[WARNING R-18]
I forced myself to open my eyes then I saw my soon-to-be husband. His arms wrapped around me. Consumed by his electrifying and warm embrace. He was peacefully sleeping. I can't help myself mesmerized by his manly face. It was like I am taming a beast with my own body.
He has bushy, angled, and flat eyebrows; has a greek type of nose that surely can attract women. His face was strong and defined, his features molded from granite. He has also prominent cheekbones and a well-defined jaw and lips. Just looking at it, makes me tease him this early in the morning. Pasalamat siya mahimbing ang tulog niya dahil kung hindi siniilan ko na siya ng maraming halik.
"Enjoying the view?" I was shocked and at the same time, I was turned on by his husky voice.
"Tinatanong pa ba 'yan?" I asked, trying to tease him, and saw his eyes half-open.
"Then try me, baby," he uttered and he pulled me in then suddenly his lips aggressively went on mine.
We were kissing passionately and I felt the great tension between us. It was like our love, igniting through our kisses. His warm breath and touch make me want him more. I want to taste him more with my tongue and feel him with my hands.
Sa gitna ng aming paghahalikan, agad kong naalala na pupunta pala kami sa bahay ng mga magulang niya. Umabot na ang halik niya sa leeg ko at napangiwi ako sa naramdaman kong kiliti.
"Hey! Stop it already!" I exclaimed.
"You want to stop? But your body says otherwise," he mumbled teasingly.
I just giggled and reminded him, "baby, pupunta pa tayo sa bahay ng parents mo. We promised them yesterday, right?"
"Can we just take this moment for ourselves?" he asked while pleasing me so hard.
He immediately grabbed me and kissed me back again. Pilit kong itinataboy ang mukha ko para 'di niya mahalikan. Natatawa na ako sa ginagawa namin kaya agad akong lumayo sa kanya at bumangon na.
"Vicardo Rylle Molterico!" I said, emphasizing each of his names with authority.
Hindi niya ako pinansin at nagpagulong-gulong lang siya na parang bata sa kama. How immature!
"Vico, come on! Stand up already and go take a bath!" I whined, coating my words again with authority.
"Fine, babangon na po mahal na prinsesa," he uttered sarcastically.
"Go ahead and I'll prepare our breakfast," I said and went outside of our room.
Nasa kusina na ako at naghanda ako ng bacon, itlog at tsaka sliced bread. I was toasting a bread while cooking the eggs and bacon. Makalipas ang ilang minuto ay natapos na.
Nag-antay lang ako sa kanya ng ilang minuto at agad ko namang natanaw siya na papalabas sa pinto ng aming kuwarto.
Basa pa ang buhok niya at ang mga butil ng tubig sa kanyang buhok ay pumapatak patungo sa kanyang maskuladong dibdib at dumadaloy ito pababa sa kanyang katawan.
Damn! Those well-developed abs of him are so attractive. Even though I am far away from him. I can't help myself being wonderstruck.
"Hey, woman! Don't you dare look at me like that." Nagulat ako dahil nasa harapan ko na pala siya.
Umiling na lang ako at tumayo na sa kinauupuan ko at ikanagulat din niya iyon. I was about going to our room when he said something.
"Ayaw mo ba talaga, ako?" I saw how his expression changed, trying to tease me again.
"No thanks, I'm already full," tanggi ko sa inalok niya at naglakad na ulit.
"Anong full? Halos wala ka ngang kinain!" he shouted at me but I just ignored him and I can't help myself but to smile at the same time.
"Parang bata," I whispered to myself.
Nasa banyo na ako at nag-shower na. The good scent of my lavender soap was sticking in my nose. I rubbed it through my body while I felt the grain of the cold water in the shower, flowing down on me.
A few hours later, I have done taking my shower. I went into our walk-in closet and I was looking for a dress to wear for today.
Hindi naman ako naabutan ng ilang oras at nahanap ko na rin ang isusuot ko. I immediately went on my vanity mirror and I did a little bit of make-up on my face to look elegant.
Isinuot ko na rin ang dress na napili ko. I chose a white draped dress and I paired it with two inches heels.
I glanced myself from a full-length mirror. Taking a look while appreciating the elegance and confidence I have in myself right now. Afterwards, I immediately wore my accessories before I went outside.
Agad kong nakita si Vico na nakaupo pa sa swivel chair at 'di pa ito bihis. Nakatunganga lang siya at tapos nang kumain kaya ikinainis ko iyon.
"Babe, magbihis ka na!" I exclaimed while frowning as I arched my eyebrows.
Nagulat ito sa boses kong parang tigre kung sumigaw. Agad siyang lumingon sa akin.
"Oh, andiyan ka na pala, sige magbibihis na ako," he replied and faked a laugh.
Babatukan ko na talaga 'to. Alam niyang may lakad kami, eh nagbabagal-bagalan pang kumilos. Tumayo na siya at nagtungo na sa kuwarto namin.
Actually, we are currently living in a condo. He's my live-in partner. We've been already together five years and counting. Gano'n kami ka strong.
Nakilala ko si Vico sa paaralang pinasukan ko no'ng college ako. Actually, pinsan siya ng kaibigan ko kaya ko nakilala. Nireto kasi ako ng pinsan niya sa kanya kaya ayon naging interesado sa'kin at ako naman 'di ko mapagkaila na gusto ko rin siya.
Lumipas ang ilang buwan ay nagkamabutihan kami at ayon niligawan niya ako at sinagot ko naman siya. Hanggang sa makagraduate kaming dalawa, patuloy pa rin ang relasyon namin.
I graduated with a degree of BS Accounting and siya naman ay BS Civil Engineering. Right now, I currently working at our own company at si Vico naman ay mina-manage din ang kompanya nila. Balak ngang mag-merge ng kompanya nila sa kompanya namin at pinaplanohan pa naman ng parents ko iyon.
The sound of the door in our room caught my attention and I saw Vico coming out there. He's wearing a blue Calvin Klein sweatshirt that I gave to him last month. And for his bottom, he's wearing black trousers. He's so handsome and manly!
"Let's go?" he asked and I immediately stood up and came near him.
Inayos ko ang damit niya at agad kong naamoy ang mabango niyang perfume. Mas lalo niya akong nakukuha sa bango niya. Nakabubuhay ng pagkakalalaki niya at ng pagkakababae ko. Siniilan ko siya ng halik sa labi at agad din siyang tumugon.
"Let's go," I mumbled when I parted my lips on him.
I just heard him chuckle and again he gave me a smacking kiss on my cheek. Umalis na kami sa condo at nagtungo na sa parking lot.
***
"So, did you prepare a wedding organizer?" Tita Gretchen asked and by the way, she is the Mother of Vico.
We were already in the hacienda farm of Vico's parents, na mamanahin din niya kapag naikasal na kami. Nag-iisang anak lang kasi si Vico kaya lahat ng bagay ay nabibigay sa kanya. And also we were having our lunch right now, in his parent's house.
"Yes, Tita! I already did and it was Cia," maligaya kong tugon habang hawak-hawak ang kumbyertos.
Yes, you heard Tita Gretchen, ikakasal na kami ni Vico. Last month pa siya nag-propose sa'kin no'ng anniversary namin. And as I can recall that day, I was definitely happy. Hindi ko inakala na may supresa pala siyang gagawin at 'yong ang pag-po-propose niya sa'kin.
"Sierra, ilang ulit ko nang sinabi sa'yo na Mama na ang itawag mo sa'kin," Tita whined.
"Sorry, Mama. It's just so overwhelming for me," I explained and they all laughed.
"I know right. Gan'yan din 'yong naramdaman ko rati," she said and looked at Tito Ricardo, Vico's father, and again we all laughed.
We were at the dining table for half an hour, having a conversation about our wedding and soon-to-be plans.
Ngayon ay naglilibot kami sa hacienda nila at hindi ko maitanngi ang kagandahan nito. Malawak ang hacienda nila, kaya kung gusto mong maglibot, kahit saan mapupuntahan mo.
The views are breathtaking and it was kind of pushing me to wander around. Gusto ko sanang pumunta sa plantation nila pero bukas na lang daw sabi ni Vico.
"Baby, wanna go ride a horse?" I was shocked when he asked me suddenly since I didn't expect it to be inserted on today's plan.
"Alam mo namang 'di ako marunong at natatakot ako sumakay ng ganiyan." There was a hint of disappointment in my voice. God knows how desperate I am to learn how to ride one but it scares me the most if I ride a horse alone due to the trauma it brought me way back when I was young.
"Sino namang nagsabi na ikaw lang ang sasakay? Of course I will assist you," sabi niya at agad akong hinatak papunta sa kuwadra ng mga kabayo.
"Kuya, ilabas mo nga si Gry. Mangangabayo kami ng asawa ko." Nagulat ako sa huling salitang binitiwan niya at may naramdaman akong init sa pisngi ko. Hindi pa nga kami kasal pero atat naman siyang ipalandakan sa buong mundo na asawa na niya ako.
Agad ipinalabas ni Manong ang kabayong si Gry—paboritong kabayo ni Vico.
Nang mailabas ang kabayo sa kuwadra agad namang sinuutan ito ng gamit para pangkabayo. Nang matapos iyon ay pinauna ako ni Vico sumakay at sumunod naman siya.
"Manong, baka magtagal kami sa paglilibot. Ako na lang ang bahala kay Gry at maaari na kayong magpahinga," Vico said.
Agad namang tumugon si Manong sa sinabi ni Vico at umalis na kami roon. Sa pagtakbo ng kabayo ramdam ko rin ang lakas nang ihip ng hangin. Napasandal ako nang kaunti sa maskuladong katawan ni Vico at sinigurado rin niyang ligtas ako sa magkabilang bisig niya.
Ilang oras kaming naglibot sa hacienda nila at natutuwa naman ako marahil na rin hindi ko pa lubusang nakikita ang ibang mga tanawin dito. Huminto ang kabayo sa pagitan ng sapa at tanaw ko ang papalubog na araw. Ngayon ay sinandal ko na nang tuluyan ang aking sarili sa katawan niya.
"Baby, pagkatapos ng honeymoon natin punta tayo ulit dito," I requested while still appreciating the ethereal of how the sun will set down for the night to take over.
"If that's what you want, baby," he replied, approving my request.
I shifted my head backward, facing him and I gave him a smack kiss on his lips. "Thank you, Vico."
"I should be the one thanking you. For coming in my life, Sierra," he uttered and held my hands tightly.
Somewhat a warm feeling was embracing me. I couldn't help but to feel heat around my cheeks.
"I think fate and God really rooted on us. Ilang buwan na lang ay ikakasal na rin tayo."
"Yeah, finally we can build our own family together," he whispered lovely near my left ear which gave me chills. Then suddenly he kissed my nape then I giggled.
"Ano ba! 'Wag dito, Vico!" I exclaimed, trying to stop his appearing naughty side.
"Why not? Wala namang tao," aniya at ipanagpatuloy ang ginawa niya kanina.
"We should head back to your parent's house before the night will fall," I reminded him and he stopped kissing me.
"Okay," he simply answered and we left there. "Let's continue this in our room." Huling hirit niya at natawa na lang ako.
Gabi na rin nang makabalik kami sa bahay nila at dito na rin kami magpapalipas ng gabi. Ngayon ay nakaupo ako sa higaan habang my inaasikaso sa laptop ko at si Vico ay naliligo pa. Nag-antay lang ako sa kanya ng ilang minuto at lumabas na rin ito ng banyo. Maraha ako napalunok ng makitang siyang nakatuwalya lang at bumungad sa'kin ang katawan niya.
I felt something on my stomach. It was like there was a butterfly playing inside it. I should get used to this kind of thing but when it comes to him, it will always be thrilling. Suddenly, I saw him come near me and heat rose on my cheeks.
"Why are you blushing, baby?" he whispered with his husky voice and it made me turn on.
"Damn you!" I replied with just short notice and aggressively kissed him.
Agad din siyang tumugon sa mga halik ko. Hindi ko na alam ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. May kung anong nagwawala sa aking puso na kailangan kong ipalabas.
My emotions were only intensified because of him. I felt his hands cup my breast and it made me moan. I just bit my lips to stop myself from moaning louder. It will be embarrassing if his parents will hear us doing something magical tonight.
"V-Vico..." I moaned his name when I felt his right hand run down through my stomach.
"You like it? Say my name, baby..." he whispered through my ears.
Hindi ako nakapagsalita dahil sa matinding sensasyong naghahalo sa aking kaloob-looban. At sa huling oras naming natitira ngayong gabi, tanging alam ko na lamang ay ito ay magiging alaala na babalik-balikan namin.
***
Lumipas ang dalawang buwan tanging preparasyon lang ng kasal namin ang inatupag namin. We were so busy and exhausted. May mga araw pa na palagi kaming nag-aaway ni Vico pero hindi rin namin pinapalampas ang araw na hindi ayusin ang napag-awayan namin.
"Girl, you know what? I'm so happy for you. Five days na lang ikakasal ka na," Cia said, approaching me with a glass of white wine. She's my friend, cousin of Vico, and my wedding organizer.
"Ako rin Cia, I'm so happy for myself. Hindi ko inakalang aabot kami rito," I replied with a tone of disbelief.
"Ang laki nang pinagbago ni Vico no'ng nakilala ka niya at saksi ako roon. He became mature and responsible and I know he will be a good husband to you and a better father to your future children," she uttered, giving me an overwhelming sensation.
"Thank you, Cia. All this time you were there for us. Supporting us with no conditions. You are truly the best of friend I ever have." I immediately hugged her.
"No problem, Sierra. We're not just friends because we're sisters also, right?" I heard her voice crack.
"Sisters forever!" I said, emphasizing the last word.
Kumawala siya sa yakap ko at tinignan ako sa mga mata.
"Can't wait to be a ninang," she scoffed suddenly and we laughed.
"H'wag kang mag-alala pagkatapos ng kasal namin gagawa rin kami agad," pabiro kong sabi at nagsitawanan kami ulit.
Pagkatapos naming mag-usap ni Cia napagdesisyunan ko na umuwi muna sa bahay ng magulang ko. I really miss them, right now.
"My unica ihja! Ba't ka naparito? Kasama mo ba si Vico?" Mom asked me when she saw me in the entrance of our house.
"Nope! He's at work, kaya ako lang mag-isa ang pumunta rito," I said then I kissed her cheeks. "Where's Dad, by the way?"
"Nasa kuwarto namin," Mom simply replied.
I just nodded and my eyes wandered everywhere in the house. Surely, I'll miss this house, every corner of it. Pumunta ako sa photo gallery namin na naka-display sa sala at lahat sa mga letrato ay family photo.
"Look, Sierra," Mom said, pointing to the photo when I was a baby. "I used to carry you when you were a baby and now just looking at you... I saw an independent, brave, and fine woman. I'm so happy for you, Sierra. And as a mother, I'm so proud of you," she complimented me and tears began to fall from her eyes.
I pursed my lips and then hugged her. "Thank you for everything, Mom! 'Tsaka na rin kay Dad. You are the best gift God ever gave me and you are enough for me." Tumulo na rin ang aking luha galing sa mga mata ko.
I just heard her sobbed and she hugged me tightly. I will truly miss my parents but I will always make sure, na bibisita ako rito paminsan-minsan. Kasama ang magiging apo nila. Nagpalipas na rin ako ng gabi sa bahay namin at nagpaalam na ako kay Vico at pinayagan niya naman ako.
***
The day has come and I can't explain what I'm feeling right now. I'm in the car right now with my Mom and we are finally in front of the church. My emotions are mixing, but only one emotion dominates me more, and it was love.
Love conquers all. I know this moment is ours... this love is ours and this time I will marry the man that gives me love, hope, and trust. Katabi ko na ang magulang ko at nasa tapat na kami ng pinto. Rinig ko si Cia na nasa loob ng simbahan sa sumisigaw na nandito na kami.
"Let's cherish this moment, Sierra. And always remember that your Mother, and I, will always be proud of you whatever journey it will cost," my father said with a proud tone.
I hugged them both tightly and before the doors open, I stand firm and smile genuinely. When the door opened, the organs sang their songs and it stirred my emotions more intensely. It was like the sound of each organ was pulling me towards Vico.
Along with my father, we started to take our step, moving forward. All of the people's eyes were on me, giving me warm and lovely looks, but I'm only looking at him as if it was just the two of us in the room.
As I was stepping forward I was like floating in the aisle to the altar. When we finally stopped in front of the altar, my Dad confidently gave his precious pearl to the next person who will cherish it the most. Right now, we were facing each other and I saw his funny reaction. I just giggled and focused on myself because the priest already started the opening.
"Dear friends and family, we are gathered here today to witness and celebrate the union of Vicardo Rylle Molterico and Sierra Yve Orland in marriage. In the years they have been together, their love and understanding of each other has grown and matured, and now they have decided to live their lives together as husband and wife," Father said.
We already confirmed our intention to be married and right now, it's time to say our vows as we took each other's hands. He noticed that I was trembling and instead he held it tightly, giving me the assurance.
"I, Vicardo Rylle Molterico, promise you, Sierra Yve Orland, that from this day forward I will be your husband, that I will be loyal and trustworthy in any way; that I will value your trust and faith in me; that I will love and value you in your strengths and weaknesses; that I will make you laugh and that I will be there when you suffer; that I will take better care of you in sickness and health; that I will kiss you gently when you hurt; and that I will be your companion," he said his heart-melting vow.
Before I could say anything tears fell down from my eyes and he wiped them with his hand. I sighed deeply and said,
"I, Sierra Yve Orland, that from this first moment and day forward, I will be your wife, that I will be a better wife and a mother to our soon to be children; that I will be your home whenever you feel homeless; that I will be your moon in the night as you are the sun in the morning; that I will value your existence and treasure it; that I will laugh with you and suffer with you; that I will take better care of you through sickness and health. And that I will be your spouse in your battle, because, again, from this moment and day forward, I finally find my home, with you." Umagos na nang tuluyan ang mga luha ko at hindi ko na ito mapigilan.
Pagkatapos naming masabi ang tapat naming mga pangako sa harap ng Diyos, agad namang sumunod ang pagsusuot ng singsing.
"And so now, by the power vested in me by God and man, it is my honor and delight to declare you husband and wife. You may seal this declaration with a kiss!"
He grabbed me immediately and our lips met each other. He gently kissed me and I responded to it.
"I am pleased to present the newlyweds, Mr. and Mrs. Molterico!" Finally, our marriage has been declared.
Pagkatapos ng kasal namin ay agad nagtungo lahat sa reception. Dito itinuloy ang kasiyahan. Sinulit na namin ang celebration dahil pagkatapos nito kami na naman ang magce-celebrate ni Vico ngayong gabi. Lot of people congratulate us, and it was a overwhelming sensation.
"I just want to end this now and own you this night," Vico whispered in my ears.
"Just wait, baby. You can own me all you want, when this party is over," I assured him and he landed a soft kiss on my lips.
"Fuck! Ang sakit ng paa ko!" I groaned while I was lying in the bed.
Nasa hotel room na kami at tinanggal ko na ang suot kong wedding gown t'saka nakaroba na ako ngayon. Vico was in front of me taking off his tuxedo. He was a little bit exhausted and I thought he needs some help to take it off.
I immediately stood up and helped him. First, I took off his tie and then his classic waistcoat. Suddenly, he held my waist and pulled me against him. I blinked twice because of surprise. Hindi ko 'yon inasahan galing sa kanya. Naramdaman ko rin ang matigas niyang pagkalalaki na alam kong sabik na sa mangyayari sa gabing ito.
"Should we do it, my wife?" I can already foresee how both of us will end up tonight.
"Maligo muna tayo, ang baho ko, amoy pawis," pagtanggi ko sa alok niya.
"Then we do it while we take our shower," he suggested.
"If that's what you want, darling," I mumbled and looked at him straight to his eyes then I gave him a smacking kiss.
I immediately ran towards the bathroom and I had already taken off my robe. I started to turn on the shower and water started pouring. I felt the water flowing through my body. Suddenly, I heard the sound of the door opening and I already knew what will happen next. I felt his hand gently caress my back. He immediately turned me around aggressively, facing him.
Then, he crushed me with an aggressive kisses and I responded to it. His kisses went on my neck and I did a little moan in every kisses he did. Napasabunot ako sa buhok niya nang maramdaman ko ang kamay niya sa hita ko. Tila'y apoy na nag-aalab ang aking puso na gustong makawala sa loob.
Napaungol ako sa ginawa niya at tanging naramdaman ko na lang ay ang pananabik sa kaniyang mga hawak na galing sa kanyang mainit ng mga kamay. He pressed me against the wall and I groaned because of the slight pain but I was shocked of what he did next. He carried me and I immediately wrapped my arms around his shoulder, to give him the support.
"I love you, Sierra!" he uttered, panting and I felt his breath touched my skin.
"I love you too, Vico, and I will always do," I replied and again I landed my soft lips on him then we passionately kissed.
My emotions just got intensified, didn't even know what he would do next, but the only thing I knew was that we're making love and building union using our bodies. Damn! I cannot deny how this man made me turn on tonight.
***
For the remaining six days of our honeymoon, we took a trip from six different countries. Syempre, pinag-ipunan namin ang perang ginamit namin sa trip. Actually, both of us before the wedding decided to spend our honeymoon in my favorite countries. And here we are spending the last day of our honeymoon in Barcelona.
"Hon, anong gusto mong ipangalan sa soon to be baby natin?" I asked out of nowhere while we were watching the over-looking view in our hotel room veranda.
"Hmmm... If magiging lalaki gusto ko, Trouje Frylle . At kung magiging babae naman, gusto ko Ziadrei Relia."
"Wow! I like the names, it suits our soon-to-be baby."
I heard him mumble a few words, but I just ignored it.
"Ang ganda ng city lights," I said still mesmerizing on how the view showing its own beauty to us.
"Mas maganda ka pa diyan," he uttered in a husky voice and suddenly he kissed my nape.
Humarap ako sa kanya at agad siyang siniilan ng mga malalambot na halik sa labi.
"I love you, Vico," I uttered as I took a deep breath when finally our lips parted.
"I love you more, Sierra, from my deepest heart and soul. I will always love you no matter what happens," he replied and he hugged me tightly. His words where quite cautious but I don't want to ruin this moment and I didn't mind it.
"I will always be your moon and you will always be my sun. I will keep shining because of you."
Again, he aggressively landed me a kiss, and that night, we celebrated our final marriage with love—a foundation of our trust and loyalty.
***
"So, how was your honeymoon, dear?" Tita Gretchen excitedly asked.
We are currently here at Vico's hacienda, visiting his parents. Tapos na rin kaming bumusita sa parents ko kahapon lang. Nang makauwi galing sa Barcelona, agad kaming nagtungo sa bahay ng magulang ko at doon na nagpalipas ng gabi.
"It was okay, Mama. With a little bit of thrill," I replied, teasing her.
Nagsitawanan kami pareho. Mabuti na lang wala si Vico rito at may inasikaso sila ng Papa niya sa plantation nila. Humaba pa nang lalo ang pinag-usapan namin ni Tita Gretchen at 'di na namalayan ang oras dahil sa katuwaan na nangyari.
Pansin ko rin na sobrang dali ng takbo ng oras at ngayon ay maghahating gabi na at nasa kandungan ako ni Vico. We were seating on his couch inside his room. We were silent the whole time and somehow it was bothering me.
"Baby, paano kapag nawala ako?" he asked suddenly, out of nowhere, and it horrified in fear.
"Obviously, I can't live without you. What kind of question is that?"
"Just a thought... we need to sleep," he uttered and I immediately stood up and went to our bed.
"If something bugging you Vico, you can always tell it to me. Your problem is now my problem, okay?" I reminded him and held his face.
"I know, baby. Let's sleep already it's past midnight."
Umayos ako ng pagkahiga at binalutan ko siyang ng yakap at agad din niyang pinatay ang lampshade na nasa side table katabi niya. Hindi namin namalayan ang oras, mahimbing na pala kaming nakatulog.
***
Nagising na lang ako na wala na si Vico sa tabi ko. Dali-dali ko naman inayos ang higaan namin at nagtungo rin sa baba pagkatapos para salubingin sila Mama at Papa pero wala ni anino nila, kahit kasambahay wala rin.
"Asan kaya sila?"
Ang tahimik ng bahay at agad akong nakaramdam ng lamig sa aking katawan kaya minabuti kong lumabas muna sa bahay at magpa-init. Ngunit sa paglabas ko ay ganoon pa rin. Hindi ko maipaliwanag pero parang may mali.
When I went outside, I immediately saw Vico, caressing the horse which was Gry. I went to him without noticing my presence, and I hugged him from the back.
"Morning, hon!" I greeted him.
"Good Morning, hon!" he greeted back.
"By the way, asan na ang mga tao sa bahay? Where's your parents? The maids? Ba't ang tahimik?" sunod-sunod kong tanong sa kanya.
For a second, he gave me a sad look and said, "umalis na sila, Sierra."
"Okay? Babalik din naman sila. Kaya h'wag ka nang malungkot diyan." I tried cheering him up to lighten up his mood.
He remained silent and it was already bothering me. I made a deep sigh and held his face.
"Ipagluluto na lang kita ng breakfast. What do you want?"
"Sierra you need to wake up already." Nagulat ako sa sinabi niya at bahagyang namilog ang mata dahil nalilito ako sa inaasta niya.
"What? You're being weird right now, Vico. I'm totally awake!" I fake a laugh and I shivered.
"You don't belong in here, Sierra. You don't belong in this wilderness," he mumbled a weird thing again.
"What are you talking about? I don't undestand you, Vico!" Kunot-noong tanong ko sa kanya.
"This is just a pure imagination of yours, Sierra. You must wake up!" he yelled with authority.
I was shocked with my brows furrowed and I don't know what to do, but I'm starting to be irritated. I don't even have a slightest hint of what he was saying. And it's totally obvious that I'm awake.
Bumuntonghininga na lang ako at tumalikod na sa kanya para umalis sa harapan niya, pero wala pang isang hakbang ay may kung anong boses ang narinig ko na hindi ko mawari kung saan galing.
"Sierra, wake up baby! Please, Doc! Save my daughter!"
It was my mother's voice, she was crying for help, but I don't know why I heard that.
"They already calling you, Sierra. You have a world and life to continue outside this imagination," he stated and it made me face him.
Siningkitan ko siya ng matatalim kong tingin. Anong alam niya na hindi ko alam? Is this kind of a joke?
"Sierra, baby! Please be strong, Dad and Mom is here for you! Please fight, Sierra!"
Now, I heard my Dad's voice. They were crying and so desperate calling me, but I don't know what to do! I covered my ears because the voices are getting louder and it just made me tremble in horror. I was already crying and stumbled to the ground.
"Please stop this! Please help me!" I was already crying for help.
Naramdaman ko ang hawak ni Vico. He embraced me and he was trying to calm me down.
"Listen, Sierra. You don't have much time," he said while I was crying because of fear. "I need to leave. You should let me go, Sierra! This is the only way for you to live. Bitiwan mo na ako, hon," he added but he just making the situation worst!
"I can't, Vico... you know that, right? Hindi ko kayang gawin... ang sinasabi mo!" Now tears fell harder from my eyes, I can't even help it.
"You need to do it, Sierra! Bitawan mo na ako. Sinasaktan mo lang ang sarili mo!" Now both us were crying and we share each other's pain.
Mas lalo pang umingay ang mga boses na hindi ko alam kung saan galing. All I just want is to end that damn sound!
"Please, baby... I'm begging you! I can no longer take you to this wilderness," he pleaded with a broken voice.
"Vico... I don't know what to do if I lose you. Mas masasaktan ako kung mawawala ka sa'kin," I sobbed with pain and full of sorrow.
"May sarili kang buhay na dapat ipagpatuloy sa labas, Sierra. And I'm no longer part of it."
"Vico, nangako tayo sa harap ng... Panginoon na 'di tayo maghihiwalay... tapos babawiin mo lang? Anong klase kang asawa, ha?" I shouted at him, making him realize that these things were ridiculous.
Sinusuntok ko na ang dibdib niya pero wala siyang pake at ang tanging ginawa lang niya ay umiyak nang umiyak. My vision started to be blurry because of the tears, trapped in my eyes.
"That marriage was a fake, baby! The only truth in here is my love, Sierra!" he shouted back. I felt my lips trembling. I don't know what to say.
"Please... Vico, don't just throw me... and our marriage away. Na parang wala itong silbi sa'yo... sa atin!" From this moment I am desperate, begging him not to leave me
"Pilit ko mang isipin na dapat kong pahalagahan ka... hindi ko na magagawa, Sierra!" Now his lips were trembling.
"Why? Why, Vico? Hindi mo na ba ako mahal? Tell me, nagsisisi ka bang pinakasalan mo ako?" I was pleading so desperate.
"It's not like that, Sierra! Maiintindihan mo rin kapag umalis ka na rito," he replied, avoiding me.
"Paano ko maiintindihan kung sa pag-alis ko rito, eh mawawala ka na?" Ang sakit na ng puso ko, kumikirot na parang pinupunit na ito ng sarili kong mga emosyon.
"Please, Sierra... baby... don't make this hard for me... for us." His voice became heavier.
"What if... hindi ko kaya, Vico? Anong gagawin ko?" I felt his hand cupping my cheeks and he wiped my tears, streaming down on my face.
"Makakaya mo, Sierra. Dahil ang kilala kong Sierra ay matapang," he replied, trying to cheer me up.
"Pero matapang lang ako kapag nasa tabi kita," I sobbed.
"No, baby... you are more than that without me." Niyakap ko na lang siya nang mahigpit at patuloy ang pag-agos ng aking luha.
Ang sakit, ang sakit-sakit! Akala ko maayos na. Akala ko magiging okay na kami. Akala ko bubuo na kami ng pamilya. 'Yon pala panandaliang saya at oras lang ang iginawad sa amin.
"Ba't nangyayari 'to sa atin?" I asked as I break free from his embrace. "Ang saya-saya na natin tapos... babawiin lang nang ganoon kadali."
He just pursed his lips and remained silent. He held my hands and caressed them lovingly and said, "no matter what happens, I still love you, Sierra. Always remember that I will always be your sun, giving you light in the night, okay?" He rested his forehead against mine.
Rinig ko narin ang mga hikbi niya na pilit niyang hinihinto.
"Can I kiss you for the last time?" I asked.
Hindi siya nagsalita kun'di agad niya akong hinalikan. Bawat segundo, nilalasap ko ang mga labi niya, kasi alam ko sa sarili ko na hindi ko na ito matitikman.
Ang mga halik na iyon ay ang tanging baon ko paglabas sa imahinasyon kong ito na pilit kong pinaniniwalaan at muli narinig ko ang mga boses na nag-iiyakang mga tao.
He parted his lips on mine and said, "you need to go, Sierra."
"Goodbye, Vico. I will miss you and always love you, kahit saan ka man magpunta," I said, giving him my loyalty and love.
"Me too, Sierra. Kahit saan man ako dalhin ng panahon. Tanging pagmamahal mo ang babaunin ko at tanging pagmamahal ko ang maiaalay ko sa'yo," he replied, saying his final goodbye.
Kasabay no'n ay ang paglaho niya na parang bula at ako naman ay tila umiikot ang aking mundo at agad lumabo ang mga paningin ko. Napabagsak ako at nakahalandusay sa lupa at kusang pumikit ang mga mata at pagkatapos, hindi ko na alam ang kasunod na nangyari.
Nagising ako at nailimpungutan sa paligid. Tanging nakikita ko sa paligid ay puting kulay, parang nasa hospital ako. Hindi ko gaanong maigalaw ang katawan ko pero pinilit kong magsalita.
Nakita ko sa tagiliran ko ang Mommy ko na natutulog pero agad itong nagising nang maramdaman niya gumagalaw ako nang kaunti. She looked up on me and her reaction became stiff. She then stood up in her seat and went outside, calling a doctor.
Right now, I'm being check by a doctor for my vital signs and sabi niya okay naman ako. Kaya iniwan na nila kami ng parents ko para makapag-usap.
Agad ding pumunta ang parents ni Vico nang malaman na gising na ako. There were so happy seeing me getting well. Pero hindi ako makapakali nang 'di nasisilayan si Vico.
"Tita Gretchen, where's Vico?" I asked excitedly.
All of them cleared their throats and I was bothered by it. Ni isa sa kanila walang nagsalita, na para bang may nangyaring masama.
"Anak h'wag ka sanang mabigla," Mom interfered and it made me nervous.
"Anong naman ang ikakabigla ko?" I asked curiously as my brows furrowed.
Mom explained to me everything about how I got here in the hospital. I was five months comatose because of a car accident happened. Madami pa silang sinabi pero hindi ako tanga para 'di malaman na iniiba nila ang topic para iwasan ang tanong ko.
"Okay, I get it! But where's Vico? Tita? Tito? Where is he?" I asked desperately.
"Anak five months ago... kasama mo si Vico sa aksidente... and he..."
"What happened? Tell me, Mom! Please, I'm begging you..." Now tears dropped from my eyes as I was being desperate to know the truth.
"He died because of that accident."
Lumaki at namilog ang mga mata ko at parang gumuho ang mundo ko pagkarinig ko no'n. Suddenly, I started to remember the accident five months ago. We were on a trip that day, at pabalik na kami sa bahay namin.
Hindi namin inakala na gano'n ang mangyayari sa amin. Isang dambuhalang truck ang nakabunggo sa amin at tanda-tanda ko pa ang sasakyan namin na tumilapon dahil sa malakas na pagbunggo.
Our car went upside down, and before I fell unconscious, I saw Vico covered with his own blood and I did nothing that time, I couldn't say a word or even move my body that time. I just watched him die in front of me.
Humagulhol na ako sa loob ng kwarto. Tanging pag-iyak ko lang ang narinig ko sa kwarto at nagsimula na ring mag-iyakan sina Mommy at Tita. So all along, for five months unconsciousness, I was only dreaming about him, but it felt so real and at the same time it gave me a real pain.
Sana hindi na lang ako nagising. Sana sinama niya na lang ako. Walang nang saysay ang buhay ko, ngayong wala na siya. Paano pa ako makakapagsimula ulit, kung ang taong pinakamamahal ko ay wala na?
Niyakap lang ako ni Mommy at patuloy pa rin ang paghagulhol ko sa balikat niya. Ilang araw akong walang gana sa lahat. Binibisita rin ako araw-araw ni Cia pero parang may kulang pa rin.
I want to see him, I want to go wherever he is. I already miss him, his face, his scent, his kiss, everything about him. If only I could turn back time.
Hindi ko na kaya! Bawat araw pasakit nang pasakit ang nararamdaman ko. Araw-araw hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko. Pero nangako ako na itutuloy ko ang buhay na 'to at hindi ko sasayangin ang pangakong 'yon.
I stayed one month in the hospital to recover my wounds and my health. Finally, makalalabas na rin ako sa hospital. Sa nakalipas na ilang linggong pag-alis sa hospital ay natuto na rin akong tanggapin na wala na talaga Vicardo Rylle Molterico, ang asawa ko.
Hindi ko na maibabalik ang bakas ng kahapon pero maaari ko pang ipagpatuloy ang nakaraang pilit na sinagip ni Vico. I know those five months of comatose, Vico was there helping me, even it was just a dream.
I know it was a sign that I should continue to live my life with genuine happiness even if he's no longer here, but he will always be part of my journey. Nakalalakad na ako nang maayos at napagdesisyunan ko na bumisita sa puntod ni Vico. My parents just dropped me and I was the only one visiting him.
Nilagay ko ang bulaklak sa kaniyang lapida ang sinindihan ang kandila at itinirik ko rin sa kaniyang lapida.
For a minute, I bowed my head and just watched his name which was engraved on the gravestone. Tears fell immediately from my eyes and my chest tightened because of pain and longing for his existence.
"You're so unfair, hon. Ba't... mo ako iniwan? Sabi mo sabay tayo tatanda, pero... ba't mo naman ako inunahan?" My voice cracked.
Patuloy ang pag-agos ng aking mga luha at hindi ko ito mapigilan. Tanggap ko, na wala na siya pero 'di ko pa rin malimutan ang sakit.
"Sana sinama... mo na lang ako! Sana... hinayaan mo na lang ako, pero... alam ko rin ginawa mo iyon para sa'kin kaya kahit mahirap, ipagpapatuloy ko ang nasimulan na'tin," I sobbed and immediately wiped my tears.
You will always be my Vicardo Rylle Molterico, and no one can replace you in my heart, because I can't find another man like you.
I will truly treasure all the memories we had and all the moments that we were together. Your presence will always remain in my heart and my soul. My heart may still ache in sadness, and tears still flow, but my love remains the same.
I know somewhere up there you are guiding me. You may be a star... perhaps hiding in the clouds or a sun that helps me shine through the night. Basta't ang alam ko lang ay mananatiling buhay ang iyong presensya sa aking puso kahit saan man ako mapapad.
And I know someday if fate and God will root upon us again, I know there will be a next journey for us to find our way to each other. And when that time comes, I promise that I will never let you go, ever.
"I, Sierra Yve Molterico, your wife and will remain to be your wife for a lifetime, will grant your wish, as I continue this second life you gave me. May you rest in peace, Vicardo Rhylle Molterico. I love you!"
~~THE END~~