One more day...

Id give anything for one more day with you pops. To be able to learn from you. And laugh with you. To hug you. Id give anything to bring you back to life and have mom be happy again. You and Uncle Ron were my idols. I wish i had more time to spend listening to you guys talk and joke. I wish i had more time with you watching movies. And doing nothing. Hell id give anything for you to even be here yelling at me at least youd be alive. I wish i could go back in time id spend every day i could learning all You had to teach im sorry i never listened and absorb anything and everything i could. Im sorry i never spent enough time with you in life. Now its too late. I hope you were proud of me although ill never know it you always had emotion but never really showed it. You werent the best dad but i loved you all the same. I miss you so much and my hearts in so much pain. She broke me dad and its taken everything i have not to give up and die. I am taking care of mom as best i can but doing this alone i wish i was stronger and that you could come home. Your in a small black box now reduced to nothing more than ashes. I miss you withe every second and minute that passes. I love you pops. I dont know where you are but im taking care of mom as best i can. Youll always be in our hearts.