i woke up its been days since me and payton are back and his been really serious and at work all the time he gets mad easily
anyways i got up and showered and changed blah blah blah
i walk downstairs and payton is sitting on the couch i sat next to him and lay my head on his shoulder he tensed up but i just brushed it off
e-do you have work today
p-yes
he kissed my head and got up and walked out the door with jaden
he didnt even say i love you before leaving like always
i sigh and walked to dixies room i knocked and walked in after hearing a faint 'come in'
d-hii
k-hi
d-whats wrong why you so sad
i explained
d-wait no way, jaden has been the same!
k-really?
d-yeah
k-what do you think it is
d-i have no clue but lets do something to get our minds off it
k-swimming
d-ouuu yes
i nodded and ran to my room and put in a swim suit on i grabbed a towel and meet dixie down stairs
faith walked in
f-i got something for you
f-i didnt finish it before but here is your wedding gift
she gave me a book i opened it and there is pictures of me and payton
the one with me and payton in towels- how did you get the picture and a bunch of these
k-how-
f-i hacked everyone phones and took all the pictures of you and payton
i smiled
k-i love it
f-i knew you would
she skipped into the elevator
i looked throughout the pages but stopped and put the book under my pillow and walked to dixie i jumped in the pool after putting my stuff on a pool chair whatever they are called
me and dixie talked and swim for a while and then got out i showered and changed into sweats and paytons hoodie
i walked down stairs just as the door opened and an angry payton and jaden walked in payton walked right past me and didnt even look at me...ouch
i ignored the fact that is really bothering me like im his wife
i ate and stuff and got fed up with whats going on i marched to paytons office where he spends most of his time in now i opened the door
p-im busy
he said not even looking at me
k-yeah i noticed since 4 days ago
i said coldly
p-kayla let me work
the words 'kayla' re looped in my head
k-"kayla"
i said hurt
k-payton you haven't called me kayla...ever...you never do
tears are now forming in my eyes
he finally looked up at me
p-let me work
that made me madder
i grabbed a book from his shelf and threw is across the room
k-WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU
p-NOTHING
k-OVB NOT NOTHING YOU NEVER YELL AT ME OR MAKE WORK COME FIRST
p-STOP BEING SO FUCKING NEEDY
he grabbed a vodka bottle and chucked it at the ground anger in his eyes
his eyes were no longer brown its been like a year since his anger got so out of hand
p-LET ME WORK YOU DONT DO ANYTHING
he started breaking and smashing things
k-stop it
he threw books and broke thing
k-payton stop it
p-YOU MAKE LIFE HARDER
his whole office is pretty much destroyed
k-PAYTIN STOP IT
he looked at me and came closer i backed into the wall he held me up by my neck
k-payton!
i said trying to push his hands off
he finally let go and i dropped to the floor i held my neck
k-IM YOUR WIFE, THE PERSON THAT IS CARRYING YOUR CHILD, THE PERSON THE LOVES YOU MOST IN THIS WORLD
p-DONT YELL AT ME BITCH
k-im sorry
i got up
k-this is my fault ill....leave you alone
i said and ran out his office
P-Kayla!
I ran to my bathroom and looked around until my eyes landed on a razor
TRIGGERING IF YOU DEAL WITH SELF HARM PLEASE DONT READ THIS IT MIGHT BE TRIGGERING
I grabbed it and broke it open and I put the blade up to my wrist I cried and cried
being sad\angry and the pregnancy hormones don't mix well
the door bust open and Payton stood there his eyes got watery
p-angel dont please
I cried
k- why you don't love me anymore I don't want to be here anymore I'm too tired
p- I love you I love you so much more than anything in this world angel I'm trying to protect you!
please don't do this angel think of that baby that is inside of you our baby
I cried shacking my head.
P- give me the blade angel
I put my hand out with the blade laid on it
my hands and whole body shaking
He grabbed the blade and put it in his pocket and
NO MORE TRIGGERING STUFF
then he ran tome and hugged me no words needed the hug full of love
p- please never think of hurting yourself
I nodded crying
p- I love you so much I don't know what I'll do if you were gone
I pulled away from the hug tears literal tears going down his cheek making me cry more
K- why are you crying
p- it hurts me to see you hurt baby
he said cupping my cheeks and wiping my tears
he took one hand from my cheek and placed it softly on my stomach
I smiled
k- my baby bump still not here
p- any day now
k-I'm going to be fat and I'm just saying that I give you permission to.......H-have another-
p- I don't want another your all I want
he said kissing me ofc i kissed back
i wrapped my hands around his neck and he wrapped his around my waist and pulled me closer
i smiled into the kiss
i pulled away after a couple mins
k-so why have you been like that with me
he sigh
p-there is a mafia after you and dixie now even more since word spread out about our child ig i was really stressed about keeping you safe
k-omg am i going to be ok is the baby going to be okay omg what a-
p-baby baby i will not let anything-
he put his hand on my ship and brought my face to meet his
p-anything happen to you and my baby
i nodded and hugged him
p-you look tired
k-i am
i giggled
he chuckled and picked me up i squealed
he placed me on the bed and laid next to me
i cuddled into him
p-gn babygirl i love you
k-i love you
he wrapped his hands around me tight but not tight enough where i cant breath
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thank you for the idea for this chapter @cassieL101
love you all guys!