Love's a Lie

Journal Entry #1

I sat in bed at one a.m thinking about my life and how miserable I am. Two years ago I would've never thought my life would end up like this. I didn't think I would end up crying every night because I felt useless, unimportant, and unloved. Wherever I go I feel messy and uneven, something like a poison destroying me inside but I can't find the antidote; the person who would save me from this. I've never had the Courage to talk to someone about this, I always kept it in and let the pain eat me away as if one day maybe it'll disappear. But it hasn't, it keeps me up at night, zones me out in public, and destroys my confidence. I wake up every morning thinking life doesn't get better and everything I do is pointless because no seems to care or bother to ask how I'm feeling at any given point. It's like I live my life in a soliloquy and all I can is transcend into the depths of my thoughts...