Jungkook had the most shocked face I had ever seen in my life. Although he didn't let go of my hands for a second I felt his grip loosen a bit. As for me I had already been crying from the moment I began tell him about my past.
"I was pregnant, when I was about to end it all, I finally saw the light at the end of the tunnel, what started out as an inhuman act was now turning into the most precious thing in my whole existence. I remember Jin's frightened looked when he came running from the kitchen because I couldn't contain my cries, I wasn't sure if it was from happiness or guilt, but I knew at that moment that I had a reason to live for."
I took a deep breath, and looked a Jungkook apprehending his reaction, what I saw however broke my heart; He was looking at me with pure pain in his eyes, silent tears streaming down his face. Jungkook was crying but why? was he crying for me? All I knew was that I wanted to hold that man in my arms and take his pain away, seeing him in that state broke me more than I thought it would. So without hesitating I got down on the carpet and held him tight, securing my hands around his strong body and laying my head on his shoulder. His scent was the purest form of therapy I've ever known, I felt him relax in my arms, his right hand traced my back slowly rubbing small circles while the other one rested at the back of my head, his fingers intertwining with my long locks.
"I wish I was there sooner Emma, I would've helped you through everything." He said his warm breath gently hitting my cheeks. We stayed in each others' arms for a while, none of us was talking, we didn't need to communicate verbally, and for once silence didn't feel lonely, for once in my life it felt peaceful, therapeutic and comforting.
"What happened to your child Emma?" he said after a long moment of hesitation.
I broke the embrace and looked at him. "When I learnt I was pregnant that baby became my priority, Jin and Hoseok were delighted at the idea of becoming uncles, and as for myself even though I hated his dad from the bottom of my heart, that child was innocent, he was a part of my soul, he was growing inside of me and I couldn't give up on life, I had to fight for him. Of course when Alex heard the news his reaction was what I expected; He wanted me to abort it. Can you believe that? his own child! he didn't want any from the beginning and he made it clear, but how could I ever give up on my only hope in this world. That night I took the best and the worst decision ever of my life. I went upstairs, packed my clothes and decided to leave him. I was ready to start a new life away from him, Jin already knew and supported me, he said he would arrange a meeting with his friend who's a well known lawyer... everything seemed to be falling perfectly in place. Alex didn't even follow me that night when I left the mansion, he didn't even try to hold me back and I knew something was fishy about that, but I chose to ignore it on focus on mine and my baby's well being. I took the road at night and was driving slowly, soon enough I saw a black SUV tailling me closely and knew it was probably him or his men. The road was very slippery and dark.." I sighed as I felt the tears coming back again, "That night, he ordered his dogs to stop me no matter what, I was almost at Jin's when I saw the car accelerating and moving to my left side trying to push me against the wall, I lost control of my car and went full speed into a rock concrete wall. I didn't have any severe injuries but as you guessed I lost the child that night."
"I'm so sorry Emma." Jungkook said after a long pause holding me stronger than ever, I was still crying but somehow I felt less miserable in his arms, after three years and countless therapy sessions, it only took one hug from Jungkook to start healing my torn heart. And like that I cried myself to sleep that night, and he was there wipping every tear away from my cheeks.
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Waking up the next morning gave me a new feeling, I clearly remembered falling asleep on the floor, but when I opened my eyes I was tucked in the warmth of my bed and Jungkook was gone. I remembered last night's events and blushed at the excessive crying and intense looks we exchanged, although my marriage was over a long time ago I still felt guilty for being attracted to someone else while I was already taken; yes Jungkook was the only thing occupying my mind now and after opening up to him and seeing how he genuinely cared for me I was slowly and deeply falling in love with him. As if he read my mind, Jungkook knocked on my door and peaked in giving me the brightest smile I've ever seen.
"Good morning Emma," He said coming my way, he felt less tense and more at ease around me, that morning he was different and I started seeing a new face of him, a face I didn't know was there before. He was more relaxed and behaved around me the same wat he usually does around Jin. "How was your sleep?"
I looked at him and I was sure my eyes betrayed how much affection I had toward him. Patting the side of my bed, I made some space for him, gesturing to come sit down, which he did without hesitation. "I slept good, thank you for not leaving me on the floor, and I'm really sorry about last night, I'm sure I ruined your shirt with all the tears and mascara I left on it."
"Are you kidding me? I'm never washing it again, I could sell it on eBay and get a fortune for it, you're pretty famous you know, I Googled your name." he said smiling wildly showing me his pretty bunny teeth and wrinkled side eyes. I laughed so hard at that, it felt really good to let my guards down and be myself from time to time.
"It feels good to hear you laugh Emma, thank you for sharing your past with me, I can't imagine how difficult it must've been for you to unveil this again, but I'm happy you told me."
"No you're wrong, it was difficult indeed but I felt good, I needed to tell you Jungkook, I can't explain it but somehow I trusted you and I felt the need to let you know everything about me. And you know I'm sorry about yesterday..."
"What do you mean you're sorry?"
"I mean you know..." I was sure that my cheeks were burning judging by the amused smile Jungkook had on his face, "No I don't Emma you have to be more precise." he says almost laughing. He knew exactly what I was talking about and was teasing me.
"You know, about the kiss, I'm sorry." I said playing with my covers, I couldn't believe that me, Emma the twenty six years old introvert kissed a man who was not my husband in our kitchen while crying.
"Don't be." he said, and when I raised my head and looked at him he wasn't smiling anymore, no. This Jungkook in front of me was calm, composed, serious and confident. "Don't Emma, I wouldn't mind if it happened again."
"I might want to do it again then."
I was sure at that moment that from the way he looked at my face then down my lips, I was going to commit the sweetest sin I could've ever done. Our faces were getting closer, agonizingly slow if you ask me, our noses touched and at that moment .....
...... I heard a knock on my bedroom door. Startled Jungkook got up faster than lightening and opened the door to be met with none other than Mrs Lee, «Breakfast is ready Mrs Emma" she said with a stoic face yet sweet voice. before I could answer Jungkook did instead taking me by surprise,
"Thank you Mrs Lee but the young Mrs and I will be eating outside this morning." with that she left and I was grateful she didn't give any suspicious look. Jungkook was after all supposed to protect me, it is only natural for him to be next to me.
"I didn't have time to tell you but, Namjoon Hyung called earlier, he said there's a gathering at 7p.m tonight, remember he mentioned it at the hospital and you agreed to come Emma you can't back down or I'll kidnap you."
"I thought you were supposed to protect me." I said amused by his words
"Yes always but I will make sure you're safe while kidnapping you."
I realized at that moment that yesterday's events were not just a way for me to open up to him but for him to let go of his fears and serious demeanor as well, and if I wasn't sure about the nature of our relationship before, I knew that we were good friends from now on, and I was unconsciously wishing for a little bit more than that.
"Plus it's taetae's birthday and I could really use your help to buy him a gift." I sighed knowing damn well I couldn't refuse anything to this bunny.
"All right, give me some time to get ready I'll meet you downstairs, how does it sound?" I said going to the bathroom
"It sounds perfect."
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I got out of the shower and dried my hair, it wasn't straight nor frizzy, I had naturally wavy hair and decide to let it down for a change. Although I was always neatly dressed whenever I was in public, I felt like dressing more like myself today, away from fancy blazers and shoes, I opted for a light pink woolen sweater and black jeans, with my favorite pair of converse. Alex hated when I wore them, but to me no Louboutin in this world compared to them. Once I was ready I grabbed my purse and made sure to spray my favorite perfume all over my neck and clothes, that's just how I wear it, I mean everyone does the same right?
Jungkook was patiently waiting in front of the main door. I tapped his shoulder, "So where are we going and how old is taetae exactly?"