i find it funny how
you
are beginning to fade.
not in the sense that i care for you or love you any less.
because thats not true.
more in the sense that im starting to do more things for me,
and less for you.
im looking for a job.
im doing summer school.
dressing up cute and doing my makeup even though im going nowhere.
because i want to.
i will live for me from now on.
i will live a happy life.
no matter how long it takes.
being miserable has not worked for me so far.
so its time for a change of pace.
even so,
i cant wait for you to come back and enhance my adventures just a little more.