"Ok time for part 3." I said as I sit Jeonghan and I down on my front porch with my guitar with the night sky above us. "Oh wow another part? You really went all out for the first date huh?" Jeonghan teased.
"Remember when I told you
"No matter where I go
I'll never leave your side
You will never be alone"
Even when we go through changes
Even when we're old
Remember that I told you
I'll find my way back home
I could never let you go
Couldn't run away if I tried
'Cause even when I'm all alone
You still got a hold on my mind
And I'll always let you know
That I'm always gonna hold on
And I told you right from the start
You just say the word and I'll go
No, it doesn't matter how far
'Cause your love is all that I know
Baby you just stay where you are
And you know I won't be too long
Hold on
Hold on."
Even if he was near to tears Jeonghan still managed to applauded. "God your so perfect." He said cupping my face in his hands as he connects our lips.
⚠️TW Mentions of abuse. Do not read if uncomfortable.⚠️
"Baby, I want to tell you something." I say leaning my forehead against his. "I think it's time I tell you about my scars." I say as Jeonghan immediately leans back and stares at me in shock.
"Woah woah baby no- you don't have to if your not ready, just because I said something about me- please don't feel pressured you have to do this-" He rambled on but I cut him off.
"Jeonghan please the only 2 who know are Minki and my Dad, please I need to tell someone about this, I may lose it." I whispered and he nodded in understatement.
"Ok but if you feel uncomfortable at any point you don't have to continue okay, but just know I'm here for you." Jeonghan says as I nodd.
⚠️TW once again this, heavily mentions abuse and cutting, if needed plz do not read if this makes you uncomfortable.⚠️
With a deep breath I take of my Jacket and reveal the tank top I had on. Jeonghan's lightly glance over every single scar from my arms to my shoulders.
"This all started when I was 8, my parents were always busy working and my grandmother at the time couldn't watch me because she would still travel the world with my grandpa." I say smiling at the memory of my grandpa.
"So my mom had her friend named Chujun, he was supposedly a work friend of hers that worked pollar shifts from her. So Chujun would and come watch me while my parents were at work.
However he had a different way of teaching me to be grown up, at first he didn't seem to mind if I did something he didn't like, soon the little lectures turned to soft hits upside the heads to a hit with a book but once I reached 11 is when things really got bad.
Whenever I messed up or didn't do something he likes, he would take a knife and make a cut anywhere on my arm. And if I really messed up, he would dab lemon juice in the fresh open wound. It was as if my upper body was just a dart board, I have scars all over my back and arms. The only place he didn't really cut was my chest and stomach.
This went on for another 2 years and finally stopped once I turned 12 because I begged my parents that I was old enough to stay home by myself now. But I felt as if I was around that man for any longer I may actually die.
I would tell Minki and he kept begging for me to just move in with him and his parents, well that was before he started living with my grandmother.
Finally I told my dad the real reason after they got a divorce, he ofcourse was heartbroken and moved us to here, to get me away from the memories of Florida." I sigh as Jeonghan wipes the tears from my face that I didn't even notice were falling.
"You are SO strong." Was all Jeonghan could say taking my hand in his and squeezing tightly. "I am so proud of you Seungcheol, but I'm so so sorry you had to live through that. No one deserves to ever live through that." Jeonghan said placing a kiss on my wrist.
"Thank you Han." I say as tears fall down my face like a river, it felt so good to finally let that out again. "Your beautiful Seungcheol, scars and all." Jeonghan said placing a kiss on my shoulder.
"Thank you." I say pulling him into a hug. "For everything." I whispered.