*Warning* Might be a little sensitive for some
"IM WHAT"
"You're is his daughter and....."
"And what," Sam says
"You have a sister"
"Your mom didn't want to tell you she said that not telling you would protect both of you"
I clear my throat "Um...I think I just..." I look at my brothers as I stand up and Noah nods his head "yea" and walk out of the dining room
"Bell wait.." I hear Lucas say
"No give her some time," Mason says
I walk up the stairs and to my room and lock the door and just sit on my bed, no words, no movement, just thoughts
I killed my dad just for being born
Did he know I wasn't his
How did Aaron find out
I have a sister
Why did my mom keep her away
All these thoughts no answers. I get up and take a shower, I get out to put my clothes on and go downstairs to the theater room. I put a tape in that says "I will always love you" I sit down and watch
"Hey princess come here," my dad says as I enter our old living room, I run to him and he picks me up and sits me on his lap "No matter what happens, no matter what you do or what you did I will always love you don't you forget that. Ok?"
"So if I throw my shoe at somebody you're still going to love"
He chuckles "yes, even if you throw a shoe at somebody I will still love you with all my heart"
"I love you too"
"ISABELLA COME PICK UP THESE TOYS" my mom yells from upstairs. And the video cuts off
"Hey are you ok"
I turn to see Mason "um.." I smile "hey I'm fine"
"Then why are you crying" I didn't realize I was crying until he said that
"You don't have to act around me"
I did a quick smile "I'm not acting"
"Yes you are, you acting as if what just happen didn't happen and I get it"
"You get what"
"I get that before dad left you were this happy little girl, you were goofy, funny, some would even say a crackhead and then dad left and you turned into this little girl with no humor, with no fun in you all you wanted was to make us proud"
A tear falls down my face "stop"
"Then we left and when we left mom did to...well at least the mom you grew up with"
"Stop"
"Then that when you started questioning your worth asking yourself "is it me, is that why they leave" and at the end of the day mom still left, you stop loving people"
I stand up"EXCEPT IT DIDNT WORK, OK, IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT, it didn't work," I say the last part low as I sit down
"What's going on," Sam says as everybody comes in
"It didn't work, I loved mom and dad so much and they still left, I love you guys so much but y'all still left and now..." I chuckle " and now my sperm donor is the man who killed our dad" I laugh/cry "the man that killed our dad is my sperm donor" I wipe my tears "I was so lost, empty without y'all but now the little bit of hope I had is gone"
"Everybody out now," Sam says as he hugs me, Mason kneels down
"I love you nugget"
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