Loud knocks make Off wake him up from his sleep. He looks at the clock on his bed side table and it's almost 2:00 pm in the afternoon, did he just sleep that long?
His head is aching like crazy and he doesn't know why, What happened last night? The memories from last night comes rushing to Off's head ‘ right, last night ’
He got up from his bed still on his clothes that he wear last night, he didn't even budge his self to took some shower. His hair is all over the place so as his clothes, he really look like a mess.
“ Ai'Off are you still sleeping?! ” he almost forgot the person who is knocking, he lazily open the door of his condo to see his manager with an irritated face, Off just wai at him and leave him at the front door as he grab some cold water from his fridge. His manager just sigh on how he acts, he has a schedule for today and he's still not ready
“ Off don't you remember that you need to meet P'Tha for today? ” Off just look at him then eventually shook his head saying he didn't forget it, he gulps the water from his mouth before hiw answer “ I just woke up late-- ”
“ VERY late ” his manager corrected him, and Off just obliged on what his manager said he's still not in the mood after last night. If he can just lock his self inside his room? He will do it but he knows he have a responsibility and he's not a kid to act immature and doesn't think the people working around him.
“ here's your phone ” His manager place his phone on the table “ the director gave that to me earlier when he saw me. Fixed yourself already we need to go now, P'Tha will be there soon so you need to hurry up. I'll just wait at the parking lot ” Off just nod at him, he knows there's something wrong about Off especially seeing him acting like this, there's clearly something bothering him, but he thinks that he's not the right person to ask or invade Off's privacy even though he is Off's manager.
He doesn't want to meddle with the things that Off didn't really tell him, but he's really worried because one day Off is happy and loud then the other day he becomes a lifeless dog
“ are you okay? ” he can't help but ask coz he is still not in his usual state. Off just nod again. He just sigh maybe he will tell if he's ready to share
“ okay I'll go now, just be quick ” with that his manager left him. He is sitting on the sofa looking at the glass that he used to drink water. Off release a deep sigh he doesn't know if he can function well today, he's afraid that his thoughts will float around in front of P'Tha and that will be such a disrespectful act of him.
P'Tha is his boss and the least he wants to do with him is disrespect him. Aside from Gun, P'Tha is the one who encouraged him to continue show business during those times like he really wanted to give up
2nd day of the shooting of Puppy Honey and Off still not used to act in front of Gun, and what really irritates him is the boy nailed every scene he was in. Gun is clearly an experienced actor and Off is really jealous seeing the director and his other co-stars praised on how the fuck he is good at acting.
He knows that this is not a competition but seeing those people saying some good comments to Gun and then looked at him like he was some sort of dirt that Gun needs to bring in order for this shoot to work for the both of them.
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For the 3rd take he's not in the scene, he just walk out of the place and of course people won't notice him because they're too busy to take the parts of the lead actors scene.
He was walking and he didn't notice that he's been walking too much he reach the cafeteria of the university. He sits on one of the chair inside and drop his script. He's tired he wants to quit already. He wants to tell to everyone that he wants to quit so they just can find a better actor to replace him
“ I'm sure they'll celebrate if I quit this series tsk! ” Off talked to his self, he looks at the food that is sold inside the cafeteria and his stomach just make a grumble sounds.
The crew provide them a lot of foods but because he doesn't want to interact to the people on the set he gets his food last and he only gets a small portion every time when it's his turn to take some food.
“ what are you doing here? ” a mild voice of a man speak beside him and when he look to the person beside him and know who is it, his eyes grew bigger. It's P'Tha
P'Tha is the CEO of GMM and the one who gave him this role. He immediately stand up and give a wai to his boss
“ Sawadee krap P'Tha ” P'Tha just smile at him and sit on the chair in front of him
“ Sawadee krap ,what are you doing here? The other actors are busy shooting there ” Off let out a nervous laugh as he slowly sits on the chair he was sitting on earlier. He shouldn't have leave the set if he knew P'Tha will come to pay a visit
“ ao, well P' it's not my scene so I decide to just walk around ” P'Tha just nod at him and after that, a moment of silence surrounded the both of them. Off feel awkward and embarrassed at the same time.
He remember what he was thinking earlier he knows it's rude if he will say this especially in front of P'Tha but he wants to be honest with him and he knows if he'll be replaced with another actor ,the series will turn out much better
“ uh P'Tha ” The man just look at him like expecting him to say something so he just continue what he's about to say “ I want to back out for this series ” he take a big breath after he said that, he didn't dare to look at the man coz he feel so embarrassed , ashamed that he still have the guts to back out to this job even though he's the first one who ask for it, but when he look at him the man is staring at him he didn't know if he's mad or not because Off can't read P'Thas's expression and that makes Off become more anxious than ever
“ I thought you wanted this job? ” P'Tha said after a long silence between them, Off can't hide the disappointment on his face and P'Tha can clearly see it
“ I know P', but... I think this is not for me. Gun is a great actor and he needs an actor that has the same level as him ”
“ so you think you're not good enough? ” Off just nod
P'Tha smile at him that makes Off a little confused “ I choose you not because you badly need a job, I choose you because I know you have a lot of potential that you didn't show us yet. And if you're telling me that you are not the right one for this role maybe that simply means the potential I saw in you is already gone. Where did it go? ”
Off doesn't understand what he is saying but hearing from his boss that he saw some potential in him makes him feel like he is special at least in P'Tha's eyes
“ look, don't believe to those people who only see your flaws. Just believe to those people who see your flaws but at the same time see the potential in you and the efforts you do ”
Off can't believe what just P'Tha said, he barely know his boss he only see him inside his office busy with his paper works but he didn't know that P'Tha is watching them even though most of the time he spent his time inside his office, he sometimes go out and check his artists just like what he is doing today but he didn't know he would be this understanding
“ I think your friend is looking for you ” P'Tha said pointing from his back when he look at it, he saw a familiar figure running, approaching him. It's Gun.
“ I have to go now, I have some errands to do and about you, quitting the series? Think about that I don't want you to regret it someday just because you listen to others not to yourself ”
And with that P'Tha already leaves him, he doesn't know what he will choose now after hearing P'Thas's advice for him
“ P'Off!!! ” he rolled his eyes after hearing that voice soon enough Gun is beside him
“ what are you doing here-- aww! Food! Let's eat P'Off I'm still hungry! ” Gun drag him to the food stalls and look at the food he wants
“ but didn't you just eat a 2 batch of food? ” Off can't believe how hungry this boy is
“ yes, but I didn't finish all of that maybe 1/4 of it? ” Gun said remembering what he ate earlier
“ then you could've just get a 1 set! ” Off scolded him but Gun just laugh at him and continue choosing for food “ I thought I can eat it all sorry ” Gun laugh and Off can just rolled his eyes at him
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After the success of their series the crew held a small party even though he's not used to this kind of things he come because Gun insisted that he should join that's why he's sitting now with the boy
“ papii you should eat! ” Gun said as he puts some pork on his plate
Off groan, he is still not comfortable to Gun being caring and all “ I know I know, I'll do it no need to put that on mine ” but he still eats the food that Gun put on his plate
“ P'Tha sawadee kha/krap ” Off heard the others and when he look up he saw P'Tha sitting on the chair in front of him smiling at everyone until his eyes settle on him. He can't look at P'Tha's eyes, he's still ashamed with their last interaction.
“ I see, you listen to the people who believes you, congratulations ” P'Tha said to him he look at P'Tha's face smiling at him and he can't help but smile too
“ thank you P' ” the man just smile at him. He didn't have the chance that night to talk more with P'Tha because the director and other staff started chatting with him and he needs to leave early too although he didn't get a chance to talk that much to him he knows P'Tha is proud of him
After remembering those times, Off stand and starts to get ready, yeah maybe he's down but he shouldn't let P'The see him like this. He picked his usual hawaiian shirt and a jeans and any shoes he can grab inside his drawer.
He was about to leave when his eyes saw his phone, should he bring it or not? But he'll be back after their meeting so he decided to just leave his phone.
He saw his manager inside the car, he just knock from the mirror to tell that he is already there. He's manager remove the lock of the car and Off immediately hopped in.
“ come on ” he said to his manager while looking at the rear view mirror looking at his reflection , but he feels like someone is staring at him when he looks at his manager it was him
Off heaved a sigh before looking at his manager “ what? ”
The man just shrugg his shoulder to him “ nothing ” then he starts the engine then drive him to GMM. Off didn't pay attention on how his manager acts because most of the time he didn't really understand what's on his head. Throughout the whole ride to GMM Off is silent, memories from last night starts to haunt him again. Gun's face and how he is so happy with the girl. That girl.
Actually, Off didn't see her face clearly but he already knows that the girl is beautiful. She was wearing a flowy white dress and her hair is tied up in a clean bun ‘ so that is Gun's taste for girls ’ it's not bad really, but he's not ready to face the girl that night, so he really needs to leave. He can't afford to cry in front of Gun if he will introduce him to her, he was so sure that he'll act before he thinks. Friendship is the only thing that binds them together he doesn't want to loose even that, maybe he can meet her when the time he already accept to his self that Gun is not for him, that he can smile while saying it, but for now he can't. He doesn't know when he can do those things but for now he'll just keep his cool and pretend that he didn't see anything.
“ so how many more minutes do we need to stay here? ” His manager asked out of the blue. That's when Off realize that they already arrive at the agency and now they're in the parking lot
“ I'm sorry P' let's go ” His manager just shook his head because of how weird Off is today.
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In the meeting room with P'Tha they just talk some things about his schedule and all, nothing's really serious he's right when he thought they're just be quick with this
“ so meeting adjourned oh wait Off ” Off was about to stand up when P'Tha called his attention
“ yes P'? ” he asks as he fixed his clothes
“ you'll be starring in a series again ” P'Tha said to him while fixing the paper that is infront of him.
Off can just smile at the good news but at the same time he's worried because he's still shooting for a series if both series will shoot at the same time he doesn't know if his body can stand it. Seems like P'Tha can read his mind maybe because of his expression
“ don't worry that will be air for next year and by the time the shoot will start? Your shooting for your series this month is done ” upon hearing that Off felt relieved knowing that he can still give the work that is needed without sacrificing his precious sleep
“ Oh you'll be pair with our new actress okay? ”
“ uhm new actress P'? ” Off didn't know that the agency hired another actress maybe he's too busy he didn't have some time to ask to other staff or P'Godji
“ yes, her name is Mild ” Mild? Don't tell me it's her ex Mild? But there's a lot of Mild in Thailand
“ her full name is Lapassalan ” Off got startled hearing the girl's name ‘ there's a lot of girl named Lapasslan in Thailand maybe it's another girl ’ Off convince his self. It'll be awkward if he would be working with her ex- girlfriend although they're okay with each other but still it's awkward for him
“ oh okay P' I'll leave first thank you again ” he gives a wai then he leaves P'Tha's office he was about to enter the elevator when someone called him
“ Off! P'Off! ” when he starts to look for the person who was calling him, his eyes almost drop when he saw who is it. It's Mild! Fuck!
“ I knew that it was you when I saw you! ” Mild said to her soon as she comes closer
“ you're going down? Can I join? ” Mild asked him politely he just nods and they enter the elevator together
It's a bit awkward for him, but when he looks at Mild, the girl doesn't seem to care that they are the only people inside the elevator. So why he need to be so tense when this girl beside him doesn't even care about his presence. He should act normal.
“ so P' long time no see ” Mild talk first, Off want to laugh the way Mild call him it's weird hearing her calling him P'
“ what?! ” Mild saw him about to laugh so she gets annoyed, she thought that Off is laughing at her because of how she look but she doesn't look bad tho, still in her usual outfits
“ nothing it's just weird that you call me P' because before you always call me as ‘ Ai' Off! ’ ” Off said also imitating her voice
“ oi! Don't tease me! I need to call you that because where not a lover's anymore okay? Although it really creeps me out ” Mild said looking like she really is uncomfortable calling him P'Off
“ I need to get to used to it now, P'Off? Eew! ” Mild said as if she said something sinful. Off can't help but laugh on how Mild acts, she really can't stand calling him P'Off
“ oh by the way P'Off you're my first partner in my first series, you should give your best okay I want my first series to be perfect! ” Mild is making some weird gestures that make Off laugh, this girl became weird when they broke up or she's just naturally weird maybe he just didn't really pay too much attention before because whatever Mild do is perfect for him
“ aow ” Mild stop babbling some things and look at him like she remember something
“ what? ”
“ would P'Gun be jealous if he knew that you're going to be paired with your ex- girlfriend... ” Off smile slowly fades when he heard what Mild said “ I mean is he okay with it? P'Off? ”
Mild notice the sudden change on Off's mood that's why she called his attention. Did she say something wrong? Or Off didn't want her to meddle with his relationship with Gun. Mild was about to say sorry when the elevator door open revealing a cute Gun Atthaphan.
“ Papii!-- ”
She was about to greet Gun but Off starts to speak
“ Mild do you mind to have some coffee? We need to have some catch up to do ” Off smile at him. She doesn't know what's wrong but seeing Off smile in front of her, she can definitely sense something is wrong. When he look at Gun the boy is looking at him with sad eyes but in just a split second it is now covered with a happy smile, she doesn't know if you can possibly change your expression within a second but she clearly see Gun did it. She was about to say something when Off holds her hand ‘ what's going on? ’
“ come on, the coffee shop will close because of how slow you are ” They passed through Gun like Off didn't see him, Mild knows that Gun is small but you can clearly see him because of how he dress and she clearly hear that Gun called him
“ Papii! ” Gun calls Off again and this time louder, Off can't just ignore that so he look back at Gun
“ oi! Gun! I didn't see you there, sawadee ” Off fake a laugh, he saw Gun but he choose to ignore him he can't face him right now
“ where are you going? Can I come? ” Gun ask he can clearly see the expecting eyes of Gun ,but no. Not now
“ Don't you have some work today? ”
“ I can- ”
“ maybe some other time okay? Come on Mild ” he drag Mild out of the building.
He walks fast, he wanted to leave the building soon as possible he doesn't want to see Gun's face for today. When he knows that their already far from the building he slowly starts to walk slowly. He remember Gun's face when he decline the boys request of joining them ‘ was he hurt? Is that hurt that I saw in his eyes earlier? ’ he doesn't know and he also don't want to know, he don't want to make things complicated and give hope to his self. Gun already has a girlfriend the reason he looks like that earlier is because he just said no, there's nothing more
He suddenly feels his hands empty and when he's about to look at it Mild is in front of him. Brows furrowed and arms crossed on her chest
“ uh? What was that? Why the fuck you ignore P'Gun earlier? ” Mild ask him with a raise brow
“ nothing ” he starts to walk passed Mild, where is he going? He doesn't know, maybe he'll just go home
“ come on ” Mild said walking beside him, he looks at the girl confused “ where are we going? ”
Mild just rolled her eyes on him, he almost forgot that his ex- girlfriend is a sassy girl too “ didn't you say we have some catching up to do? Hurry up and you better tell me ALL ” Mild said before walking passed at him. Off sighed why did he bring this girl again?
“ Ai'Off! Quick! The coffee shop will close because of how slow you are ” Mild said that is already ahead of him, he can just shook his head. Oh God this will be a long talk
“ Ai' Off! ”
“ coming! Just wait okay? ”