*Love, Dark*
“This is Glenn and Milena. They’re husband and wife. Milena is pregnant with their first child. Dito rin sila nakatira as well as Katherine. Silang tatlo lang ang nakakaalam ng kung anong meron tayo.”
Umarko ang kilay ko at napatingin kay Dark. “You mean pati yung sa akin?”
“Yeah. It’s kind of… complicated, how they knew.”
Narinig kong tumawa yung babaeng katabi ni Katherine. Sino nga ‘yun? Milena? “Ang sabihin mo, Sire, ayaw mo lang ipaalam na siya lagi ang laman ng usapan sa hapag-kainan. Kayo talaga oh.”
Tumawa yung dalawa. Nag-iwas lang ng tingin si Dark.
Hindi pa kami okay as in okay na okay. It’s hard to build a relationship that went downhill y’know. And this relationship is beyond repair. Ewan ko kung paano niya aayusin. Ewan ko rin kung maniniwala ba talaga ako sa kanya. Dahil pagkatapos naman kasi ng pakikiusap niya kanina, I don’t think he’ll ever lie in that state.
Not unless it’s cold acting then maybe.
“Would you mind, guys? Sa garden lang kami.”
“Oh.” Nakangiting bumaling si Katherine sa amin. “Kailangan n’yo ng foods? Drinks? Water? Anything?”
Damn, I’m such a fool for thinking na magkakagusto si Dark sa babaeng ‘to and vice versa. I’m not even sure kung alam niya ang essence ng sex at kung paano gawin ‘yon. How can she effin get into bed with him?
“D, do you want anything?” Dark asked me.”
“Uh… nothing. I’m cool.”
“I’ll just pick out something when we get hungry. We’ll leave you here.”
“Okie.” (^u^)b
Dumaan kami sa back door sa may kusina. It showed a nice garden na may duyan na nakakabit sa magkabilaang bahagi ng dalawang pine tree. Agad akong pumunta do’n at naupo. Kainggit. His mansion just has this atmosphere of being fresh and homey. Not unlike the Crescent mansion. It’s just stylish and elegant and beautiful. But I still love it nonetheless.
“D… what are we now?”
Napatingin ako sa kanya. Naupo siya sa tabi ko and then leaned back down. It made the hammock swing back and then forth. Nahiga na rin ako. Instantly, he brought me to rest on his chest. He held my hand and played with it, wanting to distract himself from the dreading question.
“I want to know a lot of things, Dark. I still can’t understand a lot of things.”
“I can answer.” He simply said, trying hard to hide the fact that he’s nervous.
“Did you ever… had any other girls while in a relationship with me?”
I felt his held on my hand tightening. “I… I can explain, right, Dream?”
“Answer me. Did you ever, Dark?”
“Yes.”
“Why then? I asked you to broke up with me if you’re not being faithful. Bakit kailangan mo’kong lokohin? Bakit kailangan mo’kong pagmukhaing tanga sa harapan ng maraming tao? Bakit kailangan mong gawin ‘yon habang pinapaniwala ko ang sarili kong hindi mo’ko sasaktan? Ano bang ginawa kong mali sa’yo, Dark?”
His breath hitched. He turned to hug me. He buried his face into my neck and hugged me tightly. “Wala kang ginawang mali. Ako ‘yon. Natakot ako. Natatakot pa rin ako hanggang ngayon. Dream, sinasamba kita. Alam mo ‘yon. Natatakot ako sa nararamdaman ko dahil habang tumatagal, nare-realize kong mas mahal na kita kesa sa sarili ko. Na kahit ano kaya kong ibigay sa’yo at natatakot ako na baka kapag iniwanan mo’ko… na baka kapag nagsawa ka na’t iwanan ako, hindi ko na kakayaning mabuhay. Ayokong sirain ang buhay ko dahil sa isang babae. Ayokong masira mo’ko kaya pilit kong inaalis ang pakiramdam na ‘yon. Gusto kitang tanggalin sa puso’t isipan ko pero kahit anong gawin ko… sa’yo pa rin ako bumabalik. I’m sorry I was frightened. I’m sorry I cheated and I made a lousy excuse for that. You can do… whatever you want with me but just don’t… d-don’t leave me. Please, Dream… don’t.”
I sighed. Tao lang rin naman ako. Tao lang rin naman si Dark. Tanga ba akong matatawag kung patatawarin ko siya dahil natakot lang siya sa sarili niyang nararamdaman? Ako rin naman ah. Minsan natatakot rin ako. Pero iba kay Dark.
He gave everything to me without me asking for it. Kung tutuusin, I had him wrapped up in the palm of my hand before. Kayang-kaya ko siyang paikutin. But I never did that. I love him too much to do that. But he still gave the world to me. He did it when I didn’t want him to. He always wanted what’s best for me. He always wanted things that makes me so happy.
Though I never cared about things that he gives me. Siya lang kuntento na ako. Siya lang okay na lahat. Siya lang ang kailangan ko. Hiniling kong bumalik siya no’n pero hindi siya nakabalik dahil sa kanila. Dahil inilayo nila si Dark sa akin. Dahil ayaw nila kaming magkita.
They did it, not him. They were the reason that we both suffered for years. It’s not Dark.
“Are you still scared?”
He nodded. “Very. You know…” nag-angat siya ng mukha and automatically, I noticed the tears. But he is smiling, though sadly, he still smiled. “You know, baby D… I love seeing you. When everything around me stumbled upside down, when they all turn their backs at me because they thought I was the one who hurt Katherine… everytime I come home from where Katherine was and I see you, everything just… they just vanish. All I wanted that moment was to hug you and kiss you and… and tell you how much I love you. But you’re asking for release. You’re asking for me to let you go and I couldn’t… I couldn’t do that. I’m so sorry that I can’t. I’m so sorry that I was so selfish and it hurts that I just…”
He gave up fighting the urge of sobbing and he hugged me again. Para akong sinaksak sa puso. It was no one’s fault Katherine was hospitalized but that… that idiot who wanted to kill her. But it was entirely my fault that Dark suffered under these circumstances. Kung sana nanahimik na lang ako at hinayaan siyang gumawa ng paraan.
I didn’t trusted him before. Afterall that he’s done for me, I doubted his love. I crushed him to pieces, I broke his heart a thousand times. I’m still breaking it up to now.
“Why didn’t you tell me, D? You should’ve told me this, I should’ve listened. Why were you such an idiot that all you wanted to do is hide things from me and solve it yourself? I could’ve helped you. I could’ve make things easier for us. Why didn’t you tell me?”
Ramdam ko siyang umiiling then he chuckled lifelessly. “I would’ve took the sin if I can, baby D. But there was the damn CCTV. There were eye witnesses to tell that I’m not in the room when it happened. I would’ve catch every little pieces of blame for you. Ayokong mahirapan ka. Nasasaktan ako kasi mas pinahihirapan kita. Ayoko rin namang mawala ka. Gulong-gulo na’ko, Dream. Hindi ko na alam kung anong gagawin ko. I’m sorry. I’m really sorry.”
“You have nothing to be sorry for. While I… I have lots. I’m sorry for hating you. I’m sorry for not trusting you. I’m sorry for not believing in you. I’m sorry for not remembering how you worship me from head to toe. I’m sorry for… for hurting you. I’m sorry for breaking your heart, baby D, I’m sorry for everything. Forgive me?”
Pinahid ko ang mga luhang kumawala mula sa mga mata ko. He pulled away an inch and I saw him smile between tears. I miss him. Oh God, how I miss him. “I’m still hurting, baby D. Make it better?”
I smiled as I nod my head. “Always, for you, Dark. Always.”
His melodic chuckles were the last thing I heard before his soft lips collided against mine. Napangiti ako sa kabila ng sabik ko sa halik niya. Thank God I wasn’t as wild as him. Baka iba na ang pinuntahan nito if we had the equal urge.
“Hey, did I mentioned?” he asked as he pulled away for breath. Umiling lang ako, ngumiti siya. “I love you very much.”
Natawa ako. “Yah, you did. I think I was the one who forgot to mention something. Let me see. Ah. I love you the same, baby D.”
~xxxx-x-x-x-x-xxxx~
“Dreamiiiiiinggggg! Saan ka ba nagpupupunta? Hating-gabi na ah! Bakit di ka pa umuuwi? Nababaliw ka na ba? Asan ka? Asan kaaaaaaaaaaa?”
Hindi ko alam kung saan ako matatawa o kung saan ako magfo-focus. Si Dark kasi halik ng halik sa balikat ko tsaka sa leeg. Tas ‘tong si Yale kung makasigaw lang sa phone akala mo naman pumatay ako ng tao.
“Huminahon ka nga. Aish.” Tinakpan ko ang mouthpiece ng cellphone at hinampas si Dark sa balikat. He laughed silently. “Hush.”
“May kasama ka ba, Dreaming?” @0@
Oh shit. “Wala ah. Bakit?”
“May naririnig ako eeh. Eh teka umuwi ka na oy! Madaling araw na, ano ka ba!”
Pinandilatan ko ng mata si Dark. Nakangisi lang siya. Tsk. Naughty. -___- “Uh… pwede bang bukas ko na lang ipaliwanag sa’yo kung bakit hindi ako makaka—”
“Hindi pwede! Umuwi ka! Sasakalin kita kapag hindi ka umuwi. Nag-aalala na’ko sa’yo ah! Nasaan ka ba kasi? Susunduin kita. Dali, asan ka?”
Tinakpan ko ulit ang mouthpiece at bumaling kay Dark para bumulong. “I think we need to go talk to Yale, baby D.”
“Why?” he whispered back.
“She knows things but not the entire of it. But I still think it’s better if we let her know. Tsaka nabibingi na’ko sa sigaw niya eh.”
Nag-chuckle siya bago tumango. “Okay then. Kunin na rin natin ang mga gamit mo do’n. A’rayt?”
I smiled and nod my head. Tumayo ako mula sa lap niya para makaalis na rin siya sa upuan at makapaghanda. Bumalik ako sa pakikipag-usap kay Yale na mukhang mas naging doble ang panic ngayon. “May kasama ka noh? Dreaming, sino ‘yan?”
Naku, lagot. “Paano mo ba nasasabing may kasama ako?”
“May narinig akong tumawa.” At ang gagong Dark, mukhang nananadya pa. Tumawa ba naman. =___= “Oh! May kasama ka! Humaygash, sino ‘yan?”
“Pupunta ako d’yan, Yale. Hintayin mo’ko. Magpapaliwanag ako.”
“May lalaki ka, Dreaming! Salawahan ka! TT^TT Ayhetyu! TT0TT Sinong lalaki mo? Sabihin mo sa’kin, sino ‘yaaaaaan!”
“Oo na nga eh, sasabihin ko mamaya okay? Ibaba mo na ‘tong phone mo, papunta kami d’yan este ako pala.” XD
“Walangya ka.” TT____TT
Ako na ang pumutol ng tawag. Mukha kasing wala siyang balak eh. Tumatawa pa rin si Dark nang balingan ko siya. “Sira ulo ka. You’re not gonna be the one who’ll face Yale’s wrath about this whole thing. Why do you have to put me in deep shit?”
“Oh come on, baby D. Trust me, your cousin’s going to take that lightly. She’s a fangirl I heard.”
Kaya nga sa akin mas magagalit ‘yon. Abswelto siya. =____=
Mga ilang minuto lang ang itinagal ng byahe papunta sa bahay ni Yale. Hating-gabi na kasi kaya walang masyadong sasakyan. Ang sarap pati langhapin ang simoy ng hangin kapag madaling araw. Malamig. >__<
“Baby D.”
Isinarado ko ang bintana ng kotse at bumaling kay Dark. “Yap?”
“Sa akin ka… titira di ba? I mean… you’ll be with me from now on right?”
Ngumiti ako saka tumango. “I know, baby D. I’ll be with you don’t worry.”
Nakita ko siyang ngumiti bago kunin ang kamay ko at dalhin iyon sa labi niya para halikan. Maya-maya lang ay nasa tapat na kami ng bahay ni Yale. Oh damn. Here we go. Sana naman hindi tumagal ang sermon niya ng hanggang umaga. I’ll be damned. TT___TT
Pumasok kami sa loob. Automatic na bumungad ang hindi mapigil na bunganga ni Yale. “Dreaaamiiiingggg! Alam mo ba kung anong oras na? Nag-alala pa naman ako sa’yo kanina kasi hindi ka man lang nag-text o tumawag! Ilang beses akong nag-text sa’yo hindi ka nagre-reply! Hindi ka rin sumasagot sa tawag ko! Saan ka ba nag… 0_____0 Oh my ghassshhhh!”
Napalingon ako. Nakatayo si Dark sa likuran ko na halatang nagpipigil ng ngiti. Nakakainis naman. Ba’t kasi ang hilig ni Yale sa mga gwapong lalaki? -___-
“D-D-D-Dark-Dark… Dark Lockhart! Oh my gosh!” <(0o0)>
Oh your gosh. =___=
“Hi.” Nakangiting bati ni Dark. Ayan, hinimatay na ang gaga.
Biglang tumawa si Dark. Nailing lang ako. “Hoy, Yale, tumayo ka na nga d’yan. -___- Para kang tanga. Huy, Yale. Letse naman.” -____-