04.30.2020
P.S.
This is spaced a lot due to preference.
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*Smoooch*
"Phi, who do you like more?"
"What?"
*Smoooch*
"I asked, who do you like more?"
"I dont like anything or anyone."
*Smoooch*
"Basss!! Stop.."
He tries to escape from my cuddle.. but that is not an option..
"But Phi~~~ you have to choose between me, P'Kim, P'Tae and P'Tee~~~"
*Smack*
"Phi~"
"Why do you want me to choose?"
*Smoooch*
"Urgh! Damnit!"
"Last time we were asked, you answered P'Tee. "
"You answered P'Tae..."
"Nobody chose Bas. I choose P'Tae because I know you won't choose me, but even P'Tae rejected me and chose you. Bas is cute and good-looking but nobody wants to have Bas."
"Aw~ I like Bas though, come here.."
He spreads his arms to welcome me with his warmth..
"Phi~"
I try to give my best whine and jumps into his embrace..
"Hey Phi~"
I inhale his cozy scent.. There's something in P'Cop that will really bring you comfort..
"I really love your hug~ So.. please stay in Bas' arms. Bas will take care of Phi~ Bas won't leave Phi for anyone~ Bas will make P'Cop his priority~ Bas will give Phi's wants and likes~ and Bas just want phi to stay~"
"You kid~ where do you think I'm going?"
*Smoooch*
"Maybe to P'Kimmon?"
"Stop kissing me! Urgh Bas!"
*Smoooch*
"Bas~~~"
"Please be nice to Bas."
"Hey! I'm spoiling you to rotten~"
"You're strict!"
"I'm strict but you're still staying with Phi~"
"You're strict but I like you. I'll stay."
His giggles thumps into my heart..
"Ahahahha.. Ooohh~ Our baby, are you confessing to me now?~ Do you like P'Cop?"
"I like P'Cop and I'm not everyone's baby. I'm all yours."
"Phi likes Bas too~"
He hugs me tighter making my heart pounding so wild.. and this tension, is shitty enough to make my mouth run..
Damn.
"Please go out with me."
But he just chuckle..
"What? Hahhahaah.. our baby is such a tease."
"No, I mean it.. Please go out with me."
"Hey~ Your tone is so serious~ too serious, I--"
I meet his eyes.
I can't let this chance slip..
"Phi.. I'm serious."
Silence extends between us.. but I never let my feelings waver.
He rests his arms to my shoulders and pulls me closer. I respond and lean to push him down to the couch while holding the back of his head to avoid him from hurting. I rest my face to his neck inhaling more of his skin.
My heart is beating uncontrollably while he's feeling all my weight now.
Can he feel my heart pounding on his chest?
He strokes my hair, his touch is so soothing...
But it makes me scared.
"Please Phi, no.. No. No Phi. Please, give me a chance..."
I stand my ground, whining.
"Hahahaha.. I'm not saying anything yet~ Don't cry.. Phi doesn't want to hurt our Bas."
"Our? You can have all of me Phi~ All yours~ You're not taking my words seriously, don't you?.. You know how I commit, right? You know how I've always give my attention to you, right? Phi~ I won't ask you why because I won't accept any answer than Yes~"
I start to raise my tone.
"Hahahaha.. Shit! You're starting to sound like P'Kim now~"
"Phi~"
"Bas~"
He shifts his head and pecks on my forehead.
I hate this. I hate everything now.
"This is how you rejected others."
"Hahaha.. What are you saying? Bas, look at me."
"I won't Phi~ I know what you are doing~ you can't console me. I won't let you. I'll get hurt Phi~ I don't want to get hurt."
P'Cop sighs.. and I feel his breath in my skin..
"Bas, look at me. NOW."
His voice sounds so firm.
But I just hug him stubbornly tighter and shut my eyes close. If he keeps on doing this,
I'll end up losing.
Or maybe, I already lose from the very beginning?..
Bullsh**!
My heart is beating a lot faster because of fear.
"Bas, listen.. You and Phi can't be together.."
Fu*k this!
It hurts..
"I love you Phi."
"Bas--"
He huffs trying to make me understand how I tire him..
"Bas, we can't."
"SO UNFAIR!"
The welling of my eyes become beyond my control.. Phi seems to panic..
"Don't cry na~ Please Bas~ Please understand Phi~"
He tries to look into my eyes but I scoot closer to avoid him..
I won't let him.
I won't let him reject me.
"Phi has already someone."
"He makes you cry. He makes you feel lonely. I won't do that to you."
"He said those words to me too."
I stare at him.
He's just staring at the wall blankly. He's so close to me, yet his mind seems to wander off.
I shift, he doesn't move. I raise myself with my elbow and look at his face.
Phi is so dazzling, but in a daze..
I lean down to peck his lips but he flinches.
I feel guilty.
I feel guilty for not having regrets after stealing it from him.
"Bas, do you really love me?"
I perk up and get excited. I indulge all the butterflies in my stomach..
"Yes Phi!"
"Phi can't leave him."
I lean down again and kiss him properly. I force my way to make him respond. I nibble and nibble until I make his lips sting and react.
I grab every opportunity that I can to encourage him.
He pushes me lazily and gently.
"Bas--"
"Phi, Bas is willing to be P'Cop's number two. I'm willing not to be your priority. I'm willing not to demand. I'm willing to be an option for everything... But I will never be willing to let you go. Please.. accept my heart. Please.. let Bas take care of Phi that he loves the most."
I inch closer and lightly kiss his neck.
He cups my face and make me look at him. His eyes are clear and glossy.
Then, he leads my face slowly to him and peck me, I chase a kiss but he pushes me again.
I feel sad.
He looks down.
As if he's thinking deeply.
"You'll get hurt. You said you don't want to get hurt."
"But Phi~ If I'll have you in the process of getting hurt, then I will always be willing."
I never know silence is scary...
I'm so captivated by him.
Am I tempting him too much?
I hope I do.
He holds my face again, I can't take it anymore so I lean down again to kiss him passionately.
And he fuc*king responds!!
Goodness! My heart is jumping in joy! I'm starting to tear up while kissing. Almost sobbing. I feel so weak and drained from the emotion.
I feel tipsy with the volume of ecstasy..
He pushes me gently. He wipes my tears and smiles prettily.
"Yes~ Bas."
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