I've been feeling really low of myself lately. My job isn't making me feel any better. I have self hatred building in me and bursting like a volcano. I feel myself is nothing of value and I feel like I'm just being treated as numbers ever since I was little. My grades had to be high, too much money was being spent on me because of hospitals and therapists, then when I got a job I needed to bring money in for my father. I'm trying hard not to fall into self harming habits again but it's so hard.
Thank you my faithful readers for treating me like a human and enjoying my writing when it was one of the only things I am good at. Thank you for being understanding when I disappeared so much and thank you for not throwing me to side because I wasn't good enough.