I just started loving myself
I just fcking started accepting myself
For what i am
For how i look like....
Then my own family tells me to lose weight...
I know they mean good...
But why....
Do i look that fat?
Do i look that ugly?
Do i embarass you?
Was i blind to see?
Was i wrong to finally accept myself?
Was it wrong to dance around?
Was it wrong?
WAS I WRONG?
i just wanted to dance.... i just want to feel the beat resonating through my body...
Whyd u have to slap it to my face that cheeks are the one jiggling rather than my hips?
I know its silly.... i know its childish....
But it hurst you know...
I know im not the society's standard of looking thin...
But i already set my own...and i fit just right...
But whyd u have to make me remember that im fat....
Whyd u have to make me remember of the unfulfilled promises that i would workout?
I know i should...
But im already keeping myself healthy...
Im maintaning my weight...
I know myself more than anyone...
Why....
WHY THE FCK DO U HAVE TO DO THAT?!
WHY?!
I JUST WANT TO ACCEPT MYSELF
FORGET THE PAST
FORGET THE HORRIBLE, DEPRESSING THINGS I SAID TO MYSELF BACK THEN BECOZ I COULDNT ACCEPT MYSELF!
I WANT TO FUCKING FORGET THE TEMPTING THOUGHTS OF HARMING MYSELF
WHYD U HAVE TO TRIGGER IT....
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG....
I JUST WANTED TO BE MYSELF
TO DO WHAT I LOVE TO DO
AND....
FCK
fuck it all....
I was finally okay.... i was accepting myself....
Now im going back to tile one :)
Fuck....
HOW FCKING GREAT IS THAT?!
SUPER
THANKS ALOT
THANKS FCKING LOT! :)