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ITS MY BIRTHDAY TODAY 10/22👣💕
I'm not even gonna get started with school. I got my grades back up after this I'm dropping out
I really fuck wit ya heavy!! soooo thank you thank you. I KNOW YA BEEN WAITING LMFAOO
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my life feels very optional right now LMFAOOOO NO kizzy
if you haven't read Trust go handle that miss ma'am.
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Siah Amari Miller🌉
Harlem, New York.
"where are you," Dimoni asked for the fifth time over the FaceTime call
I dropped my phone in my lap looking at Zahnay in the back seat
"I'm dropping off Tylil sister mind your business," I told her showing his sister
she waved showing her braces
Moni waved back rolling her eyes at me in the process
"still got an attitude?" I smirked watching her get underneath the covers
"bye Siah," she said bluntly hanging up the phone
I shrugged giving Zahnay the phone so she could pick the next song
I treated her like she was my little as sister as much as Tylil did
"I cannot see with these VVs on me
My whole body be lit up
Rockin' some shit you ain't see with a baddie
If she in the passenger, that mean I hit her
I can't be playin', these bitches too close
I'ma fuck her one time, then I'ma forget her"
I looked back seeing her moving in the backseat singing the lyrics
"whatchu know about Smoove'L!" I laughed going word for word
"I put the chrome, my head and my heart in my pocket
'Cause these bitches be home when I give up (Yeah, yeah)
New G-Wagen, the inside tough
Call these watches, this shit be bust
I hit that nigga bitch while she was cuffed
So my own bitch, I can't trust"
"I know all his songs," she responded zipping up her sweater "that was your girlfriend?"
I nodded thinking about last night...
sheesh
"yeah, you met her yet?"
"noPe," she popped the 'p'
"you will soon after she gets out her bag," I snickered stopping at the red light
we stayed quiet till she spoke up after putting her bag down
"Siah I'm hungry," she said leaning up
I put my hand out making a quick left towards Wendy's
"whatchu want?"
"a foe fo foe with strawberry lemonade," I nodded pulling up down the block
....
after we grabbed food I dropped her off at her pops house walking her to the door
"well shit I haven't seen you either," Mr.Mike said opening the first door
I kept a straight face waving giving Zahnay a hug slipping a paper in her bag
"aye, I put my number and my girl number if you need anything don't hesitate to call," I mumbled so she could hear me
"okay. bye Siah," she hugged me tighter going inside
watching her go inside I began walking back to the car getting in the car
soon as I started the car back up I realized Dimoni hung up on me earlier
if I kill her don't be surprised.
1-hour later...
I walked inside the crib stuffing my keys in the pockets of my sweats
reading the note on the table I rolled my eyes
Dear Siah,
I'm working overtime. don't fuck up my house.
Love,
Og :)
"Dimoni!" I called her name hearing footsteps
slowly but surely she came out the room with the phone in her hand rubbing her legs
"fuck wrong wit you?"
"shut up," she flicked me off walking down the hallway
at this point, everyone was used to Dimoni being over here all the time so my moms had no issue with it
she walked into the bathroom where I was and began brushing her teeth while I pissed
what if I peed on her—
nasty ass nigga...
"what would you do if I peed on you,"
looking at me sideways rolling her eyes she laughed
"bro what? mad weird niggas wanna be RKELLY soooo bad," she laughed spitting out the Listerine
"you cursing now?" I asked pushing her out the way so I could wash my hands
"I'm grown," she told me wiping her mouth
I grabbed her neck pinning her against the wall
she kissed me as I added tongue moving back
I left out the bathroom changing my clothes so I could get back in the bed
Dimoni came behind me holding her phone then laying next to me turning her back
"uglyyyy," I mumbled turning her towards me taking her phone
"what?"
"gimmie kiss,"
"I just gave you one," she whined getting on top of me
"don't care I want another one,"
I pulled her closer locking lips as I rubbed her thighs sticking my tongue down her throat tasting the toothpaste
"okay moveeee," she smiled sitting up
"I got you smiling and shit huh?" I licked my lips holding her chin up so she wouldn't look down
all she did was smile and fixed the long tee she had on
"you missed me," she asked holding onto my hands
I nodded kissing her again putting my hands in her shorts shortly interrupted by my phone ringing making me pick it up
"yo?"
"Siah I need you to finish this last drop for me," Q spoke through the phone making me tap Dimoni so she could get up
sucking her teeth she rolled overlooking at the window
"the fuck I gotta do now bro?"
"spin and I'll tell you the rest. let's go," he demanded hanging up
LeTs gO
smd.
Dimoni rolled her eyes getting off the bed putting on her shoes
"where the fuck you going?" I asked her finding a top
"to the park," she simply told me making me shake my head
"no either stay here or go to ya crib for right now,"
"you wanna be someone father so bad,"
nobody was tryna hold her down I'm just trying to keep her safe cause I know niggas is watching for me I can't have her in that
she got too much going on to be put in another situation
especially wit me.
once we got downstairs I drove her to her crib letting her go inside then made my way to Q crib sighing
"you know it's hard out here for a pimp. when he tryna get this money for the rent all the Cadillac and gas money spent. Will have a whole lotta bitches talkin and shit!" I danced in the seat
Tylil Reed Moore🏙
Harlem, New York.
"Tylil can you stop pushing me what the fuck!" Kodie said pushing me back
Kodie was the girl I met at McDonald's a week ago so I finally decided to link her on some chill shit
"see you not even shy anymore," I sat down by the Pier next to her
"you never even told me how old you are,"
"16 turning 17 so chill on me," she fixed her hair setting her bag on her lap
"mad young, I got a friend that I think you'll vibe wit heavy," I responded sipping on my juice
"you like to paint?"
I shrugged not really having an answer
"come to smoke and paint upstate with me. you can bring your friends I do it all the time," she told me smirking
"I'll see. my schedule be tight," I laughed off
she agreed while we sat there talking about different shit
.....
"so you telling me you don't believe in vampires? must be smoking something," I pushed her off my chest getting mad
"they not real maybe aliens but no questions asked vampires is so stupid,"
"what if I was a vampire? would you believe me then?" I questioned her pulling her closer to me
Instead of answering the question, she licked my cheek laughing at my face
"move that shit nasty," I wiped my face sucking my teeth heavily
Kodie was weird just like me... but had different interests and a whole new vibe
"but nah you cool youngin," I tapped her head
"can you not...," she mumbled
we spent the rest of the afternoon at the pier talking shit and eating by the park
Authors note: I'm just bored as fuck with this part.
2 hours later...
by now I was back at my crib and decided to call Demon to see where she was
probably Siah musty ass crib.
"yessss," she showed her face cheesing hard as hell
I scrunched my face up analyzing where ever she was at
"Demonnnnn," I yelled putting my lips in the camera
"hi hi. I miss you," she frowned laying back
"me to the fuck you been up to?"
"under your yuck mouf friend,"
I nodded walking into the kitchen to get some chips
"you back in ya crib?"
"yeah, I'm probably gonna sleep at mine for a week or two,"
"Ii bet, I was just checking up on you call me if something happens," I told her before she hung up
after that I put my phone down my moms came inside the kitchen taking out a pot
"and where have you been Tylil?" she asked putting her hand on her hip
I turned away from her making a face before turning back
"no 'hey Tylil how was ya day?' okay cool. I was at the pier for an hour,"
"so you weren't going to bring up the fact you went to get your sister?!" she instantly started to black on me
honestly, I don't see the problem... someone gotta be the bigger person
"if you gonna start yelling I'm going outside," I told her holding a stale face
"Tylil stop doing shit behind my back, first you going to see ya grandmother now you traveling to Brooklyn?" she walked closer to me pointing her finger
"that's mad selfish. Imagine neglecting your child and being mad because I wanted to see my sister..." I mumbled feeling her smack the back of my head
"you got one more time Tylil!" she raised the spoon looking at me
"you can't stop me from seeing my grandma and definitely not Zahnay. shit pisses me off, I gotta sit up every day and act like shit sweet to keep a smile on my face," I threw the chips down going back into my room
hearing her from the living room she called someone on the phone making me suck my teeth
everyone I know going through shit, I act like I'm okay so I can make sure they good. nobody asks me what's going on. I've never been the type to share shit about myself tho
once I made it back in the room I locked the door punching the wall out of anger
one part of me wanted to cry and the other telling me to calm down
I opened the shoebox under the bed grabbing my blunt along with the gray lighter that held my name on the side sparking it
a tear fell down my face as my playlist shuffled picking a random song
I opened up the window hearing my moms on the side of the door
"don't be smoking that shit in my house Tylil! open the ducking door!" she shook the handle making me turn the music up more
"I've been dealin' with the pressure
Way too much to even measure
Try to keep it all in
But you got me open, hopeless for you
Oh-oh, hopeless for you, hey, oh-oh"
inhaling the strong smoke a tear fell feeling my phone vibrate with a text from Kodie then an incoming call
"Tylil?" Zahnay's soft voice spoke
"yeah? Whatchu need," I asked wiping my face
"are you okay??"
I smiled at her question sniffing then smirking
"yeah yeah, what's wrong?"
"nothing I just wanted to tell you I love you,"
"I can't afford those losses
That's just my ego talkin'
You make my heart beat for you
I almost cry too often (Too often)
But I put too much in your hands
So much regret in the end"
"I love you too,"
"can you come over this weekend?" she asked as I lit the blunt once more
at this point, the room was smoked up even with the window open
"mhm, I gotchu, but lemme call you back later tonight,"
"okay Bubba I might be sleep tho!" she laughed
"Ight love you Zahnay,"
"love you too Tylil. byeeee!" she ended the call making me sigh
Zahnay was and still is the reason why I do what I do
I left her once and I can't let it happen again
finishing the blunt I laid back throwing my hand over my face
"It's a shame for you, it's a shame for me
Is the blame on you? I can say the same for me
After the wrong is there a right?
How can I look into your eyes?
This is a truth that I can't fight"
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