Chapter 15
We had one more week before we left for tour, and we wanted to go outside and enjoy the warm weather we were having.
We had decided to walk around and go to the park and such, and Jessica had asked me to pick out a cute outfit for her.
I picked out a pair of denim shorts, some flip-flops, and a peach colored tank-top, and her sunglasses, and set them out on Jessica’s bed. I then picked out a hot pink tank-top, dark denim shorts, a pair of flip flops, and my sunglasses for myself. I got changed and told Jessica her clothes were on her bed. I straightened my hair pulled my bangs over to the side and pinned the back.
I grabbed my phone and went into the living room and plopped down on the couch.
I was on Facebook, and I was looking at all the pictures Harry had posted of me and Louis or him and Jessica. They were so cute together. I realized Louis and I were just as cute together. I liked all the photos, and then logged off and started playing Temple Run.
I heard someone walk in, but I didn’t look up, because I was too busy trying not to die. Someone sat next to me on the couch, but I couldn’t tell who it was. I just kept playing my game.
I did eventually look up when I died. I was surprised to see Jessica already done getting ready.
“Hi” she said shyly.
“Hey” I said more enthusiastically.
“Where are we walking today?”
“I’m not really sure. Are those shoes good to walk in?”
“Oh, yeah these are great. Thanks by the way for picking out my outfit!” I smiled at her.
“I forgot to do my makeup! Oh no!” I started to get up but Jessica said
“I’ll do it. Come with me.” I followed her into our bedroom and she sat me at her desk. She applied the make-up and after I looked very stunning.
“Thanks so much! I love it!” I exclaimed and then the boys called us to go.
We walked around for a half hour and then went into Starbucks for something to drink and to sit out of the sun. We all sat at a table near a window and drank what we got. I was playing Temple Run again, and Louis tapped my screen and made me die. I playfully punched him and he pouted and made Jessica, Harry, and myself laugh. As soon as he saw me smile he smiled widely. My laugh just made him laugh harder.
I saw a guy looking at me. I noticed Louis saw him, too, and he seemed to be getting jealous. The guy winked at me and I blushed. I could tell Louis was getting mad, so I grabbed his hand in mine, and squeezed it. I kissed him on the cheek and whispered in his ear “Don’t get jealous or mad, there is no way I would ever leave you for anyone else.” He smiled and kissed me on the lips.
Louis stood up, still holding my hand and said “Harry, Jessica, please excuse us, we will be taking a little walk on our own. We can meet at the park in an hour?”
“Sure, that sounds great.” Harry replied and Louis walked with me out of the door.
I turned around and smiled at Jessica and she returned the smile. I noticed that that guy had left his spot and started following us. I looked away, hoping Louis wouldn’t notice. Louis and I were walking in silence and after a while it got awkward so I broke it by saying “What are the plans for tomorrow?”
“Well, I think Liam wanted us to make a video diary before we left for tour. But that won’t be very long, so other than that I don’t really know.”
“Well, what do you want to do?”
“It’s up to you, love.”
“But I’m not good of thinking up things to do.”
“Neither am I.”
“You are better at it than me.”
“Whatever.” I felt my phone buzz and then Gangnam Style started playing, which only meant that I was getting a call from Louis.
“Louis, why are you calling me?”
“I’m not. At least I don’t think I am.” He took out his phone to check. Sure enough, he had butt-dialed me.
“Nice, Lou, real nice.”
“Ha-ha, I know. Where do you want to walk?”
“I don’t really care, you lead the way.”
“Ok! This way!” I quickly glanced behind me and saw that that guy was still following us. I decided I should tell Louis, because I was getting freaked out.
“Hey, Lou, that guy is like stalking us.” I whispered to him.
“Really?” he looked behind us and saw him. We stopped in our tracks, turned around, and confronted him.
“What the hell is your problem?” Louis asked. I just looked at the guy.
“What do you mean?”
“First you wouldn’t keep your eyes off my girlfriend, now you’re following us.”
“Oh, well I just had to know her name.”
“Look, she isn’t interested in telling you her frigging name.”
“Bro, I’m sorry. I didn’t realize she was with you.”
“Yes, you did! It’s very noticeable!” I said nearly yelling.
“Whatever, I obviously just lost my chance, but whatever, I’ll just go find someone else.”
He walked away and, was I glad! Louis snaked his arm around my waist. I leaned against him and we continued our walk.
“Do you feel better no that he isn’t interested in me anymore?” I asked him.
“Yes, actually, I do.”
“You don’t have to worry about other guys that are attracted to me. It’s not like I’m going to leave you for one of them.”
“But it still worries me that you will.”
“Why is that?”
“Because, I don’t deserve someone as gorgeous or special as you.”
“Yes, you do. Otherwise I wouldn’t be here.”
We stopped walking for a minute, and he pulled me close to him. I turned to look him in the eyes. He saw that I was sincere about what I just said. He leaned down and kissed me. I stood on my tippy toes so he wouldn’t have to strain his back to kiss me, considering he was much taller than me.
I pulled away when I saw cameras flashing. I smiled at him and we started walking to the park.
When we reached the park, we sat on a bench near a fountain. Louis stood up, grabbed my hand and pulled me with him to the fountain. We sat on the rim of it in silence. The good kind, though.
After a while Jessica and Harry arrived and Jessica took out her phone. She took a picture of me and Louis looking into each other’s eyes. She sent it to me and I smiled at her and mouthed ‘thanks’.
Louis then splashed me with water from the fountain. I barely got wet, maybe 3 drops. I got up and ran to hide behind Jessica.
Louis came and grabbed u by the waist he picked you up spun you around and place you gently back on your feet.
You smile and look at your feet, thinking about how you really wanted someone to take a picture of that. Suddenly you hear your phone buzz. It was a picture of Louis spinning you around, sent by Jessica. You hugged her and tapped her nose.
When we got back to Harry and Louis’ flat, we ate dinner and I went on off to bed.
I fell asleep right away, but the next morning when I woke up, I was so tired. I didn’t want to get up, but I didn’t want to sleep all day either. I was so confused.
I decided to take a shower to wake me up. After I got out of the shower, I put on some sweats and an oversized T-shirt. I put on some socks and walked into the living room.
Louis was already sitting on the couch. He was on his phone. I went up to him and sat on his lap.
“Hey.” He said and smiled sweetly.
“Hi.” I said and yawned.
“You look tired.”
“I am, but I don’t know why.”
He shrugged his shoulders and went back to his phone. I put my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes. I must’ve fallen asleep, because when I woke up, I was lying down on the couch, covered up, and Louis wasn’t there anymore.
I got up and kind of looked around. I saw Jessica on her phone in the kitchen on a stool. I went in to join her, and found Harry and Louis in there, too.
“Did you have a nice nap?” Louis asked as he sat across from me.
“Sure. I don’t feel as tired anymore.”
“That’s good.”
I pulled out my phone. It was already 3pm.
“So what are we doing today?” I asked and Harry looked at Louis, who looked at Harry, who turned to look at Jessica, who turned to look at Louis.
I looked at them confused and asked again “So, what are we doing today?”
Louis looked at me and smiled and said “Today, we aren’t doing much. Paul wants to tell you and Jessica about tour. But tonight we do actually have plans.”
“Which are?” I asked really curious.
“Well, we are going out.”
“Where?”
“In to town.”
“Ok, don’t tell me.” I said sarcastically, smiled fakely, and walked out of the kitchen. I went onto the porch and sat on the swing. I sat there to think. I needed to get concentrated on my schoolwork. As soon as tour starts, I will need to get on the ball with my studying. I have to graduate. I will disappoint everyone if I don’t.
I pulled out my phone and pulled up Twitter. There were so many tweets from fans, I couldn’t possibly read them all. I read so many my eyes started to blur. I put my phone back in my pocket, got up from the swing, went into the yard, and laid down on the grass.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I smiled at the sky. I heard the front door open and close. I heard someone walk onto the porch and now they were standing above me, blocking my light.
“You’re blocking my light.” I said opening my eyes to see Jessica standing there.
“Good, now you can get up.”
“What is it now? Or are you not going to tell me this time, too?”
“I’m sorry we didn’t tell you. We just thought you wouldn’t want to do it.”
“What? Do what?”
“Well, the boys are supposed to go to an awards show tonight, and they wanted us to go with them.”
“Wow! Really?!?!?!?!? That’s it?”
“So you want to go?”
“No, I don’t. But I will.”
“Really? That’s great! Thanks so much Emmy!”
“You’re welcome.” I stared at her emotionlessly.
“But why don’t you want to? Don’t you want everyone to see how gorgeous you look in the new dress I bought you?”
“I don’t want to go because of how much hate I’ve been getting on Twitter. You got me a new dress?!?!?!?!”
“Oh, I’m sorry. And yeah of course I did!”
“Thanks so much, Jess. I really do love you!” I gave her a hug as we both laughed.
“No problem, Em. I know you love me! I love me, too! But of course there’s no way I can’t love you.”
We laughed some more and then we got up and went back inside.
Louis smiled at me and I smiled back. I went into mine and Jessica’s room, and she showed me my dress, and then hers.
Mine was blue with a blue sash, and sequins at the top. Jessica’s was purple with a purple sash, and sequins at the top:
I held it up and stared at it. It was absolutely gorgeous.
“Oh, my God, Jessica! I freaking love it! Thank you soooo much!”
“No problem. I just hope it fits.”
“I’m sure it will!”
I went into the bathroom to get changed after Jessica got out. I straightened my hair and did my makeup. I put on a necklace and a bracelet, and put on silver high heels. Jessica was wearing the same shoes. Her hair was curled and she was wearing a necklace and bracelet as well.
We did some finishing touches and went into the kitchen. Harry was in there fixing his bow-tie. When he saw us his jaw dropped.
“Wow, you two look absolutely stunning.”
“Thanks to her.” I said pointing at Jessica.
“Thank you, Harry.” She said and smiled at me.
I smiled back and waited for Louis to come downstairs from his room.
Eventually he did, and he saw me, and he almost fell over.
“Oh. My. God. Emily. You look absolutely gorgeous! And Jessica, you do too.”
“Thank you.” We said at the same time.
“Are we ready? Paul has the van waiting outside.” Harry said. Everyone nodded.
As we walked out the door, Louis put his arm around my waist. He pulled me close and whispered in my ear “You look beautiful. I’m glad I have someone as gorgeous as you.” I looked at the ground, smiled, and blushed.
We got into the van, and I sat in between Louis and Liam. When Liam, Zayn, and Niall saw Jessica and me, their jaws dropped and they were left speechless.
I smiled and just looked at my hands. I knew Louis and Harry were giving them death glares. I felt my phone buzz in my hand bag, so I grabbed it and checked who it was. I looked at my screen and saw that I had 5 messages from Jessica, 2 messages from my mom, and 1 message from Liam.
From Jessica:
You look sexy!
Do you feel as hot as you look?
We need to show off tonight J
Hey are you ok?
You seem flustered L
To Jessica:
Thanks, you look super sexy too! I’m ok, I just don’t really know about this…
After I texted Jessica back I checked my messages from my mom. And it was my real one too.
From mom:
Hey, how are you and Liam doing?
I haven’t heard from you a lot, so just checking in. J
To mom:
Hey, we are great. So sorry haven’t been texting you, we’ve been really quite busy.
I then checked the message from Liam. It was really awkward getting a text message from him since he was usually so forward with me.
From Liam:
Emily, Paul and I were talking, and he said it would be best for Jessica to stay with us the entire tour. He had also said that if you need anything or if there are any problems let him know. I’m really concerned. Right now you seem rather flustered and it worries me.
To Liam:
Okay! Great, I will let Jessica know later on tonight. Tell him I said thank you, please. Don’t worry, Li. I’m fine. I really am. Maybe we can talk later?
I sent the message and put my phone back in my hand bag. I looked up at Louis who was staring at me with worry in his eyes. Of course he was reading over my shoulder. I gave him a smile to reassure him I was fine, but I don’t think it helped.
“Lou, I’m fine. I promise.” I whispered.
“Okay.” He whispered back and kissed the top of my head.
After a few more minutes we were at the awards show. First was the ‘Red Carpet’ that the boys had to go on. They asked us to join them, and there were so many bright flashes from the cameras I thought I was going blind.
After the ‘Red Carpet’, we went into a big room and sat at a table. The host went through all the nominees. Then he went through the winners.
After the award show, we went back to Louis and Harry’s flat. Jessica and I went into our room and got into sweats. When we returned to the living room, everyone else was in comfortable clothes too.
I went to sit down next to Louis, when Liam asked me come into the kitchen with him. I reluctantly nodded and got up.
We walked into the kitchen and he told me to sit at the table. I did as I was told and he sat across from me.
“So, what’s up?” I asked.
“Are you alright?”
“Yeah, I’m fine. Really, don’t worry too much; it’s not good for your health.”
“I know something is wrong, Emily. You know it will help to talk about it.”
I sighed and said “Yeah, I know. But I don’t like to talk about it.”
“I know. Just let me know if you need to. I’ll try not to worry as much, but you are my sister.”
“I know Liam, thanks.”
“No problem.”
Liam got up and walked into the living room. I sat at the kitchen table for a few more minutes and thought about what he had just said.
I got up and walked back into the living room. Everyone looked at me. I smiled and they returned the favor.
I went and sat next to Louis. He pulled me onto his lap and started playing with my hands. I leaned my head on his shoulder and asked the boys “So, now what are we going to do?”
“I don’t really know.” Niall said thinking.
“We could play a game.” Zayn suggested.
“Or, we could watch a movie.” Liam said.
“I don’t really care what we do, honestly.” I said and looked at Jessica, who just shrugged.
“Let’s watch a movie then.” Harry said and put in some random movie.
Half way through the movie, I got bored and lost interest. Everyone was watching it, and I was just sitting on Louis’ lap fidgeting with my hands.
Louis whispered in my ear “Have you lost interest, love?”
I smiled “Yeah, sorry, did I disturb you?”
“No, I’ve lost interest as well.” I slowly and quietly got up, grabbed Louis’ hand and pulled him out of the living room. When we got to the hallway, Louis pulled me up the stairs into his room, instead of going into mine.
Surprisingly his room was rather clean. He had a little bit of clothes scattered on the floor, but it wasn’t completely horrifying.
I stood in the doorway looking at him. He put his arms around my waist, and pulled me close, closing the space between us. “We leave for tour in less than a week.”
I put my arms around his neck. “Yeah, I know.”
“Are you excited?”
“I don’t know. I am, but then again, I’m not.”
“Why is that, love?”
“Well, because I don’t really want any more hate. I’ve been getting quite a lot on Twitter.”
“Why didn’t you tell me? You know I don’t like it when the fans give you hate!”
“I know, Lou. I just didn’t want you to worry. You need to concentrate on your work, not me and the hate I get.”
“You are more important than my work, Emily. You mean the world to me.”
I sighed and looked down.
“What have they been saying? How does it make you feel?”
“Well, it makes me feel completely worthless. Like I don’t deserve any of this. I have been called ugly, and fat before, but this time it’s different. It’s hard, that’s why I didn’t want to go to the awards show tonight.” I took out my phone and showed him some of the tweets I had been getting.
He read them and then looked at me. He pulled me into a hug and rested his chin on my head. “Emily, don’t listen to them. They are just jealous that they don’t have what you have. Listen to me” he said as he made me look at him. “You are not a slut, nor a whore. You are the most beautiful girl I have seen in my entire life. Don’t listen to them. They don’t know you like I do. I don’t want you to feel like this, it makes me angry when someone as gorgeous as you feels ugly.”
I nodded and tried to hold back the tears that were threatening to fall. I held most of them back, but a few escaped. Louis rubbed them away and kissed my forehead. “I love you, Emily.”
“I love you, too, Louis.”
After an hour of talking, we decided we needed to get some rest. Louis and I laid down in his bed and quickly fell asleep.