All of the boys I tried to love after you, they were just distractions.
They were just my shield. A reassurance whose sole job is to remind me everyday that I don't love you anymore. But, the walls are down now, and I have no more room to hide.
I thought that by showing you I can love someone else, I can finally win this battle. I can finally tell myself that I got over you, and that I deserve someone better. But, we all know that I'm just lying to myself.
So, here I am admitting that I still love you. But, here I am also realising that we are never meant to be, and that is why I should learn to love myself before I try to love someone new.
I will get over you, and I will love myself like I have never loved anyone in this world. I will show myself, not you, that I can do this. I will prove to myself that I am strong enough to get through this, and I don't need a man to act as my shield and reassure me that I'm over you. I can do it. I will get over you. I will love myself. So, watch me.