This chapter's kinda short but honestly I have a lot in store for this book & I can't wait to share it with y'all. This book is about to have y'all on an emotional roller coaster
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RENAE
"I ain't been seeing you in class"Dime said, while I sat across from her at her dining room's table
"That's because I haven't been going to school"I replied, picking at my finger nails
Dime shook her head "See that's why you need to go home, if you were there you'd be at school everyday"
"I can't go home even if I wanted to"
"You still haven't told me why though, I feel like you're over exaggerating"
"I wish I was"I mumbled, it wasn't like thoughts of me going home didn't cross my mind I was definitely afraid of what would happen once I got there I was terrified of the consequences I may have to face the minute I walk through the door.
"Well, I'd rather you home than with Smoke and I'm telling you this cause we friends... Nae, Smoke"Dime hesitated "He ain't all the way there, my brother got a few screws missing,"
I lowly sighed pretty much feeling like everyone was trying to scare me away from Smoke. Smoke was the only person I had, he's been sheltering me and caring for me if I didn't have him I'd probably still be in that house getting my ass whooped. I needed Smoke
"Okay what exactly is wrong with Smoke?"I asked overly anxious
She scoffed "Pfft I don't think I should say too much especially if he hasn't told you himself just pay attention to his ass when he not high, drugs keep him sane"
Her words replayed in my head as I sat up in bed, I was awoken by faint noises and Smokes voice. I couldn't hear him clearly until I climbed out of bed and tip toed to the door
"I ain't wanna do it"His deep voice came "I just-...I just... I did it for you.."Every word he spoke came out as a slur "He's my dad, you think I wanted to do that to my dad?"
I slowly opened the room door and stepped into the living room "Smoke?"I looked around in an attempt to find someone, anyone besides him but there was no one in sight "Who you talking to?"
Finally he planted his eyes on me, he had a bottle of ciroc in his left hand I could just tell that he was drunk. "It's like 2 something in the morning Smoke, come to bed"I inched closer to him
"Can I have that?"I asked, referring to the bottle he had, fortunately he handed it to me and so I grabbed it and placed it on the coffee table. I then grabbed his hand, placed it over my neck and shoulder then pulled him up.
I was used to taking care of Joe and my mom when they were blacked out drunk so this was nothing new to me. I thought being with him would take me away from that kind of environment but he was showing the same signs. Here I was taking care of yet another unstable person
We didn't speak as I helped him lay back on the bed, I lifted his tank top over his head then proceeded to take his Jordan's off of his feet. After doing so I crawled beside him, and shuffled the blanket until it was covering the both of us.
It felt like I had closed my eyes for just a second, the morning sunlight beamed straight through the blinds, I looked over to Smoke's side of the bed although he wasn't there
I decided to take care of myself before going to look around the house for Smoke,
"You feeling okay?"I leaned against the kitchens counter where he was rolling weed in a backwood
"Mhm"He grumbled while licking the blunt
Our relationship seemed to be moving extremely slow. Smoke said that he wasn't boyfriend material, he explained that he wasn't in the right head space to be with me and that if we were meant to be then it'd happen in the future. Since we were having sex I couldn't agree with him, I was growing unbearable feelings for him and I knew that sooner or later those feelings would just turn into love. Love that I'd have to keep buried away until he was ready to commit
It kind of sucked since I'd been around him so much, I was learning so many things about his personality. I learned that he wasn't so much of a goofy person instead he was more so serious and stern although he had overly playful moments.
"I went to get some Waffle House a little while ago, it's in the microwave if you hungry"Smoke stated
I was too caught up in the way he was rolling and licking his blunt to even think about some breakfast
Smoke glared up from the blunt with a smirk "Why you staring at me?"He asked making me shrug "You must like what you see"
"You know I do"
My eyes followed him as he walked out the kitchen, sat on a couch then started smoking.
"Come ova here"His sexy accent seeped right through his words
I swear his demands were like a spell, next thing I knew I was sitting on his lap with my arms wrapped around his neck.
I found it different that I was so comfortable with him. Out of all of my petty high school relationships I never moved as fast as I moved with him. Usually I'd wait to have sex or be affectionate all together but with him I did move a bit quicker.
"Hm"He offered me the blunt and of course I took it,
There was a slight grin plastered across his lips as he watched me hit it.
"That's some za"He mumbled
"Za?"I exhaled
He chuckled at my lack of knowledge "Zaza, exotic"
"Man what?"
"It's good weed that's gone get you fucked up"Smoke explained, what he said totally went over my head because I continued to hit the blunt until I felt overly high.
I could tell that I was high because my eyes felt overly low and suddenly being on top of his slouched body completely turned me on. I had my eyes glued on him while he smoked. I couldn't get over the fact that he was so damn fine I wanted to ride him whenever I got the chance
"You bout to keep starin at me like that or you gone do something?"
It was like he was challenging me "And don't start nothing you can't finish"He added
I definitely was about to start something, just as I headed for his pants zipper the door bell startled the both of us
"Who that?"I questioned, climbing off of his lap allowing him to stand up
"Oh fuck... I forgot my peoples was coming today"He looked around the house, I guess to make sure it was clean enough and then unlocked the door
"Yo fam, the next time I come up here and the lady at the door pat me down like I'm at a airport it's gone be a problem"A male and two females walked in the house being sure to hug Smoke as they did so
"Nae these my cousins, y'all this Nae"Smoke introduced us to one another "Make y'all selves comfortable, we'll be back"He then proceed to walk further in the house with the dude leaving the girls and I in the living room
"Nae right?"A red headed chick called out, I watched her eyes travel from my freshly painted toes all the way up to my face "You actually cute, Smoke been telling us about you. What you live here now?"
"No, I'm just hanging with him for a few days"
The girl adjusted herself on the opposite side of the couch "Sooo, y'all boyfriend and girlfriend?"
"Melissa, why are you interrogating this girl?"The other female chimed in "I'm Kyla, that's my bestfriend Melissa. She's nosy as fuck excuse her"
"I'm just tryna get to know her"Melissa smiled
"Well what you wanna know?"
Melissa didn't hesitate to ask "How you know Dave?"
"Dime introduced us to each other"
"How old are you?"Kyla walked into the kitchen and walked back out peeling a banana
I was aware that Smoke was a few years older than me, I didn't really know how anyone would react to me messing with him because of our age difference "I'm ..18"I watched their facial expressions change from straight to shocked
"Eighte- girl you look grown as hell I would have never thought"Kyla said "You a baby"
"No not really"I mumbled to myself
"So what's it like?"Melissa questioned
"What's what like?"
"The dick, cause I know he been fucking your young ass, and all this.."She looked around the house "He gotta be spoiling you girl"
I stared at her as if she was crazy "You're his cousin and you're asking about his dick?"
"No Kyla is his cousin, I'm not."
I nodded in understanding
"Okay first of all I'm not about to sit here and listen to y'all talk about Smoke's... inappropriate parts. I said let's get to know her why are we talking about Smoke?"Kyla said, sitting between us "So you 18, you from Atlanta?"
"Born and raised"
"You ever been anywhere else? Like Florida"
I shook my head "I've never been outta Georgia before"
"You need to visit Miami, that's where I'm from"
We sat there talking for a good while until Smoke made his way back to where we were.
SMOKE
Nola and I bobbed our heads to a beat he made me. I came to the studio to put a few hours in, I felt like I was slacking since I hadn't been going to sessions as much as I would if I was focused
"I'm fuckin with this"I called out
"It's hard I can hear you on this"
I had Renae sitting right on my lap slouched just enough so that we were both comfortable. I didn't mind her company or the fact that she was so clingy in fact it made me feel a certain way
I wasn't used to having a girl around, I wasn't used to being shown affection. It was like she forced herself on me and I couldn't resist it. She was making me treat her like my girl, to the point where everyone I know, knew of her. I couldn't lie she was growing on me
I rubbed my hand up and down her exposed thigh still keeping my eyes on Nola who was bobbing his head
"You getting started on this today?"
"Yeah imma head back over here after I take Nae home to grab some clothes"I said causing her to kiss her teeth
"Smoke I really don't want to go back over there"She groaned, not bothering to look at me
"So you enjoy rocking my clothes?"
Nae nodded before bursting out a laugh "I really don't mind I'd rather wear your clothes than to go get some of mine"
"Why you don't wanna go back home? Hm.. you ever gone tell me?"I asked as she got up and walked over to the couch behind me making me spin in my chair and face her
"It's a lot Smoke, too much."
"Like? You not telling me shit"
"My mom she's-"Nae stopped "I just..I don't want to make her sound like a bad person because I know her heart"
"She's what?"
"Abusive, she hits me"
Immediately that helped put pieces together. I thought back to the time I saw her all beaten up it was crazy to think that her own mom did it to her
"So your mom-"I stopped myself from speaking before standing up "Let's go"
Without saying anything else I grabbed my keys and proceeded to walk out of the studio's building
"Smoke what are you gonna do?"Nae said as we got in the car
"We bout to get ya stuff"
"Smoke what are you not understanding? We really don't need to go over there"
I turned my volume up enough to tune her out. It didn't take long to pull up to her house
As I was preparing to get out the car she stopped me
"The least you're can do is stay out here"Was the last thing she said before she went inside
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