Chapter Thirty Three
Break up
Bumalik sa dati ang usual routine namin ni Bluhen, it's just that she became more caring to me siguro dahil nakabandage ang isang kamay ko.
And for the past few days na hindi kami nagkikita nagpag isip isip ko, i'ts better if we're not together. I can concentrate more in my work kaya siguro... isa na rin yun na rason kung bakit okay lang sa akin na hindi kami ayos ni Bluhen but Nine and X did something behind my back-- talking to Bluhen.
Ngayon katabi ko si Bluhen habang mahimbing siyang natutulog. I was busy caressing her face when she moved. Is she awake now?
"Bluhen, you need to wake.. you have work." bulong ko sakanya. Nakapikit parin ang mga mata niya pero ngumiti siya. She came closer to me to hug me. "I miss you." she said while kissing my neck.
Lumayo siya sa akin saka niya ako tinitigan. Nakangiti siya pero malungkot lang ako na tumingin sakanya. "Are you okay?" nag aalalang tanong niya sa akin.
"Bluhen." panimula ko sakanya at nahalata niya atang hindi maganda ang sasabihin ko sakanya. "If you're going to talk about break up again. Just don't talk to me." aalis na sana siya pero mabilis ko siyang niyakap. Nag open up kasi ako sakanya kagabi pero nagmamatigas siya. Ayaw niyang makinig sa akin.
"Please hear me out." malungkot na sabi ko sakanya. I tried kissing her lips but she avoided me. "Please, Bluhen." I said begging to her. "We need to break up." seryosong sabi ko.
"Kailangan nating gawin to-- so that I can focus in this mission and fight our enemies because... I'm afraid they're going to use you against me. I can't bear to see you getting hurt because of me. In this mission you're most likely the one they'll use to lure me to go to them." I said in my most sincere voice while looking at her sadly. I don't want that to happen.
"This is not just a battle of your father anymore. They are my enemies now. And the only thing how I can protect you is to stay away from you." seryosong sabi ko sakanya na naiiyak. Oh please... dear God, Keep her safe at all cost. Kahit ako na lang kunin niyo. Huwag lang po siya.
Umiiyak narin siya. I tried to wipe her tears pero lumayo siya. "I hate you. I hate you, Ace." niyakap ko na naman siya. I kissed her forehead.
"Please understand our situation." malungkot na sabi ko sakanya. I cupped her cheeks but she just can't stop crying. "I am so sorry." idinikit ko ang noo naming dalawa at pumikit ako nagulat nalang ako nung idinikit niya ang mga labi namin. We didn't move we we're just feeling each other's lips.
Until she started moving so I responded her kiss and shen she suddenly stop. "I'm sorry for being a burden to you." ngiti niya saka ako umiiling agad agad. No. No. No baby, you will never be a burden to me.
"Let's break up." she tried smiling but I can see her sadness through her eyes. She's not good in pretending, not to me because I know her, I know her smiles and the smile she's giving me right now... just breaks my heart.
"You are not a burden to me. Bluhen, you will never be a burden to me. I'm really sorry because this is the only way I can think of to make you safe. Baby, you know your safety is my priority." seryosong sabi ko sakanya at tumango siya.
"But I have a condition." tinitigan ko siya ng maayos. "One day. Give me this day until we part our ways." seryosong sabi niya sa akin at ako naman ang tumango.
"And always remember that this body..." sabay hawak niya sa katawan ko. "Is mine...you are not allowed to get hurt. I want you to come back to me without any wounds. Please be safe." I didn't say anything but I just kissed her like this is the last time that I can hold her.
I tried roaming my hand in every inch of her body until I reach her clit rubbing my fingers in and out. I can only hear our moans together. "Ace." she tried calling me but I was busy worshipping and feeling amazed while looking at her naked body in front of my eyes.
She's like a drug to me. It's crazy that I'm getting more and more addicted to her.
I hold every part of her body like it's the last time, I kissed every part of her trying to memorize the curves of her body and then I feel like our body was moving for each other until we reach our desires, pleasures and thirsts for each other.
"I love you." I said as I was busy catching my breath. Isinandal ko ang ulo ko sa chest niya. Halos pareho kaming hingal na hingal. "I love you, Ace. Sobra." rinig kong sinabi niya hanggang sa hinila na kami ng antok.
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We spent our day showering together, going to the cinema to watch a movie, shopping for each other and eating a dinner to a fancy restaurant. "It's still... 8pm. Where do you wanna go next?" tanong ko sakanya habang magkahawak kami ng kamay.
"Uh, disneyland." ngiting sabi niya at pinuntahan namin.
Bumili muna kami ng dalawang bear na hat sa labas bago kami pumasok and then we took a picture.
Saka nagpapicture kami sa guard bago kami pataas na papasok sa loob.
Halos sinakyan na yata namin lahat ng rides-- mga roller coaster, carousel na parang pambata, nanood din kami ng parade ng disney characters at yung the nutcracker show.
May magic show pa sa street at nagulat na lang kami nung may hinugot siya sa glass wine niya na dalawang white rose pero iisa lang thorn niya. "Pure love for both of you." sabi niya na ikinangiti naming dalawa.
"Tara sa horror house." hila niya sa akin. "Pwede bang iba na lang? marami pa naman dyan." kabadong sabi ko sakanya na ikinatawa niya. "Are you scared?" mayabang na tanong niya sa akin. "What? No!" sabi ko kahit sa totoo lang sobrang kabado na.
Nakahawak ako sa kanya kahit nasa entrance palang kami hanggang nasa kalagitnaan na kami at may biglang white lady na dumaan. "AHHHHH!!!!! FUCK!!! SHIT!!!! DON'T COME NEAR ME!!!! AHHHH!!!" natatakot kong sigaw habang hinahampas yung white lady.
"Ace, you're hurting her. And stop cussing mas natatakot sayo yung white lady eh." pagsuway sa akin ni Bluhen at hinawakan ang cheeks ko. "Hinga ng malalim." ginaya ko naman siya hanggang kumalma ako.
"Good girl." ngiti niya sa akin ng may nagpakita naman na parang kapre. Sumigaw na naman ako pero bigla niya akong hinalikan. I was shocked. "Do I really need to stop you--- through kissing you whenever you cuss or when you're afraid?" sabi niya sa akin na ikinangiti ko.
"Fuck." I said testing her. Tumingin siya sa akin ng masama. "Do you want me to fuck you here?" diretsong tanong niya na ikinagulat ko at kumindat sakanya. "OHHH!!!! swear baby you look more sexy when you cuss." ngisi ko sakanya at umiling iling siya.
"Ano na?" I said challenging her and she laughed. "Stop it, Ace or I might really do it here." natatawang pananakot niya.
"Hoy lumabas na nga lang kayo puro kayo landian." nagulat na lang ako ng may batang tiyanak na lumabas kaya tumatawa kami ni Bluhen na tumakbo. Nakakahiya at mukhang bata pa ang nakarinig ng hindi magandang usapan namin.
Magkahawak kaming naglalakad. Kahit gabi na madami ang tao. Maliwanag ang paligiran. At maingay rin. We bought a stuff toy. Binili ko yung shitzu, chihuahua at small pitbull na stuff toys. "Oh! gift ko sayo." masama naman siyang tumingin sa akin..
"Really??? these are the things that reminds you of me huh?" seryosong tanong niya sa akin saka pumasok naman siya sa store at may binili. "Monkey at baboy??? Peppa pig?" natatawang tanong ko sakanya. "Wag ka tumawa. Ikaw kaya yan." ngising sabi niya sa akin.
"Ow! so cute talaga." sarcastic na sabi ko at tumawa naman siya. Umupo lang kami sa mga bench habang pinapanood ang mga taong nagsisigawan sa mga rides. "So..." panimula niya.
"Is this the end?" malungkot na tanong niya. "I am sorry." ngumiti siya ng mapait. "Don't be. This is the end--- for now but promise to me you'll be back." seryosong sabi niya sa akin saka ako tumango.
"I promise, I will be back." diretsong sabi ko sakanya na ikinangiti niya. "Then that's enough for me. I will wait for you." sabi niya sa akin. "Thanks for the monkey and peppa pig." sabay tapik sa dalawang stuff toys na nasa gitna namin.
Kitang kita ko sa paligid na paonti onti na rin ang mga tao. Malapit na ang closing time. "Thanks for the 3 dogs." sabay tingin sa tatlong stuff toy na binigay ko sakanya.
"Can I have a favor?" tanong ko sakanya na ikinatingin niya sa akin. "Let's leave together without looking back." sabi ko at huminga naman siya ng malalim. "Right. Let's do it like that." sabay kaming tumayo at kinuha yung mga stuff toys namin.
"See you soon, Ace Fajardo." naiiyak niyang sabi sa akin. "See you, Bluhen Dahlia Ybanez." ngiti ko pero taksil ang mga luha ko at bumagsak sila. Naglakad ako paharap sakanya at ganon din siya paharap sa akin hanggang sa magkalikod na kami.
I tried walking away from her pero ramdam kong pabigat ng pabigat ang mga lakad ko parang hindi ko na mabuhat ang mga paa ko. Halos wala na ring tao sa paligid, kami na lang ata natitira. Ang bilis naman mawala ang mga tao dito.
Bakit ang bilis ng oras?
I keep saying to myself not to look back, to keep walking but I can't.... I turned around and I saw her watching me walking away from her silently crying.
Fuck!
Shit.
I am really sorry. Binitawan ko ang dalawang stuff toys saka tumakbo papalapit sakanya. Niyakap ko siya. "I'm sorry." I said repeating those words to her.
"Mahal kita. Mahal na mahal kita." she said, repeating those words when suddenly--- someone grab me away from her. Pinaghiwalay kami at pareho kaming nagulat sa nangyari.
They were all wearing mask. Shit! Shit!!!!!! hinawakan nila ako at tinakpan ang bunganga ko. I saw Bluhen crying and shouting my name until everything went black.