"Mom am I unwanted child?"
Naglakihan ang aking dalawang mata at marahas sa tumingin kaagad sa kan'ya
"No! Ofcourse not, paano mo naman nasabi 'yan?" bulalas ko sa bata
She just shrugged and start answering again. Nakakururot ang kilay at taimtim na nagbabasa
Pfft. Kamukhang-kamuha talaga, napaka seryoso.
"Anak tignan mo ako" pero tila hindi n'ya ako naririnig, "Vierre tignan mo si Mommy" utos ko
She look at me and all i can see in her cold blue eyes is pure boredom
"Yes Mom?"
"Paano mo nasabi 'yon? Saan ba nanggagaling ang lahat ng mga it an, Anak?"
"I... I just feel tired and empty mommy" she said with a sincere voice
"Tired of what? Tell me para masulusyonan natin"
"I'm tired because you're not always here with me. You're always working. Parang nakikihati lang po ako sa attention mo, and for an unknown reason I feel empty ever since"
I felt knife stabbing my heart, parang unti-unti akong namamatay sa hapdi ng aking naririnig
Lahat ng mga salitang 'yon ay galing sa aking anak. I'm tense, i can feel my body trembling.
"You are God's gift to me. God chose you to be my daughter. You are chosen by God. And will always choose you over and over" madamdamin kong lahad sa aking anak
"Really?"
"Yes anak. So don't doubt yourself. I wanted you and i don't regret having you"
"Thank you for being tthere for raising me alone. I love you mommy"
"I love you always"
Inabot ko ang kanyang kamay at yinakap ng napaka higpit ayaw ko siya na mawala sa akin. Sa paningin ko.
"Mom?"
"Hmm?" sagot ko
Pinaglaruan niyang muli ang kan'yang mga kuko, sinyales na nahihiya siya
"Go on, say it"
Ramdam ko ang pag-aalinlangan n'ya, "I want to know how you met daddy. Your love story"
Pagkagitla ang aking naramdaman. Bakit, para saan pa? Iyan ang gusto kong itanong sa aking anak.
Ngunit ayaw kong madurog muli ang kan'yang munting puso. Kakayanin kong masaktan, mahirapan pero hindi ang anak ko.
No heartbreaks for her. She deserves the world dahil pinagkaitan na siya s maraming bagay
"Okay, finish your task first" masakit man ay papayag ako
It's time. My daughter is not getting younger. She's turning 7 at lumuliit na ang mundo para sa aming tatlo
Kung ito ang makakapag pasaya sa anak ko at kung ito ang makakabuti sa akin ay gagawin ko.
Ayos lang na maranasang muli ang impyerno kesa naman ang anak ko ang sumalo sa lahat ng galit ng mundo
I let Vierre finish her activities and assignments. I helped her kaya kaya na n'ya ang mga natitirang task.
The memory of the scene was still fresh. Imagine of all people, why Ark?
He still have the ruthless and snobbish look. The aristocrat nose, well-defined jaw, thick brow and eyelashes.
Oh I miss those red soft looking lips and his cold and ruthless blue eyes.
Ano na naman ba 'yang iniisip mo self, ang landi mo talaga kaya ka nabubuntis, eh
Kumusta na kaya siya? He didn't age at all. Malaki na kaya anak niya ngayon?
Huling balita ko ay pumunta silang US para doon manganak ang asawa niya. At akalain mo iyon? Naka babae rin siyang anak.
Napakalupit ng tadhana. Sa mga tantya ko ay matanda lamang ang anak niya sa... kinakasama niya dati ng ilang buwan lamang.
Ano kayang itsura ng anak nila?
Hawig ba ni Ark? Magkahawig din sila nn Vierre?
Napapikit ako. Tila may nagdaang kirot sa aking dibdib dahil sa alaala ng nakaraan. Nakaraan na tila kahapon lamang naganap.
At sa pagkikita naming muli ngayon ay umusbong muli ang pagmamahal na aking pinaka iingatan.
I can clearly remember the very first day i met him.
After class Vanilla and I planned to hangout. But unfortunately Vanilla is no where to be found! I also tried to call her but cannot be reached!
She let me wait for her!how can she ditched me again. She's so unbelievable.
I collect all my stuff and finally decided to go home. I tried to call her again but still I can't contact her.
While i am busy arranging my paper works, i suddenly heard my phone beep.
From : Vallenenia Asia
Sorry!, Emergency. I met this cute guy!. Go home and get some rest!
Ay wow siya pa ata galit.
To: Vallenenia Asia
Thanks ah! I waited for more than an hour!
I sent it and I stood up. While walking I was busily checking my notification at social media when someone bumped me!
"Aaahh!" I yelled
"Watch out miss!" I was so stunned when he raised his voice at me! How could he!
I stared at his face.
W O W!
H-He so handsome, he looks like a greek God. A God from mount Olympus.
Gosh, what am i thinking? this guy is so rude! he even raised his voice at me even though it's his fault.
"What are you staring at?" He raised his brow
"I am not staring!" I tried to defend myself.
"Am I handsome?" the playful smirk is still there!
I rolled my eyes at him, "Spell Asa?, kapal mo naman" iba ang kakapalan mg apog ng isang ito.
Hindi ko ma reach.
"But you stared at my face for more than 5 minutes?"
Wait up... Did I stared at him that long? well who wouldn't? he's like a Greek God with a well toned body. Just imagine his abs, oh gosh.
Arghh!, i'm out of my mind this is not good.
"Speechless?" he's now mocking at me
"Do you know, stare is not bad!you moron!"
"But it's rude, miss!" he chuckle when he saw my reaction.
I can feel that my whole face is red as tomato right now! I am so embarrassed. People are looking at us now.
"See you around, Zey-nafire Imperial " he winked at me before he leave.
Zey-na fire ?
Zey-na fire ?
Zey-na fire ?
Sino yon? Hanla ang bobo.
My name is pronounced as Zay-na fire. I let a small laugh. Zey-na fire parang tanga.
But how come he knows me?
Oh! maybe he's a stalker! That's why he's trying to get my attention!.
Tss attention seeker bastard...
"Why are you so masungit to him po?"
"I don't know, he's just rude and annoying" humalakhak ako sa reaction
"But--" she pouted
Inayos ko ang buhok n'ya, "matulog ka na, maaga ka pa bukas"
"I love you Mom, at kahit wala po si Daddy love ko po siya"
My heart melt when i heard that. Napaka buti talaga ng anak ko. I'm so proud of her.
"You should, your dad loves you" kumbinsi ko, hindi ko naman pwedeng pasamain ang imahe n'ya sa bata
Karapatan n'ya 'yon bilang ama. May contributions din siya kaya nandito ngayon ang anak ko, eh.
"I love you, anak" I kissed her forehead
"Night momma" she yawn
Inayos ko na ang kan'yang kama ay nanatiling naka masid sa kan'ya.
Itatama ko ang lahat anak, i promise. Kahit hindi na kompleto, basta makilala m ang daddy mo.
Kakausapin ko si Ark, bahala na kung hindi ka n'ya ulit tanggapin. Ang sa akin lang ay karapatan n'yang malaman na merong ikaw, Vierre.
"You deserve the love you're trying to give the world" mahinang bulong ko
No heartbreak for my daughter, i promise that.
To be continued. . .