AN: sorry if i updated late, it's just my network can't cooperate hehe. Thanks for waiting for this update. ^^
She couldn't continue what she was going to say when v and bambam suddenly returned. "Oh, you came back that fast?" I asked the two
"There are checkpoints at the exit, so" explained Bambam
After what happened that night, I didn't bother Jennie anymore. I don't want to push myself on her.
Even though it was painful, I just accepted it.
But even so, every move i make i can still remember her.
"ahhhhhhh!" I shouted throughout the room while crying
It's been two months since we broke up, but why is the pain still there?
I have also been intoxicated with alcohol for two months.
How to forget fast?
Is this really the case when it comes to love? In a relationship?
When your hurt not only the heart is affected. Also your mind, you can't think straight. Even the body is affected, every action you will remember him, the things you do together will suddenly come back to your memory.
"What did you do to me Jennie ?!" I looked at the alcohol and sleeping pills that I was holding.
"I want to disappear" I said to myself
I opened the container of sleeping pills.
This is the way I thought, I really can't do it anymore.
I'm going to take the sleeping pills, but someone grabbed it.
"Lisa what do you think your doing huh ?!"
I looked and it was irene.
I let go of the liquor and leaned on her shoulder.
I couldn't stop crying.
"It will be fine, lis" she said and hugged me
We were in that position for a few minutes. Until she let go.
She laid me on my bed.
"Just be there, just a moment" she said to me
I looked at the ceiling
Damn why is this so painful?!
"Lisa, get up for a moment" I heard irene say carrying a basin of water
I got up and sat on the bed.
She put down the basin to the floor and took a towel from my drawer.
I was looking at her as she wiped my arm.
This is not the only time she did it. Almost since jennie and I broke up, she's been doing this to me.
Flashback
"Ruby jane !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I shouted while holding the broken bottle of alcohol.
Blood drips on the floor, my own blood. I really want to end my life. I can't take it anymore.
"oh shit! LISA!" irene shouted as she was running towards me.
"Taehyung!" She shouted as she tried to snatch the broken bottle from me
"I don't wanna live" I said and i let go the broken bottle
"what the!" that's all V said and took the bottle away from me
"Lis-"Bambam couldn't continue as he had just entered
"Bam bring medicine" irene said to him Bambam ran out I can see the concern on his face.
"Ouch" I said as she cleaned the cuts on my hand
"Be patient! Endure the pain"she said angrily to me
After that day I thought I was okay. But not really.
I found a rope and tied it.
It's really very painful, but what i felt in my heart was more painful.
When I removed the chair I was stepping on, Jennie's face was what I saw.
I woke up to the light.
Am I dead?
Turning around I saw irene with her worried face and looking at me.
"Oh my" that's what she said and called the doctor
End of flashback
I took the towel from her.
"That's enough, I'll just take a bath" I told her and she just nodded
After I took a bath, I found that the room was clean, the sleeping pills that had fallen were gone.
But to my surprise, Jennie's clothes was in my bed.
"Irene? Bae-bae?" I said, but I was surprised at what I saw
"N-nini?" Yes, jennie.
The woman I loved. But I was just fooled.
Jennie walked in the door. And irene was behind her.
I approached jennie and hugged her, but she tried to get away.
"I'm here just to get that" jennie said coldly
"Irene can you leave us first" I was surprised by what jennie said and irene came out I watched jennie as she pack her clothes.
"Don't look at me like that" I heard her say
"Jen why ???" I asked her and she stopped what she was doing
"I love you Lis, but that's not enough '" she said It's as if she already said that I don't matter.
"We're going to the US, tomorrow" she said
"wow, that fast? Doesn't it take a long time to get the documents?" I asked her and she smiled.
What the
"so you mean? You've been fooling me for a long time?" I said angrily and she just continued what she was doing
After she put all her clothes in the bag, she looked at me
"I can't imagine my life with you" she said firmly
Damn
"Jennie kim, is it still you?" I said annoyed to her
"Lisa, lisa, you know that I want to do a lot in life don't you? But none of it i did when i was with you"is she still the one I'm talking to?
"what are you trying to say? That I don't matter? That I'm just nothing? That I don't have the things he has?" I asked her one after another.
"exactly" that's all he answered but it was very painful
I just looked down
I'm getting smaller.
Why are you like this Ruby Jane?
She left the room.
I wouldn't have gone out but I heard them.
"Ruby Jane, are you serious?" I heard irene say to her
"Irene, if you're in my situation you'll do the same" jennie explained to her
When I look at them, irene's face can't be painted
"I can't believe you're like that, don't you love lisa? But why did you do that to her?" irene asked her
Please irene, just let her go"
Jongin, he gives me everything I want, look, tomorrow I'm going to the US"
my tears flowed from what she said
"wow jen, is that so? Can't you get everything you want with lisa? That you work together to get everything you want? Why are you like that?" I was surprised by irene's questions to her
"You know what's other thing? I don't see myself with lisa anymore, in the future"
I just sat down I don't know what I'll feel
I heared a beep from the outside. Maybe it's her boss.
"Irene jongin was there, i'll go now" jennie said
"I hope you don't regret everything you did jennie" irene was obviously disappointed in her voice
I heard the door open. "Joohyun" said jennie
"oh?" irene was obviously annoyed
"I have something to ask"
I can't believe her favor to irene.
I just got inside my room and close my eyes
Ruby Jane and I's story is over, it's all over with us. I will accept that.