Control Christian Hall... cling to every control you have.
"I missed you, Ian..." she says softly
"Merry, you are drunk" I say, focusing on her brown eyes. I command my hands to stay on my side without touching her.
"But I miss you inside me Ian. I miss you kissed my body like you worship it" her eyes glassy. Goddamn it! My dick is so hard right now.
"Merry, I miss you too, but--"
"but you don't want me?" she asks.
"I want." I touch my forehead to her. "I want to make love to you so badly, Merry. But I promised you I will prove it to you that I love you, it's not just about the sex"
"then love me, make love to me" she says and she pulls me softly.
Before our lips touch, Merry pulls back, her face pale. Shit! I lift her to the toilet, we barely make it to the toilet she pukes all over me.
After she's done I help her to the sink. She washes her face and mouth, I take off my shirt and jeans and wipe my body using the towel in her toilet.
"God, Ian I'm sorry" she says covering her face.
"It's okay Mer. Come on" I take her hand and take her to the bed. I take the water bottle for her. "drink" this time she does it without any question. I give her Advil. I put it earlier in her purse. She eats it without question as well.
I go to the cupboard and take out her hoodie. I know she always brings a hoodie with her. I help her to wear it so she is more decent now.
"sleep, Merry"
She nods. I help her lay down on the bed. "you okay?" I pull the blanket.
She nods. "Sorry Ian, I make a mess" she covers her face with the bedcover
I chuckle "it's okay" I kiss her forehead. "sleep" I say softly to her. She nods and closes her eyes. In a few seconds her breath is getting steady. The sleep already claimed her.
I go to the toilet to clean up the mess. I take my shirt and jeans in my hand, wearing a robe from the toilet. I look at Merry for a while, like a creepy stalker. I miss her peaceful sleeping face. And I miss sleeping with her, not just by her side but with her. Make love to her, worship her. But I promise her and myself that I wouldn't do that until she believes me. I kiss her head "goodnight Merry, I love you. I love you so much, baby." She doesn't even stir. I chuckle and leave her.
***
I go back to my room and unlock the connecting door. At least I will know if something happened to her.
I sit down on the couch. Madeline is right... I should have listened to her. Merry heard Camilia's voice and misunderstood that as another woman. Damn it!
I was in my mom's cherry blossom grove to pick Camilia. She was hiding there. The men Hudson paid to find her couldn't touch her there. But there is no way she will leave there and not go anywhere.
I asked her to pack her stuff. She kept whining and whining..
"I'm not going anywhere Christian"
"You choose Cam! You stay here for the rest of your life, with Hudson waiting for you to come out. Or you want to start fresh somewhere. Leave the States, try to earn your own money, live your life. I don't have forever for you. If you are not coming with me now then I'll go. I'm not going to babysit you. Remember what you did to Madeline. She is my family now since Ethan is going to marry her soon. I do this for your dad. Once and for all. After this you walk your way, and I walk my way.
Her eyes glassy and she started to pack hastily.
I called the pilot to get ready. After I hung up the phone, Merry called me. I picked the phone. At the same time Cam came back to me to ask where I'm going to take her.
My phone died before I could answer Merry, I hadn't charged it since the morning. I was planning to tell Merry after I came back from the airport. But it was 2 in the morning and she had to go back to the scene in the morning. So I decided to wait until after she finished with her scene.
I came to the scene late, I already told Hitchcock about my problem. When I came, Merry was already done with her scene and came back to her apartment. She told Hitchcock that she was tired and needed some sleep.
I was stuck on the set with Hitchcock, because he taught me about the directing skill that day. When I came back home it was already night. I thought tomorrow we will be in the same plane to fly to here. So I let her sleep.
In the morning I got a call from Jack. He found out about Mya and Hudson. So I went to meet him, later that day I called Bea, and we confronted Mya and Hudson. Hudson will stay away from Merry's life for good. As for Mya, she is smart enough to not fuck with us anymore.
It took me a few days to finish all the things with Mya and Hudson.
I was planning to go straight to Paris once I'm done, but Madeline called me and said that Helen is in the town and would be happy to see me. So I went to Ethan's house and had dinner with my family.
I told them about Merry. They knew I was helping Camilia escape from Hudson. I sent her to Mexico with some money that hopefully will be enough for her to live low key in more than 3 months. She should start to find her job if she wants to stay alive.
"Wait C! You haven't talked to Merry since then?" Madeline looked scandalized.
"I was so busy Mads. I told you already" I said
"Christian Hall... God you are as stupid as Ethan!" she said and Ethan complained.
"I'm not anymore, sweetness! It's just Christian now" Ethan said. I looked at them.
"Seriously you two are going to lovey dovey in front of me now? I said in disbelief.
Madeline looked at me "Jeez, Christian. Right now, Meredith must be thinking that you already with another woman"
"No, I'm not" I said defensively, And Madeline narrowed her eyes at me like she was ready to eat me. She hadn't stopped munching her food since I arrived, by the way..
Ethan caressed her hand "let me talk to him, sweetness"
She nodded and went to the kitchen "I'm going to help grandma" she said. Madeline started to call Helen as grandma since she engaged with Ethan.
Ethan poured me a vodka, his favourite. "drink" he said and I did.
"Christian. Women's brains are not as simple as you think" he said and he looked to make sure his fiance was already far from the dining room. "We think 1 step, they think 3 steps. By now, Meredith must be thinking that you already with another woman, plus you haven't seen her since that day, I'm sure by now she thinks that you already forget about her and go with your latest pry"
"I don't have any latest pry. It was her and always her. And it's not a pry. I'm not an animal."
Ethan exhaled. "Listen cuz! I'm here to help you with your fucked up love life. So please shut up and listen to me. All you have to do now is go to Paris and demand to talk with her. Force her to talk with you and spill everything."
"I want to but earlier your fiance called me said grandma is here"
Ethan gave me a look. "You are lucky you are here today. We are here to help you."
"You need magic words Christian" Madeline came back with a basket of bread. I swear she stole the bread when she walked back here.
"I know!" I smirk. "I love you, right"
"I love you, my ass" Madeline said while giving me her superior look, and Ethan chuckled.
What the hell?
"Say that and I'm sure she will try to run away from you" Madeline said dryly
"Jeez Mads!"
"The magic words is..." she cleared her throat and tried to lower her voice like me "Merry, I swear to God I didn't do anything, you are the only woman I touched after we slept together, and it will always be you. No other woman Merry. Please, trust me". It's good she never tried in Hollywood...
Ethan nodded and agreed with his fiance. My cousin, the pussy whipped.
I shook my head "Stop Mads" I laughed.
Madeline pouted and looked at Ethan "your cousin doesn't believe me"
"He is stupid baby, let him be" he pulled Madeline to sit on his lap and kissed her. Yes, they were kissing in front of me, and from here I could see Ethan squeeze Madeline's ass.
Let me introduce you to my family, Ethan and Madeline... sometimes (maybe most of the time) they don't know when they should stop kissing each other. It's like they live in their own world.
Helen came in with another plate of food. "ignore them, Christian" she laughed. I stood up and helped her while Ethan and Madeline pulled from each other and shared a secret smile. Madeline wiped Ethan's lips while Ethan's eyes only looked at her.
"How come you stay here with them, grandma?" I joked, but faked the frown.
Madeline hissed at me. We are getting very close, she is grown like a sister to me. And I'm glad Ethan and her found their happily ever after in each other.
Helen laughed "I missed their lovey dovey in Julian Town. And Mads kept calling me saying she craves for my food. What can I say?"
Ethan chuckled, while Madeline came to hug Helen. "You are the best, grandma"
"Spoiled!" I shook my head but I could feel my lips twitch up.