taking it out on the rocks that littered the ground.
I found a larger one, about the size of a golf ball and kicked it hard. Harder than I intended.
It went shooting across the air and into a nearby try, embedding itself deep in the bark.
I sighed, walking over to it before glancing up at the oddly shaped tree. I tilted my head a little as I took in it's curvy but strong shape, reaching high in the sky. Higher than the surrounding trees by several meters.
I smiled a little to myself and climbed up the tree, scaling it in seconds. I found the highest branch that could support my weight and settled down, looking over the tops of all of the other trees throughout the large forest, the occasional tree popping a little higher but none quite as tall as the one I was sitting atop.
I heard shuffling and closed my eyes as the familiar presence scaled the tree, settling in behind me with either leg on either side of my body. I leaned back into his chest, inhaling his familiar scent as he circled his arms around my waist, resting his chin on the crown of my head.
It was very convenient having such a strong boyfriend. I could lean all my weight back against him like a couch and he wouldn't even feel it, easily holding us both up.
"Are you okay?" He mumbled into my hair and I sighed loudly.
"I'm good, how about you." I said, shrugging my shoulders slightly, trying to hide the tears that so desperately wanted to escape my eyes.
"Don't lie to me, my little Dazzle."
I opened my eyes and looked up at him, frowning slightly.
"I'm not lying" I lied, shrugging my shoulders once again once he looked with an expression that said, 'bullshit.'
"Little Dazzle." He warned.
"Fierce." I said back in a mock warning voice before sighing. "How did you know?" I asked tiredly and he tightened his arms so slightly I almost didn't notice.
"You shrug when you lie." He chuckled lightly behind me, his chest vibrating against my back and I groaned.
He was so right, I did do that. I didn't know how nobody else had figured that out by now, but he was the first. The first to really see me.
Not just the sweet, strong, careless exterior, but the broken, insecure, dying inside. I didn't really feel the need to pretend to be happy and fearless when I was with him, I just felt like he wouldn't judge me. Like I could feel what I was feeling and be who I wanted to be. Like he wasn't looking for me to be the perfect person everyone always assumed I was.
"So what's wrong?" He asked again and I sighed excessively loud, cuddling deeper into his chest.
"Do you really want to know? I'm being completely serious when I tell you I'm fine just figuring it out on my own. I've done it my whole life and I can handle it. I don't want to make you uncomfortable or-"
"Eclipse, please. I really truly do want to know. I know you're strong enough to handle everything yourself, but just because you can doesn't mean you should. Letting things build up will only cause you harm in the long run. Please, share with me, for both of us."
He did. He really wanted to know, to help me, and that was the problem.
"I'm just scared." I said, tears forming in my eyes again, "I'm about to sound crazy, and I know it, but it's how I feel" I choked out, "You just seem so perfect and I- I just I can't trust and I hate that because you deserve someone that can trust you but after everything that's happened I- I just. I -almost everyone in my life on earth turned on me. Not everyone everyone, Jen, Jamie and Henry didn't. Donny didn't either, and a few other people, but sometimes I just wonder if they never turned on me because they actually truly liked and cared about me, or they just hadn't had the chance to turn on me yet. I was murdered by my mate, the people I once thought of as my best friends and my family. I just, I don't understand why you haven't turned on me yet. Why you haven't betrayed me? We've been together for, what is it, two years now? I'm just so scared you're going to hurt me or betray me or leave me. That some secret will come out or you'll discover how much better you can do than me. I know I sound irrational, but I'm so sacred I'm - I'm not going to be good enough or strong enough or positive enough or-"
I couldn't finish my rant as my sobs raked through my body. It wasn't a pretty, cute little cry where a few tears slip down the girl's face and her face cheeks redden slightly, maybe her lip wobbling slightly. It was an ugly, gut wrenching, face twisting, soul crushing cry. The kind that you were forced to hyperventilate through, where tears stream down your face so fast that you don't even bother attempting to wipe them away anymore. Somehow though, it didn't seem to put Ares off at all.
He pulled me even closer to him, rocking us gently on the tree, above the forest as we watched the sun set.
I had cried countless times at random views across the world, watching the sun set and rise, but for the first time ever I had someone with me, someone to share the weight of all of my pain. And it felt amazing.
"You are enough." Ares whispered in my ear and I cried harder.
He held me tighter, saying it over and over again until I felt myself finally begin to calm down and settle down into the most comfortable embrace I'd ever experience, trembling slightly and sniffling every few minutes. I'd never felt safer or more appreciated in my life.
I leaned to the side in his arms a little, twisting my body to look at the beautiful face of my Fierce. My Ares.
"You are more than more than enough, my little Dazzle. You're so sweet and gentle. You never have bad intentions, and on the rare occasion you do you handle them with so much confidence and self restraint, I admire you so much for that. I love that you haven't judged me for any of my anger issues, but have instead decided to help me work through them. I love how strong you are, you're always challenging me and pushing me to be my best. I want to be my best for you, because you deserve the world, the universe!
"I love how you're a horrible liar and have a weird connection with flowers." I laughed and flowers began blooming in the tree, new branches growing and swirling around us protectively. "I love how scary you can be when you're mad, but how harmless you look at any other time. You're just so gorgeous, inside and out. Yes, you have your insecurities and you're sometimes a little cocky, but don't we all, aren't we all? I mean, I'm the cockiest asshole there ever was.
I laughed, sniffling slightly. He was pretty cocky sometimes. We both were, and for some reason, I loved it.
"I love you Eclipse" He said, a serious expression on his face and I felt my world stop.
I sucked in a breath as I took in his beautiful words. My heart beating so quickly I was convinced I was going to have a heart attack which was very much impossible for an immortal goddess.
"I don't want you to answer me right now, this probably wasn't the best time to tell you but it's true. You're more than enough, you're everything. You may not think you're good enough, not perfect enough, but you are perfect for me, and always will be. When you're ready, I want you to move in with me, and I want us to spend the rest of our lives together. I don't even care if we don't end up being soul-bounds, because I truly can't imagine anyone else ever taking your place, and I'll kill anyone that tries to take mine."
I heard the ticking of the tree branch beginning to buckle under our weight and my eyes widened in alarm. Ares wasn't exactly a light little person.
"Ares, you have to get off the branch now. You're too heavy it's going to break." I said breathlessly, still taken aback by his words and he rolled his eyes.
"It's not going to break." he sighed, "I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable or something but I needed to say it and-"
He was cut off by the branch buckling under our combined weight and we dropped 200 feet to the ground.
At the last second Ares grabbed me, holding me tightly as he took the brunt of the fall.
I couldn't help but break out into laughter as he groaned underneath me. I turned over so my head was resting on his chest and took his face into my hands as I made sure he hadn't hit his head too hard or something.
"Idiot." I laughed, stroking his soft skin gently and he laughed beneath me. His chest rumbling as he continued to groan exaggeratedly, looking up at me like a sad puppy.
We spent the rest of the night and into the next morning cuddling, talking and laughing and I had never felt happier or more complete in my life.
He wasn't prefect. He had anger issues. He'd never ever used them against me, but I've seen him when he feels either himself or I've been threatened he goes into this war zone. He's like a predator and can't hold himself back. He just snaps and tends to take things too far.
It takes a lot for me to pry him off of people before he kills them, a couple of times it has come way too close for comfort, but I'm not weak, I can handle him when he enters those hazes. Sometimes it seems like I'm the only one that can and I couldn't help but feel myself swell with pride at that thought.
It was like Ares had said. He might not be perfect, but he was perfect for me.
I really really think I might love him.
As soon as the sun was fully up I knew I had to leave. I had training with Zeus and I had been blowing him off a lot lately.
I entered the arena with a smile on my face, Ares's beautiful words echoing through my mind. Yes, it was extremely cheesy, but it was perfect all the same.
Ares was always so cheesy and I couldn't love it more. His horrible jokes and attempts at making compliments never failed to make me smile, no matter how down I felt in the moment.
"Hey Zeus!" I greeted happily and he immediately noticed my amazing mood.
He asked me what was going on and I happily explained. I told him all about my plan to go to Ares after training and make him a special latte I had created specifically for him. I would tell him I loved him and accept his invitation to move in with him.
Zeus didn't react how I expected and instead looked at me sadly. "Look Eclipse, there's something I need to tell you about Ares..." He said, a guilty look on his face.
My vision then flashed and I was brought back to reality, back to the slightly darker and gloomier forest on Klaus's planet.
I felt the entire atmosphere surrounding me darken, more leaves growing and blocking the light, the grass beneath me beginning to shrivel, the flowers that would have soon begun to sprout fruits dying and falling from the trees as the loneliness sept in, creating a deep aching hole in my chest.
A hole for Ares.
My fierce. My Protector. My life. My love.