your pov:
i woke up to banging on the door of the hotel room
looking down to my apple watch to see it was only 12am, meaning it had only been about an hour since i passed out here
i didn't want to get the door but the continued thumping forced me to
i knew it would be joji, and i honestly didn't even want to look at him
but i slid out of the thick white sheets and slugged to the door
placing my small hand onto the cold door handle, revealing a soaking wet joji outside the door
sure i was livid with him, but i felt horrible still, he ran through the rain just to see me
i said nothing, and he let himself in, shuttling the door behind him as i grabbed a clean towel from the bathroom and wrapped it around him
"i'm sorry, y/n" he spoke sincerely
i didn't want to believe him, i couldn't
i rolled my eyes and made my way back over to the bed
"listen you don't have to believe me but can you just hear me out, please?" he pleaded
i nodded, and he sat beside me on the bed
"remember jake?" joji spoke softly
my eyes widened, and i jolted from my spot on the bed
jake was my ex boyfriend. my crazy ex-boyfriend, might i add
but i nodded, in attempt to keep calm
"h-his sister, jules, she's liked me for a while" he added, and i became more and more nervous by the second
"jake, he wanted to leak, your, you know, your pictures, seeing as you're kinda, i don't know, "well known."" he rambled, putting air quotes around the well known
but i understood what he meant
"jake said if i cheated on you, with jules, he wouldn't leak the pictures. and i- i didn't want to, but i had to, for you." he insisted
i didn't know whether to believe him or not
but it didn't matter, i wanted to believe him, i had to believe him
i missed him and frankly, i couldn't imagine a life without him
part of me knows he wants what's best for me and that he would never hurt me intentionally
but that other part keeps replaying the imagine of him kissing her
"i believe you." i spoke, almost emotionless
he immediately stood up and wrapped his arms around me
"y/n i love you, and you know that i would do anything to protect you, and i'm sorry that's what it came to, but please believe me when i tell i want what's best for you" he whispered softly to me before pulling me onto the bed and holding me close to him
of course i could never know if he meant what he was saying, but i trust him
and that's what's beautiful about love
so what if he's lying? i don't believe he'd do that to me
and i know he wouldn't go through all this trouble to get me back, if he didn't mean the words he was saying
~ i said i would update this sooner but i was really stuck on where to go with this , but i hope u like it! mwah !