In the morning with the drizzle, Xiao Yun dragged Yuyan to the Xiao family's rooftop. At that time, the sun emerged from the Wanjia high-rise building, slowly rising into the sky, shining a little bit on the earth, the sleeping city Slowly wake up, vibrant and dazzling!
The morning light on this day reminded Yu Yan of the heavy winter breakfast, and it was he who led her to watch the morning sun. The golden sun jumping out of the sea is more magnificent and more beautiful than today, but not as beautiful as it is today. Heartbeat.
Xiao Yun said: "Although it's not as beautiful as the seaside and the top of the mountain, but here, it doesn't have a taste."
Yu Yan didn't speak, she looked sideways at Xiao Yun, only to find that Xiao Yun was also looking at her, with a slight smile between her eyebrows, and her deep eyes seemed to reflect her.
"Xiao Yun, you..."
"are you afraid?"
Yu Yan smiled: "...Afraid? What am I afraid of?"
"I'm afraid the closer I get to you, the more I can't refuse."
"..."
She opened her eyes and looked at the distant sky again.
Yu Yan: "You are still so arrogant."
Xiao Yun smiled, seeing the rising sun, and the whole world was stained with warm gold.
.......
It seems that there is no change. Xiao Yun will still appear in front of her in a fixed place, in the hospital ward, living downstairs, and even if she does not see it occasionally, a message will lie in her mobile phone saying that he is going to work, have a reception, In socializing...
Although she never responded.
It's weird, this weirdness makes her feel strange.
"Is this bad?" Coco asked. She seldom heard Yu Yan talk about her problems with Xiao Yun. She would only hear her say when she was really at a loss, or Yu Yan just wanted to say something to relieve her troubles. She needs to advise her.
"Is this all right?" Yu Yan asked back.
Cocoa thought for a while, and said, "Well, let's not mention the question, so you just ask yourself whether you are repulsive and resistant to the current situation, or is it just distress and confusion... Do you think Xiao Yun has an impact on your current life? Is it a threat?"
Yuyan: "..."
She sighed deeply and stirred the cold coffee.
Coco said: "Yan."
"......Ok?"
"Did you know that your love and hatred are too clear, no matter what, especially your feelings, there are always right and wrong, black and white. But sometimes, especially when facing your own feelings, you You don't have to think too clearly. You can just let the flow go. When the time is up, everything will be clear." Said ridiculously, "Don't force yourself to have an answer."
Yu Yan listened, chuckled and said, "Right?"
Cocoa: "Of course it is. So don't think too much about it. It's really annoying. Just ignore him!"
Yuyan smiled, if she can drive away a person without paying attention, then she has to drive away hundreds of Xiao Yun?
She doesn't deny that Coco is right. For her and Xiao Yun's situation, or time is the best medicine. She doesn't have to worry about all that. Maybe someday, Xiao Yun is tired of this chase and disappears completely. In front of her.
She thought, what she is most distressed about right now is the concessions she made in the face of Xiao Yun...
After staying in the hospital for a while, the old lady asked to be discharged and go home. "That's the way the hospital lives. It's not as comfortable as home."
Xiao Yun didn't want to go against the old lady's wishes, so she went to the doctor to ask if she could go home for treatment. In fact, the old lady's current condition has always been maintained by medicine. It's not impossible to go home and take proper care. If the patient is in a good mood It also helps the condition. I agreed.
The old lady returned to Xiao's house. When Yu Yan went to see her, it was not as convenient as going to the hospital, and she couldn't go as often as she did. The old lady's body can no longer be worse, nor can it be better, because of the torment of illness, she is weak day by day, with white hair and vicissitudes of face.
During her sober time, she likes to let people put the videos and photos of Mr. Xiao most, and there is bound to be a bouquet of roses on the bedside, which never fades.
Xiao Yun told her that those videos and photos once gave him incredibly strong courage, but now, they have become the old lady's thoughts and comfort.
She said blankly: "Isn't it more painful to look at people who have left?"
Xiao Yun said, "Perhaps, drink poison to quench your thirst."
... Drink poison to quench thirst.
Yu Yan said silently, "The old lady told me that she wants to live longer to accompany you. Maybe she simply misses and wants to see, maybe...she is not as painful as we thought."
"Ok."
Xiao Yun thought that in his ridiculous decades of ignorance, the only correct decision was to marry Yu Yan. He thanked her for her kindness, and he could treat them sincerely when he was such a bastard.
If you do it again...
He will definitely marry her again.
He thought he might be in a barrier, and he would stay with Yu Yan anyway, he tried every means to get close to her. Knowing that she would see the old lady in the afternoon, he waited for her free time; knowing that she was going to run in the morning, he rushed to wait early in the morning; let the auntie cook her favorite meals every day; the mobile phone stayed and texted One after another... 22ac3c
He did it willingly, but it wasn't enough.
She brought him a lot of warmth and touch, but all he brought her was hurt.
despite this.
"Yu Yan, I am very happy to marry you and to know you."
The life is not salty or light, and there is not much change between Yu Yan and Xiao Yun. He still does his own way, never put the cold words and cold words of Yu Yan in his eyes, what to do and what to do, and to the extreme.
However, she actually accepted it slowly.
Finally, the summer vacation came, and Yu Yan's work was temporarily over. She took a day off at home and declined the suggestion of a colleague calling her to go to the summer training class to work part-time.
Mother Yu couldn't see that Yu Yan was lying in the room every day, and she took her to the market early in the morning to buy the freshest vegetables, fruits and bones. The bones were bought for the old lady to make soup.
"I went to see the old lady yesterday, alas!" She sighed, speechless.
Yu Yan knew that she was more diligent than Yu's mother when she went to Xiao's house, and she knew the old lady's weakening body better.
"But what to do..." Yu mother.
Yu Yan lowered her head and followed behind Yu mother listlessly, losing her mind.
Mother Yu returned home, carefully boiled the bone soup all night.
Early the next morning, Yu Yan took the food box and went to Xiao's house.
She drove the car and just approached Xiaozhai when she heard a whining alarm sound, that kind of bad premonition and panic instantly filled her heart!
Panic, anxiety, pain...
Yu Yan had expected such a day for a long time. Everyone knew that there would be such a day. This is not surprising. I thought I was ready and imagined the parting scene countless times. However, when the parting really came, he still suddenly got It was caught off guard.
The sorrow that surged in that moment could almost cannibalize people's reason and drown them.
Doctors, nurses, aunts, and servants all stood in the living room, silent.
Xiao Yun is not there, nor is the old lady.
Yuyan appeared at the door, and the aunt came over, covering her mouth and crying out of breath.
Yuyan was at a loss: "Why are they all here? Don't you go in for rescue? Is it all right?"
In the silence, someone said: "I'm sorry..."
...Sorry... sorry for what...
The food box that Yu Yan was holding slammed onto the cold marble floor.
This was the last time I saw Mother Xiao in Yu Yan's memory.
She is really old and very old, with age spots, wrinkles, white hair, and a skinny body, all loose skin after a gentle pinch.
Doctors say that it is a miracle to be able to persist under such deteriorating conditions.
The hateful miracle will disappear, it is not eternal.
"Xiaoyan, don't cry." Xiao Mu said.
Yu Yan didn't want to cry, but she couldn't help it at all. She wiped her face and her cheek vaguely through a mist of water, "Well! I won't cry, I won't cry..."
"Xiao Yan, have a happier life... Don't be afraid, when you meet someone you like, don't be afraid..." Mother Xiao was already struggling to speak, but her voice was still kind and soft. She said that she was most at ease when she spoke. if. This made Yu Yan feel even more sad. She rarely experienced life and death, and she couldn't see through life and death. For her, death was leaving forever.
"I know, I know, don't worry about me! Let's go to the hospital, go to the hospital! There must be help... I don't believe..."
Mother Xiao held a depressed hand and looked at Xiao Yun who was standing silently at the door.
In fact, she had nothing to explain. During this time, Xiao Yun had grown up. He understood love and responsibility, and he also saw himself clearly. She should rest assured.
Except for reluctance.
Yu Yan knelt on the head of the bed and followed Xiao's mother's eyes to see Xiao Yun. He clenched his fists, his expression depressed, and his eyes flushed.
Standing there, it was like endless pain spreading...
She turned her gaze back and squeezed Mother Xiao's hand, with a panic expression, "Don't go...please, don't go...for Xiao Yun, don't go!"
Mother Xiao bent her lips laboriously, and her eyes blinked tiredly...
The palm of the hand held in Yu Yan's palm gradually loses strength...
Yu Yan felt her heart still, her head rumbling, "Call a doctor! Call a doctor!"
"It's useless."
useless......
Yu Yan lay on Xiao's mother, crying in grief. From the bottom of her heart, she knew that it was useless. Xiao Yun would not give up if it was useful, but she still couldn't help deceiving herself, not wanting to give up hope.
... She never gave up hope, hope will still slip away.
Sometimes, reality is cruel and desperate.
There is no hope...
Yu Yan is very deeply aware of this.
She tried her best to stop crying and leaned to Xiao Mu's ear, "Mom, don't worry, I will take care of Xiao Yun."
Mother Xiao moved her fingers and tried her best to open her eyes...
"I love him, but I am afraid of being hurt, so I dare not admit it."
"You tell me not to be afraid when I meet someone I like, I am not afraid now."
"Mom, don't worry..."
This is the last words Yu Yan and Xiao Mu said.
This bright sunny morning was drowned in tears.