tw! homophobia & slurs
someone explain to me why i am homophobic toward myself. this self hatred is not helping. it's making me wanna bang my head on my wall. i'm so scared that one day someone will say something to me that ahh. ive already been called a f*g multiple times online but in real life no. wait nvm. technically they didn't use in a homophobic way but they are straight and we're saying "it's just a word" bout to kill a bitch.
i don't know why i've been slowly getting more like internalized homophobia?? is that what it's called? like i used to be so happy and like proud obviously closeted to my party but i was uncloseted to most of my friends, i felt happy.
since these few months came around quarantine has really been bringing out the homophobic assholes. it hurts a lot when someone is being homophobic. like it won't even be directed to me but i feel like they're saying it to me and ouch. it's just so angering:((
— kory!
9 / 24 / 2020
2:18 am