watching horses in the fields
the dragon rests in agony
xxx
"you have reached the voice mailbox of.."
"hey uhh, fuck.."
"i'm sorry i'm calling again, i just-"
"do you even hear these? i hope you do."
"this is gonna be so cheesy... god."
"i'm sorry."
"anyway, uhm, i- i really miss you. although i've probably told you that a thousand times by now."
"and, i'm worried. about you."
"you always pick up the phone."
"but now it's been weeks. and i just haven't heard from you at all."
"was it something i did?"
"did we move too fast?"
"have you- fuck.."
"h-have you changed your mind?"
"everything felt so normal last time we hung out."
"you know, we did what we usually do and you seemed happy."
"i thought we were gonna meet after graduation but you never came."
"you just disappeared after the ceremony."
"did something happen?"
"i remember you gave me this look that day. i couldn't read it."
"and i thought it was weird, cause i can always read your looks."
"you looked.. down. scared, almost. and then you walked away."
"it's all messing with my head, so much."
"i just-"
"shit, i'm gonna-"
"i-i'm gonna start crying."
"okay.."
"the moment i started talking to you, i just knew you were special."
"y-you make me feel so amazing, you've lit up my entire life."
"i couldn't stargaze for hours with anyone else,"
"stay up until sunrise with anyone else,"
"or get high and talk so much shit with anyone else."
"and nothing feels as good as sex with you."
"i just wanna go back in time."
"i just want everything to be normal again."
"i miss your touch, i miss your voice,"
"your jokes, your advice..."
"i miss you, angel."
breathe clay, breathe.
"did i hurt you? d-did i fuck up?"
"i never meant to.."
"god, i'm pathetic,"
"crying over voicemail."
"but to end this,"
"i guess i just want to say..."
"i want to say that-"
"that i love you, nick."
"yeah, i finally said it. i love you. i love you so much."
"and this really fucking hurts. the uncertainty, the.."
"everything."
"please talk to me baby. i beg you."
"talk to me and tell me if i fucked up. i can't deal with this anymore."
"please..."
click
calling..
calling..
calling..
calling..
"you have reached the voice mailbox of.."
xxx
isolation caved in
i adore you
the sound of your skin