The heck. I don't have a face show at Four and Eric. I didn't get why I'm embarrassed when I see them. Is it because of the shooting scene? Or me and Eric almost kissed? I was on the infirmary to get my wound cleaned after I bumped it on the cold walls. I'm holding on the hankerchief who Eric gaved and walked pass us. I was keep thinking on what face would I show at them. What will be their thoughts about me when I'm infront of them? God. I almost kissed Eric. I also shot my brother. I laughed hard at them. Maybe Four is mad at me because of Eric. Four has a right to be mad. Well, technically his my brother, he does what is right for me. And he didn't forget that Eric almost rape me. Their both best enemy. They hated each other. My thought has been stopped when the nurse cutted me from thinking.
"Your all done." The nurse announced. I smile at her and bid my goodbyes. I was thinking if I bump one of them. What will I say? What would I do? Should I iniate a conversation?
I was having a plan to wear a cloak. To cover my faces to both of them. Is it really necessary? Maybe it is. So, by that idea, I was heading to the clothing store. Luckily, they have a cloak displaying. That would be perfect. I grabbed one and one of the lady assisted me to the counter. It's easy to walk out because it's free. I never have to pay for this cloak. Now I really look like bad-ass. Wait, it's almost dawn and they always opens here early. Should I sleep? Today is the revealing of our ranks who passed the first stage of iniatiation. I know all of my friends will pass. But I doubt Al though.
Theirs no training after that. So it's fine to wear a cloak. They say the second stage of the initiation is hard. They have a room called the Fear Room. I don't get it. Are they gonna torture us in that room or something? Tommorow will be our visiting day too. I think dad won't come. Same as Four iniatiation years ago. Only mom got to visit him. No children or siblings allowed I think.
I walked in through the doors of dorms. I make a loud sound that makes some turn their heads on me. I was already wearing my cloak. It's funny that some jumped from their beds when they saw me. The lights was out. I freaking look like a grim reaper.
"God. You startled me." Some murmured. I just chuckled. Should I give them an evil laugh? Witch laugh?
"Sorry." I say as I head towards my bed. I sit and I didn't take of my hood yet.
"What gottin' into you?" Someone asked. I just giggled as an answer. Instead I sleep with my cloak on. It's only a few hours to sleep. And it's gonna be judgement day of staying or leaving the faction.
When I woke up. I saw Chris and Tris laugh at my side. What's up with this girls? Should I give them cloaks too?
"It's not funny. It's just my new style. My outfit, I mean." I reasoned. It's kinda half true. It's just temporary. I'll take it off once I'm okay. Am I really weird looking by this? Gosh, I'm so shy.
"Your fashion sucks Alice." Christina says that and laughs more. Uh-oh. Okay. Well, it's fine.
"Whatever. Let's eat?" I asked them and also to cut them from laughing at me.
"Are you sure you want to go at the dining area with that outfit?" Tris asked. It's fine with me I guess. It's covering my whole face. I'm a grim reaper, yeah.
"What wrong with my outfit? Atleast I didn't just wear bra and panty or something." I says to them who.... Wait. Are they really my friends? Whatever.
"Okay, okay. Geez." Chris finally says. I shrugged and stand up. I put my arms around them. I'm in the middle with them actually.
When we entered the dining area, some got our attention. I looked like a geek or something. I'm really regretting wearing this. It's just so lame. It's like I'm an attention seeker. It's all up on me. I walked ahead first to our same spot. But someone grabbed my wrist while walking. Oh no. It's Four who grabbed me. I shoved my wrist from him and runned through the sits. I sit besides Al who's chugging his milk. I'm still panting ang breathing heavily after running. I don't have a face to show at Four right now. Even Eric. Woah! Geez. Why of all people who grabbed my wrist, why Four? Maybe his suspicious about me because I'm acting weird lately. Brrrr! Stop that thoughts of yours Alice.
While we're eating, our factions over all leader, Max, interupted us. Beside him was Eric and he seems like searching someone from the crowd. Is he searching me? Or maybe not. Geez. Hold on to yourself Alice. Pull your self together. He announced us our futures. Of course it is. I'm quite nervous and shy about the result and their reactions.
"Some of you trained really hard in this year. I hope it still intact in your mind the things you've learned during iniatiation. All of you still has a challenge to face yet in the next stage of training. So giddy up. Let's not make it long and get started. Here are your rankings." Max speeched us some inspirational quote. It help me lessen my worries though.
1. Edward
2. Alice
3. Uriah
4. Peter
5. Andrew
7. Drew
8. Molly
9. Marlene
10. Lynn
11. Will
12. Sarah
...............
19. Tris
20. Ethan
21. Danny
22. Rob
23. Al
And below was the red line. Thank God Al is above the line. We patted Al's shoulders. Some cheers 'Congrats Tris' and holds her shoulders. Tris was in 19th rank initiate. This was all Fours purpose all along. He let Tris captured the flag for her to get a highest score and be above the red line. That makes sense now. Four's such a clever one. But I'm not 1st though. I remembered Zeke and Will says that Four was first in his initiation and offered to be a Dauntless leader. He refused though.
I finished my food and head out. But I tripped and thankfully someone catched me. I toke off my hood to see who's my savior. He seems in his early 20's or his just 19. I don't know. His quite handsome. He has a brown sleek hair actually.
"Sorry. And thanks by the way." I say shyly. This guy. I have a good feeling in him. He seems friendly. I keep staring at his eyes and I think I'm lost in them. He has really nice grey eyes. It's attracting.
"It's fine. Oh God, your so beautiful. I'm Brandon by the way." He introduced himself. Did he said I'm so beautiful? His words made me blush. I feel my face turns red and heat up. He offered his hands after he spoke. Then I gladly accepted it. I smiled widely from ear to ear.
"I'm Alice. And your so ha-handsome too. I-I think I like you." I say shy and stuttered. This guy. His seems worth trusting. He smiled after what he heard at me. It's quite true though. God. Why do I even confess in front of a guy who I meet just by now? I must be insane.
"Thanks. I think we share the same feelings too. But I like you a lot. This is so great." He says confidently. I don't know where he get this confidence. I blushed more and I can't look at him directly.
"Uhmmm. You have any boyfriend? Well if you have then-" I cutted him from what his saying.
"No. I doesn't have one. Ever in my life. I never gotten my first either." I say shyly. Is he the right one for me? What about Eric? He smile even more that makes my cheeks blush more. His making me insane. But Four suddenly interupted us. Why is he here all of a sudden?
"Alice? Why are you with him? Anyways, we need to talk at something." Four said while his on my back. I can't afford to look at him. I'm so shy right now for the both of them.
"What are your relationship with Four Alice?" Brandon asked confused. He must think that Four is my boyfriend. His thoughts are wrong.
"Uhmmm. His my br-" I was cutted when Four piped in.
"I'm her brother so back off Brandon. I don't want you to latch off my sister." Four said while his dragging me away from Brandon. At my state, I look like a child dragged by her parent. I miss mom. But it's visiting day tomorrow. Yeah.
"See you around Brandon!" I shout before we toke turn heading towards the Chasm.
"See you Alice! Let's meet up someday!" He managed to shout before he disappeared from our sight. Four was still dragging me so I covered my face with my hood.
When we arrived at the Chasm, Four stood in front of me. While I was covering my face with my hood. I couldn't afford to look at him. It was like if I look at him I would be burnt and turned into ashes. Like his a sun and I'm allergic to it. I just lowered my head. Waiting for him to talk.
"First of all, congrats for being the second on your rank. Second, why are you dressed like that? Third, about yesterday. Just stay away from Eric. His not a nice guy like your thinking about him. It's still in the fact that he almost raped you. And lastly, that Brandon situation. Stay away from him too. He's a total player. I've seen him with girls by his side everytime. His just gonna make you a fool and make you one of his toys. I care for you Alice. I'm your brother. Just stay by my side and you'll be safer with me." Four stated. I just nod everytime he speaks. I'm a little shy though. I know his not that angry in me. But in Eric rather. I almost forgot that he raped me. But he promised that something like that will never happen again.
"Thanks Four, I needed that." I say as I hugged him. I know I have a shoulder to rely. I can trust him. His all I have and including mom. After we parted I answered some of his questions. "But it's still in the fact that I hadn't get the first place though. Like you did on your iniatiation. I was just covering myself up because I'm really embarrassed from yesterday's scene. I didn't have a face to you. Nor to Eric. I was thinking if your angry with me and scold me like father." I cutted from there.
"Don't compare me to that monster. I'm much more like a father than him at you. I never wanted to scold you. I will never gonna scold you. I'm just telling you to be safe and protecting you. I'm sorry if you think that way." He said and I hugged him again. We stayed in that for minutes. I feel comfort in his chest. Like a real father has.
After a while. I take off my cloak for good because we're having a community service. Which is helping the Amity's to load and unload supplies. Some murmured and groaned. All of the Dauntless helped. I even saw a few Abnegations and Candors. I saw Jeanine who's busy talking to the rest of Erudite leaders. I saw Johanna who's assisting some of the other Amity and Dauntless helping. Thankfully, I didn't saw dad around. It's not kind of volunteering but commanded. It's quite true though. We carry a sack of something and tossed it to the truck. But ofcourse, with someone catching them on the top of the truck.
"Great. We passed the first stage of our iniatiation and this is our reward. Glamorous." Christina sarcastically says to us. The boys chuckled I just giggled. Laughing is not my thing.
"At least we didn't harvest them and encounter those filty worms and crawling snails. Urghh." I answered her with digust of my thinking about worms and snails.
"That, I can't manage." Christina answers. While she grabbed another sack. I raised my brow at her.
"This is better than harvesting." Al said. I nodded and agreed from the idea.
"You can learn a lot from harvesting. And encounter how they grow crops." Will retorted at Al. Geez. His Erudite mind again.
"It's not quite a knowledge you know. Do Erudite has a secret garden inside their headquarter?" I retorted and asked at the same time jokingly.
"I agree with her. Being Dauntless is it's not our problem. So fuck that crop thing." Al said. They just laugh and I didn't care. I just rolled my eyes.
We almost loaded the truck and we're almost done. Then I noticed that Tris was not beside us anymore. A moment ago she was lifting the sacks with us. I felt a little tired. I'm a little exhausted from carrying this damn sacks. It was almost lunch. I'm already hungry from carrying this sacks. Then the truck is loaded. It's finally over. I think my shoulder and arms are stiffened. They're a little sore.
It's time for lunch. We head to our perspective seats and munch on our foods. This Dauntless cake is soothing. This reliefs my tiredness. I don't want Four to have my cake this time. I hope he understands. While eating, I was thinking if I bumped dad from earlier. Do I even have a face to show at him? What if he dragged me suddenly and beat up again? Arghhh. I hate thinking my past. Every nights, I got nightmares about dad beating me or Eric raping me. It's just repeating in my dreams every nights. I wonder why I didn't get any nightmare this dawn. I dismissed my thoughts and munch on my cake.
I felt someone is eyeing me. I wonder around to see who it is. Until I found Eric glancing at me. As soon as I saw him, I turned around like I never saw someone. It's just, I can't afford to look at him. His the one who gave me that nightmare. Ofcourse, how I could not forget. Why do I get close at him. Four is right. I should stay away from him. His a dangerous man. Christina almost died. Tris got almost kicked out. And all of that are because of him. His not the one for me. He never will. I'll distant myself at him. At all risked. If it's urgent then I will. My shyness over him from earlier replaced with anger and hate.
They informed us that there's going to be a party in the pit. Chris is all up for that. She said she'll manage makeups for the both of Tris and me. Tris said that it's our celebration for passing the first stage. We all agreed in that. Christina said that we must all look stunning and antonising for us to hook some good looking boys. I don't agree in that idea though. Being single is fine with me. As long as I have Four besides me. Guiding me what's right.
We're currently at a clothing store. Chris picks for our outfit tonight. While she also manage for our makeups. She also said to wear high heels. So we picked some. For the three of us. It's not necessary for Chris to hook on boys because she already has Will. Chris picked a dazzling dress for me. It's sparkles like a star on a dark night. It's a little back less. Exposing my meat from the back. While Tris is not into dress. Chris just picked her some crop top and fitted jeans. Tris seems fond with it. Christina picked for herself was simple yet elegant dress. It suit her well. Now we're almost ready for the party. It's time to party, enjoy and celebrate.
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That's it. Thanks for reading. Gosh. It's almost 500+ reads. Oh my God. Sorry for not updating this past few weeks. I didn't have credits or load. Without load, I cannot update and use the internet. I hope there's no grammatical errors. If there is. I'm sorry. You know me. I'm a Pilipino. So it sucks for not having English as first language. But I don't regret being Pilipino though.
I spoke three major tongues. It's English, Tagalog and Cebuano. Currently, Bisaya too. I can speak and understand a little of Ilonggo, Spanish, Korean and Japanese. I can write and read Hangul. 네, 마자요. And also Hiragana. こんにちわ. Just like that.
Sorry for talking about myself. So see you in the next update. Sorry if this is delayed. Hope you understand. Bye guys. 😊😊😊